The music was great and the atmosphere of the high class club's upstairs lounge was amazing, but I didn't want to be here. Nobody even realizes how bad my heart is hurting nor do they honestly care. I guess because the guys are so used to me bouncing back from girls I 'almost' caught feelings for. Everytime this happened which was not rarely , I would always go out with the guys , I would have a couple drinks that would lead to me getting head on my couch from a girl I only knew for 5 minutes and I would be good to go. I wish it was still this easy , I wish I didn't fall in love like I did sometimes because this Harry isn't fun. And fun Harry didn't give too much fucks about a girl , no matter how amazing she was.
Ive been sitting my ass at this bar for over over 30 minutes drinking the same old fireball I had at my dorm. Of course the Deen doesn't know about that. Thats when I realized my cup was empty , the song had changed , and I was still pissy. I sat the cup on the bar getting the bartenders attention . Of course she had her tits out and one of the shortest skirts in all of history , but I couldn't give too many damns about it .
"Ayy .. get me another fireball " I told her. "Sorry you drunk the last bottle , damn , what's gotten into you " She chuckles at my pissy appearance in an attempt to get a smile out of me. News flash , it wasn't working. "Just because you're a bartender doesn't mean I have to talk to you about my shitty ass life " I spat looking away . "Well damn I'm sorry you're pissed. but Hellooo you're in a club , You can take that wining shit home" She rolls her eyes dumping out my old ice and placing fresh chunks in my glass followed by sweet cherries. "Oh how much I would love to , but I'm forced to stay here and my friends are probably downstairs drunk off their asses" I shook my head with a scoff. "Oh , the old get a friend out the funk move .. I understand . It only ever works out a handful of times " She giggles . I chuckle lightly showing my dimple crease.
"Yeah well its definitely not working tonight .Not with what I'm experiencing at least "I shook my head . She sits the green sparkling drink in front of me , sprite and Green apple Liquor . "And what's that ? " She questioned me . I looked at her and she looked at me with a 'well' look . I rolled my eyes .
"I met this girl a few months ago. She absolutely beautiful , she has long brown hair and the prettiest blue eyes I've ever seen and her smile is just amazing and even though I promised myself I wouldn't fall in love a day in my life , i fell in love with her , her personality , her determination , her body , .. everything about her is just buzzing through my mind and.. I cant quit thinking about her... She made me a changed person , but then her ex boyfriend came in and he asked for my help to get her back , I regret it so fucking much I swear I do I ... and for all I know she could be out on the town with this guy .. not giving a damn about me .. all because I REFUSED to fall in love with her and tell her how I feel ... She could be kissing and being in love with this guy right now--"
"Like that ?" The bartender pointed over to a couple or , as I looked closer it was Diana and Connor .
They danced to the slow music on the dance floor under the class ceiling that showed a starry night . And here I am like a damn fool talking about her, when little did I know she was over me. "Yeah ... exactly like that " I chuckled lightly. My heart cringed at the sight of them being what me and her could have been. I was used to meeting up with her in the club like always , but never like this .
"Hey .. My shift is over . If you need a ride home my friend who works downstairs, He'll be happy to take you before me. " The bartender suggested as I just watched them look into each others eyes. "Thanks" I finally answered getting up from my seat . The bartender passed me motioning me to follow her and I did . But that still didn't get the image out of my mind. as we walked outside with me and her friend I guess the bad reception kept me from getting my text messages and my phone buzzed repeatedly .
I unlocked it and at the very bottom there was a text from .. Diana . and , she said she loved me.