I had spent the last few days with Harry, making the most of it before he went on tour. Right now, I was sitting on Harry's bed cross-legged, watching him mooch around his room finding things to pack for tour. His big, black suitcase was on the bed next to me, and I put my hand on it, as if I was trying to stop him from taking it at all. I really didn't want him to go, it was the worst timing. We had just recently become official as a couple and started saying "I love you's". Now it was all going to be temporarily stopped for 9 months. "I feel bad that you're watching me pack" Harry admitted, tossing another t-shirt into the building pile of clothes that was happening in his suitcase. "It's okay, you're going to have the best time Harry" I reassured him, putting my own feelings aside and giving him a weak smile. "Not the best time...you won't be there" He frowned, stopping for a moment to tuck a bit of loose hair behind my ear. "I'm sure it'll go quickly, and you're going to be having the time of your life every night! You're doing what you love which is the main thing" I told him, but I could feel my own emotions coming up. I didn't want to cry - I didn't want to make him feel even more guilty than he already did. I thought I had it under control, but before I knew it I started crying tears that I couldn't hold back. "Hey hey, don't cry" Harry noticed immediately, sitting next to me and pulling my head to his chest. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't be crying" I whispered. "You have every right to be upset, i'm the one leaving you here" He said, as I felt the vibrations of his voice against his chest. "I love you so much" He whispered. "I love you" I replied quietly. "Come on, it's going to be fine" Harry said, putting on a brave face. He was right - this was his dream and I should in no way be holding him back. I could still phone him and Skype. It would be fine. "Maybe we should get an early night, we're leaving at 6am tomorrow morning" He suggested. I nodded, as he zipped up his suitcase and we got changed before getting into bed. I snuggled into Harry as much as I could, desperate to make the most of the last night we would have for a while together.
The alarm went off at 5:30am, and my eyes were burning with tiredness. Harry looked equally tired. We both had a shower and got dressed in time to leave at 6. We were meeting the boys there, and Lily was going to be there with Niall so we could have a girly day to take our minds off it. The car ride was pretty silent, neither of us wanting to start each other off. We got to the airport, clinging onto each others hands. Harry was so quiet, and I was scared that he might cry - as i'd never seen him cry before and that would definitely set me off. Luckily he kept it together, as we met up with the others. Lily looked as miserable as me as we hugged and gave each other sympathetic smiles. "This is shit" She said bluntly, as the boys were busy talking. "I know, how are we going to do this?" I laughed slightly, trying to keep it positive. "At least we have each other" She nudged me, as I smiled nodding. "Okay, time to go" I heard a member of management call out. I met Harry's eyes as I felt tears come to mine. I sighed at myself for starting to cry. "Don't start, Cara" Harry said jokingly, as he wrapped his arms tightly round me, I buried my head into his chest. "Okay, okay..it'll be great, I love you and miss you already" I said, as we broke apart. "I love you so much, i'll call you when i'm there i'm in America okay?" Harry said, holding my hands. I nodded before we kissed for the last time. Lily and I stood there, watching them walk away as we both struggled to keep the tears in. "And so it begins" She joked as we walked out of the airport.