I was just like the rest.
Or so you thought.
Everyday I would come to school with a smile on my face,
Only to go home and cry.
I would deceive people with a simple smile and laugh,
I never let them find out about the tears and sobs inside of me.
No, I will keep it locked inside of me,
At least that's what I always thought.
I thought I could keep it locked inside of me without it tearing me apart,
But I was wrong.
Slowly yet surely it tore my soul apart day by day,
And yet I still acted like it wasn't.
No one knew except me,
I didn't want anyone to know except me,
Or did I?
Was I suffering from the loneliness?
Or did I like it?
I didn't know and clearly I didn't care.
Because I let this pain in my heart grow.
I let my heart fuel my body with pain.
And no one knew.
Because even though I let my heart fuel my body,
Something else was fueling that fake smile,
Those fake laughs,
The happy life everyone thought I was living.
All though i thought this pain would lead to nothing,
It lead to something worse than pain,
I like to call this death.
The death of my soul,
Of my true happiness,
Of my life.
And I let this death creep over me,
I didn't try to stop it,
Because I thought no one would care if I left.
I knew no one would care.
They just all thought I was a failure.
They thought I didn't try.
They thought I chose to be alone.
They thought I wanted to hurt.
I wasn't a failure.
I did try.
I didn't choose to be alone.
They were the ones who hurt me.
I was done.
Done with them.
Done with myself.
Done with life in general.
I took the leap, the jump, the fall,
To my death.
I became just another story on the front page of the news paper.
I became the next we will always remember you.
I became the next funeral.
I was the next but certainly not last funeral.
I became what they thought I would never become,
Because they were all so stupid to see this death coming.
Because they never saw that I didn't choose to be alone.
That I didn't choose to hurt.
That I didn't choose to die.
That they forced me to be alone.
That they forced me to hurt.
That they told me to die.
They were all to stupid to see...
Who I am.
THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME OR ANYONE I KNOW.
IT IS JUST A POEM TO RAISE ANTI-BULLYING AWARENESS!!!
SO PLEASE DON'T BULLY!