It's been nearly 4 months since that happened and we are just starting to get back into a normal routine. I was sitting in the living room with Kylie on the floor playing with some toys. Michael had left a few hours ago for work. Kylie picked up a toys and threw it, hitting me in the shoulder.
"No ma'am." I told her and popped her hand. She started crying and I sighed. I put her in her play pin picking up the toys. I threw a toy in the bin.
"SCOOOOOOORRREEE!!" I yelled and turned around to see Michael standing there laughing at me. I laughed so hard I snorted making Michael laugh harder. I grabbed Kylie and walked upstairs putting her in her bed. I gave her a bottle and put the baby monitor next the her.
"You are amazingly hot." He smirked pulling my hips to his. I scrunched my face and smiled. I kissed him quick and looked at him.
"I have a party to plan." I said pushing him away.
"What party?" He asked
"MY party. I'm having a party for no reason. It'll just be our friends and the boys. I have a babysitter for Kylie so we'll be good." I said running down the stairs with him after me.
"And when is this supposed to happen?" He asked
"Um tomorrow I think. What day is it?" I asked
"Monday." He laughed.
"Oh, then this weekend. Yea this weekend." I said jumping onto the counter. Michael pulled my legs and stood between them.
"Can I help you?" I asked.
"Yes you can." He said sliding his hands up my back.
"Oh, well too bad. I have things to do." I moved his hands.
"Like what?" He asked holding me in place.
"Like, cleaning." I said.
"You've been cleaning since I left this morning. This house is spotless and the baby is asleep. What else is there?" He asked
"Nothing, I just don't wanna." I said hopping down. "Not since then. I don't want another accident to happen." I told him walking away.
"Nothing is going to happen. If you want me to I'll use it. We won't have another incident I promise." He said
"You also said that Kyle would be fine. You were wrong." I told him walking up to the room.
"Oh my god. You are not going to blame me for this okay. I did nothing wrong. We haven't even touched each other since then. It's like you took a vow of chastity. Nothing is going to happen Shelby. It was one time. He was sick. I feel horrible about this but we can't hang on to it forever. I get it sucks but you have to let go." He said pulling me into a hug.
"No. I'm not letting go of him. He was my kid and he died on my watch!! This is my fault!!"I yelled.
"God dammit shelby!!" He yelled back. I stood still.