I wake up, and get almost blinded by the light. I put a hand to my eyes, and look around..
I know I'm at a hospital.. The walls are white, and no windows..
I lift myself up on the elbows, and look at my legs. They look fine to me, but I can't feel them. My heart starts pounding, and I hear a bipping sound and a short woman with a brown ponytail and blue eyes comes in. She wears a white dress with a red cross on the chest. Nurse.
She has a cannula in her right hand.
She doesn't explain, just pulls it into my right leg, whereafter she pulls it out fast, and pulls it into my left leg. It looks bad, but I can't feel anything.
"What's going on?" I ask her. She just shakes her head no, filled with sympathy, whereafter she leaves the room. After a while, the door opens, and William comes bursting in. He wears a white shirt and black jeans, he's got dark shades under the eyes, and he looks at least two years older than he really is. That's when I realize, I don't know how old he really is.
His eyes are filled with grief and sadness, and my heart skips a beat.. And I'm nervous and afraid, that the cold William will show up in a minute.
I look at him, and wait for him to explain. But he doesn't.
"William.. What's going on?" I ask.
William sits down next to my bed, and looks for awhile at my legs. I shudder, but I can only feel it going through my arms and stomach. When it's about to reach my legs to my toes, I feel an emptiness, because nothing comes. Some part of me is missing. And it scares me.
"William?" I ask.
He looks at me, and I can see the sadness in his eyes. "Annabelle.. You're paralyzed.." He says.
My hands starts to shake, and my heart beats faster and faster, and I fight with the tears. "What?" is all I can say.
"Something happened.. Someone has given you something.. Which has caused for your spine to..
You're paralyzed... You are.. Your arms work.. But your legs are...
Annabelle.." He says, as he starts to shake his head..
I swallow, and look at my legs.. "No.. No.. This.. No this can't be happening.. William.. I'm not" I say, until my voice disappear into a whisper. I shake my head, as the tears starts to glide down my cheeks. One ends in my mouth. It tastes like salt, water and dirt.
William looks up at me, and grabs my hand. "Annabelle.. Annabelle.. Please... Take it easy.. I'm here.. I'm here" He says. I try to breath, one, two, three..
I get my breath under control, and I feel William's hand in mine, warm and supporting.
"I'm.. How did it happen?" I whisper.. One, two, three..
I'm rocking the part of my body that still works, back and fort, as I get my breath under control..
"It must've been while you were sleeping.. The doctors say that someone has injected some poison into your spine... Annabelle I'm so sorry, I didn't believe you.. I'm so sorry" He says in a whisper.
I remove my hand from his. "Isn't there anything they can do? What was in that injection, the nurse gave me?" I ask..
William shakes his head. "It's supposed to be the last one, to get rid of the poison, but there's nothing they can do.. Annabelle I'm sorry"
I put up a hand. "Don't apologize.." I whisper..
I will not be able to walk again.. My legs won't work..
I sigh, and I feel the hopelessness spread.. I wan't to scream, cry and hug someone, who can tell me that it's gonna be okay. But it's not gonna be okay. I will not be able to walk. The only person I have now, is William. My mom's gone.. My dad and brother... Gone..
Nobody to comfort me, or help me through this hell..
It's a nightmare I can't wake up from. I know, that I won't be able to wake up..
I just sigh, and try to get back down, to the pillows, so I might get some sleep, and maybe if I'm lucky, I won't wake up again to feel the pain of knowing, that I will not walk out of here.
I cry and scream into the pillows, for what feels like hours. William tries to comfort me, he has a hand on my shoulder, while I cry into the pillows.
After a while the tears turned into sobbing...
And then it stops completely. I just lie, with puffy red eyes from crying..
I turn in the bed, but my legs lie in straight, I can't move them.. I grab Williams hand and press it hard. He puts his other hand over mine, while he whispers; "I'm here"
And I fall asleep..