I call for Chris. I tell him to run, but he stands back with a knife in his hand. Horrified and just a child. I fall to the ground bleeding and exhausted. Chris stands in the door, his eyes meet mine, and I scream for him to run. "Run away!" I scream at him. He swallows, but stands still. I get frustrated and yell even harder. "RUN CHRIS!" He hears me clearly, and turns to run. That's when I see the spear. Chris is too slow to see it coming. I scream as it hits him. It goes right through him, and he crumbles to the floor like a doll. His face turns white, and I see the blood coming out from his mouth.
The spear has entered his body through the stomach. I put a hand over my mouth and scream in horror. I crawl on my elbows over to him. My arms are sore from the crawling an pushing, but I hold his fragile little body in my arms. I look into his deep blue-green eyes, and I grab his hand and press it hard. "Chris" I whisper. Chris looks at me. "Yes?" He whispers, and his eyes close. His body feels so cold in my arms, and his heart stops beating. He looks so peaceful he could be asleep. And I pretend he is. I put my hand over his face, and kiss his forehead. "You are brave" I whisper to him. I lie him gently down in the chaos of everything, and try to move with my arms. A foot steps in front of me. I look up, and scream..
Something is pulling me down, and I try to wrestle myself out of it, when I realize it's Williams arms.
I stop immediately and look up at him. He runs his hand over and over my hair. Trying to calm me down. "You're having nightmares again" he says worried. I breath in and out, and let him calm me. "It's probably because it's today we're going to trap Howard" He says.
I nod, and try to get up against his body. He helps me up, so I lean up against him.
"Is it today?" I ask. William nods. "We wouldn't tell you too much, because you need to act like you don't know anything" He says. I sigh in relief. "William? Can I ask you something?" I ask.
"What?" He asks. I hesitate. "It's about.. You're past.. I know you don't like to talk about it. But I need to know." I say. I feel William freeze. "Will. You're mother.. How did she pass?" I ask nervously.
"She.. She got killed.. She was walking home from work one night, and somebody got up from behind" William says. I grab his hand. "Will I'm so sorry" I say. William relaxes. "I miss her every day.. She was a great mom" he says. I nod. "Of course she was" I say.
William sighs. "I would like to ask you something as well" he says.
"Sure" I say.
"It feels like you are in so much pain, and still you say nothing to me." He says.
I take a deep breath. "Will.. This is my fight. I've never felt so different and I feel like sometimes I miss my life so much that I feel like I can't do anything. But I don't have a choice anymore. There will always be things I will not able to do, and it's killing me. But it's also making me stronger.." I say in response. William tries to put his arms around me, and give me a hug, but I resist to fall into his comfort. "I just don't want pity. I'm tired of feeling like I can't do anything" I say. On that note Will pulls back, and I grab my chair. I lift myself into the chair, and sigh in exhaustion. William dosen't object, and I'm thankful. I start to push myself further and further until I'm out of the room and down the hall. I get into Conan's office. "I'm ready" I tell him, and he looks at me. He nods, and presses a button.
An hour later. We're ready. We've been through the plan about 20 times, and talked about all situations we could be put into. Will and I haven't spoken to each other since we were in the room. I don't feel like saying something about the plan. Belle is with us, because she's a distraction. Some of the soldiars might think she's me, and chase her.
It'll confuse the system, and by the time, we'll be gone with Howard. I feel a tightening in my chest by the thought. I don't know what it is, but I have a feeling that something will go wrong. Of course I don't tell Conan, 'cause that will only bring doubts to his plans. And he'll cancel the whole thing.
-No I don't say anything.
Will is supposed to give me a sleeping injections, so it all looks more real. He sticks it into my arm without looking at me, and I feel myself getting dizzy.
I feel my sight get filled with dark spots, and I'm surrounded my dark figures and shadows.
I feel my body giving up, and I fall asleep.