It's over. I breath again, after holding my breath for several minutes. I don't feel the pressure on my lungs anymore. I hear the "bip" from the machine that shows my heart beating. It's steady and quite.
I open my eyes, and I see a flicker of light before I close them again...
I'm not ready.
I take a deep breath, and open my eyes. I blink out the blue from my eyes, and as I get used to the light I see people. Some familiar. Some not. Lying on the ground, covering the whole floor, sitting up, talking, playing cards. Realizing I'm awake, they start to wake up each other with words of "She's awake" And "You must not miss this".
I don't understand why.
I get up on my elbows, and I sigh when I'm reminded that my legs don't work. I sit up, and look around. The whole floor is literally covered with people. I squint my eyes and see loads of people out in the hall: sitting, standing, sleeping and looking at me with curious looks.
I still don't know why.
I get irritated when the "bipping" sound fastens. I pull out the tubes in my arms, and I sigh in relief when the "bips" stop. I look around, and look at all these people in confusion.
"Am I dreaming?" I ask in confusion.
A little girl with a brown ponytail and a purple dress shakes her head. "No. We're all here" She cries out. I roll my eyes, and pinch myself in the arm, and close my eyes. It hurts, I open my eyes and see the people not disappearing.
I look at the little innocent girl. "You weren't kidding" I confess. She smiles and stands up.
Her eyes are blue as the ocean, and I feel a flick of pain coming from inside. Where is he?
I realize by the look of the girl, that I said it out loud.
"He's somewhere in the crowd" She answers with a calm look. I look at her in confusion. "Crowd? Why are all these people here?" I ask. She smiles. "Because of you." She says and sits down again, not taking her eyes from mine though. "I don't understand. What did I do?" I ask.
People rise and I look around. "You changed everything. You saved our lifes." They all say.
I swallow hard. "How?" I ask.
"You were against the santa fights, the elfs all those things.. And you won" They say.
I look around in amazement "I did?" I say.
And that's when I realize.. I did.
I remember the speeches I held, the videos that were cast, the protests. I remember killing Howard.
I remember standing up when I was weak, I remember being captured, several times. I remember my wheelchair. I remember Carla. I remember fighting against Williams hologram. I remember helping creating a hologram of my old self. I remember all the pain. I remember being pushed away, poisoned, stabbed and shocked. I remember keep going on.
And worst of all.. I remember my mom, Chris and so many other people dying before me.
I feel the pain in my chest, and I know it will never go away.
As I feel the tears, I see a shadow pushing through people. Walking fast, elegant and gently pushing people away, but still with desperation. And I see Williams blue eyes.
My heart skips a beat still, by the look of him.
His clothes are dirty and bloody. He looks exhausted, but his face lights a little bit up as he sees me. He walks over to my right side, and embrace me. I pull him as close as possible, and I let myself cry.
I kiss him, and he returns the kiss. We ignore the cheers from the people. We're alone in out own little world, and it feels so fantastic. Feeling his warmth and his beating heart. I don't ever want to let go, and I feel that the feeling is returned. At last when we let go of each other but not quite. I whisper to him; "We did it". He smiles, and nods.
I know that the pain I feel inside will never really go away, but as long as he's by my side, I'll get through it. And I love him so much, and I know I can do anything now.
We did it.