We had fell asleep at Shelby's house last night. I woke up and noticed no one else was up so I went and looked for things for breakfast in the kitchen. I noticed a small pink box on the counter wrapped in glitter ribbon. I untied the bow and opened the box to see a green recorder in it.
I pick up the recorder and walked out to the back yard and clicked play.
It's been 6 years since I've seen you. I had the baby and He looks so much like you. I named him Logan james leigh. He's 6. I moved to Mississippi and I'm doing pretty good.
I'm a famous writer now, have you read any of my books? I've poured the last 6 years of life into my last 6 books. I'm working on another one now and I'm trying hard not to forget everything and give up. Every time I see that baby I think of everything I've ever let go of, Everything I've lost, Everything that there is to come.
One of the most famous questions that I get asked if who is gonna be the one? and My answer to that is, I'm trying, I'm trying so hard but I just don't know if I can do it anymore.
I miss you.
The tape stopped. I couldn't help but think this was for me.
"What the hell are you doing!!" I heard Shelby yell. I turned around and the recorder was snatched from my hand.
"I found a box and uhh." I tried to explain
"Well, don't." She snapped and walked back inside and down a hall. I heard a door slam and Logan came running down the stairs and down the hall.
I walked back inside and saw the guys up and dressed.
I slammed my office door and not soon after there was a knock.
"Momma?" I heard Logan call. I opened the door and he jumped on me. I hugged him.
We sat in my chair while I wrote and he played.
"Momma, What happened to daddy?" He asked
"Daddy's here baby." I told him and looked happy.
"Where?" He bounced. I called the guys. ( start listening to try by colbie caillat)
"Which one do you think is daddy baby." I asked and looked at them. He looked at all of the boys and took a glance at himself in the mirror. He looked over at me and pointed to Ashton.
"Him." He said. I smiled.
"Yeah baby. That's daddy." I kissed him cheek. I sat him in my lap and we started at the mirror and smiled. Ashton came over and sat behind us and smiled.
I turned and kissed. Logan sat in Ashton's lap. Ashton grabbed me and pulled me down and the guys took Logan and closed the door.
"I missed you." He said.
"I wish I could say the same thing." I said and stopped.
"What?" He asked
"I miss you. I still miss you. Don't try and pretend like this never happened please. You are going to have to leave and I'll be here going on with my life and continuing what I have to do." I said and my phone started ringing.
"Hey, Mark, talk to me." I said and sat on my desk. Ashton came over to me and started kissing my neck. I pushed him away and finished my convo with Mark. I hung up the phone and hopped off of the desk.
"Look Ashton, I miss you. I really do but I don't want to start something I won't be able to finish okay. So stop and please just don't try anything. Especially not with my kid in the room." i said and opened the door. I looked in the mirror and fixed my hair and skirt. I grabbed my underwear from Ashton and left.
I walked into the living room and grabbed Logan.
"Hey buddy. You know what time it is?" I asked him and he shook his head.
"TICKLE TIME." I yelled and started to tickle him. We fell over and he tickled me. He was lifted off of me and I was pulled up. Michael looked at me and whispered in my ear.
"You might want to put underwear on. We just saw everything Ashton saw." Michael said and I laughed.
"Well maybe I intended for you to see a little more." I whispered in his ear.
"don't do that." He said and grabbed my ass and made it look like he was hugging me.
"Oh right, later then." I whispered back and walked away.
"LO LO. Come change buddy." I yelled and then helped him change into his swim suit.
I put mine on the noticed the top was a little small. I shrugged and brought Logan out to the pool. I helped him into the pool and he swam away. I sat down and watched him swim. He jumped in a lot and played with his pool toys.
"Hey, Shelby. we are about to leave but we'll be back later if thats cool with you." I heard Calum yell.
"Yeah sure." I said and went o hug them all. I hugged Michael and everyone was already in the car. He untied my top and backed away. I grabbed my boobs and looked at him.
"Nice try clifford." I laughed and tied it back. I grabbed him and he moaned. I laughed and walked back to the pool and jumped in.
Logan and I were just getting out of the pool when the boys showed up again.
"Hey boys." I called while wrapping a towel around Logan.
"Hey." THey yelled
"Ashton come here please." I yelled and he came to me.
"Could you get him dry please while I go shower." I asked he gladly took him.
I was finished showering and I wrapped a towel around me and walked out of my bathroom into my bedroom. I closed and locked the doors and started to get dressed.
"I wouldn't be in such a hurry to put those clothes on. I'm loving the view." I heard Michael say. I turned around and laughed.
"Well, it's not the first time you've seen me naked. And I'm sure it won't be the last." I said and he smirked. He walked over to me and pulled me to him and kissed down my neck. He lifted up one of my legs and wrapped it around his waist and ran his hand up my thigh.
"You know as much as I'd love to fuck you right now, I have a son to get to." I said and put on sweats and a hoodie. I walked out of the door and ran down stairs and grabbed Logan.
"Did you take a bath?" I asked and he nodded.
"Well, tonight is chinese so go get the phone." I told him and I took out the menu. I started to order and the guys ordered their food.
"So I'm guessing you guys are sleeping here again?" I said and they all nodded.
"Allright well then I call sleeping with LUKE." I yelled and jumped on him.
"Oh, Luke beware she'll turn you on then leave you there." Ashton snapped.
"Look, just because I wouldn't sleep with you doesn't mean you can be an ass. And trust me if I want to have sex with Luke. I can." I told him and scoffed.
"Yeah like I don't know about you almost fucking michael." He snapped.
"Don't say those words around my kid. Plus it's none of your business who I'm having sex with and who I'm not." I yelled
"Fine then go ahead and be a whore. Fuck every guy in sight." He yelled back
"Woah. That's a little far." Calum said
"GODDAMMIT ASHTON!! If I'm such a whore then explain to me how the only guy I've ever fucked is standing right here. How the only guy I've ever had a kid with is here. You!! Your the only guy I've ever slept with and had a kid with. After I left you I wouldn't go near another guy. Hugged looked at or anything because of you. The only guy I've gotten close to is Mark and that's because he's happily Married with 5 kids. So why don't you just rethink what you said. Because if I'm a whore then I guess I'll go ahead and sleep with everyone. So just go ahead and get the hell out of my house because you are the last person I want to see ever again." I yelled at him and he walked out. I was pissed. I grabbed Luke and went to my room.
"Fuck me." I said to Luke and stripped him.
"No." He said
"Yes you are. If he wants to call me a whore then I'll prove it to him." I said and kissed him. I pushed down on the bed and stripped my clothes. He soon starred kissing back and leaving hickeys on my neck.
I woke up and looked around to see my room a mess and Luke and I were naked.
"Damn, did I really fuck him last night?" I mumbled to myself.
"Yes, You fucked your best friend of 10 years. The person that you told EVERYTHING to. Keep in mind that is the first time I have ever seen you naked." Luke said and kissed me.
"I'm gonna go take a shower. Coming." I asked and we went to the bathroom.
I put on a robe and walked downstairs. I made myself Coffee. I turned to see Michael and Logan coming down the stairs.
"So when is it my turn." He asked and laughed.
"I don't know. I fucked up big time Mikey. I fucked Luke and I have a kid with Ashton. He called me a whore now I'm playing his game." I said
"Well, If it makes you feel any better Calum and I are totally fine with having sex with you." He said
"So you've thought this over." I laughed.
"Yes very throughly. We just have to get Luke in." He said
"Wait so you planned for us all to have sex." I said shocked
"Yes." He agreed
"Oh my god Michael." I laughed and walked to my office. I started writing and covering interview and things. We have finally gotten the merchandise out and book signings and met and greets done. I have everything done except two more interviews that are in a few weeks so I have time.
Luke walked in and laughed.
"So Michael told me about the sex and stuff." He said
"Wow. Well I have a few things to do today so do you mind coming with me and Logan." I asked and he shook his head.
"Sure but you still have Calum and Michael that are here." He said
"I know and I'm really hoping they don't trash the place but I'm cool if they do I mean hell I'll pay for it to be cleaned." I said.