She said yes! Thank god!! But we're leaving in 3 days to go back to Sydney for a few weeks until we go on tour in the U.S. That means only a few more weeks with Belle if I can stay here instead of going back to Sydney or she comes with me. I almost feel guilty that I asked her out now that I'm going to leave but hopefully she could come with me or we can make it work long term. No. That wouldn't work.
Remember what happened to Amanda last time you went on tour!!
I pushed those thoughts to the back of my mind and helped Belle up off the ground to go back inside. I held onto her hand as we walked inside.
"Oh they're here guys! Don't worry!" Michael yelled as he poked his head out of the dressing room.
"What were you doing? Having sex on the street?" Luke laughed winking at us.
"You can talk! At least we weren't having sex in the hallway!!" Belle said and Emilie shot her a glare as she went bright red.
"Okay!" I said before anything to drastic happened. "Is everyone ready to leave?"
Everyone nodded so we walked outside to the 2 cars. This time I jumped in the same car as Belle and Ash and Em,Luke and Michael went in the other. We drove back to the hotel in silence and I held onto Belle's hand the whole time but she had her eyes closed and her head on my shoulder. She had her jumper wrapped around her waist but her forearms were still full of bracelets. Artists bands, homemade bands and some other bands which kinda looked surfy. She even had a 5sos one. She's so cute. I touched her wrist admiring them but she instantly pulled away holding her wrist with her other hand as she stared at me as if I was a ghost.
"Sorry, I was just looking at your 5sos band." I really didn't mean to scare her, I was just looking.
"Uh...it's okay...I just don't li-"
"Belle!" Ashton was sitting on the other side of her he interrupted her in a yelled whisper. "Please tell me you don't." He shook his head.
She just put her head down in her hands and I could hear her starting to sob.
"Please don't hate me. I just...sometimes I can't handle stuff...I'm just sensitive." She said between breathes.
Me and Ashton just exchanged looks.
I can't believe this. I hate it when people find out or they ask stupid questions. I don't like people thinking that I need their help or sympathy or anything because I don't. It's my business what happens when I'm alone and that is that.
I had my head in my hands and tears rolling down my face.
"Please don't hate me. I just...sometimes I can't handle stuff...I'm just sensitive." I said between breathes.
It was silent for a minute and then they both hugged me.
"We would never hate you, Belle."
"I'm so sorry Belle. I didn't know"
"I really don't need you to feel sorry or anything I'm fine dealing with it alone." The words came out harsher than I wanted and they both let go of me.
Calum furrowed his eyebrows. "What?! So you just expect us to stand back and just watch you hurt yourself?? Just pretend we don't know!!"
"Yes that's exactly what I expect you to do." I said wiping away the tears.
"What?" I was shocked
"I'm going to do that!" He crossed his arms and looked down at me. "You can't just asked me to not care about you!"
"Calum please, you are the only people who know other than Em and if my parents or anyone in my family find out they'll send me back and I don't want to be sent back" I felt another tear roll down my cheek as I took his hand. His face softened when I finished speaking.
Ashton was just sitting in his seat with his head in his hands. Just as Calum was about to respond Ashton spoke up.
"Calum's right Belle, we can't just forget about it. We care about you and to think that you would do this to yourself hurts us more than you can imagine." His voice was quiet, almost a whisper.
I turned around to face him still holding onto Cal's hand.
"Fine" I sighed still with tears on my cheeks. Ash wiped them away with his thumb and I felt Calum's grip tighten.
The car came to a stop and I sighed as we filed out. When I got out Emilie ran up to me but her smile instantly faded when she saw I'd been crying. Then she didn't even say hello to me and walked straight past as everyone walked back through the back door of the Casino. She pushed Calum in the back and he almost toppled over.
"Why the hell is she crying? Huh? I left you in a car for 15 minutes with her and you can't even keep a smile on her face." His face looked as if she was holding a gun.
"Emilie stop please," I grabbed her arm trying to pull away. "I'll explain later."
She shook me off and turned back to Calum putting her hands on her hips as she looked up at him.
"Look Emilie, I get why your so protective of her now and I would be too if I were you and from now on I'm going to be. But I promise I didn't do anything we were just talking about something which made her upset." Emilie's face softened as his voice was calm. She looked back at me and I slightly smiled and then it hit her what he was talking about. Her face turned from being sympathetic to almost angry again but crossed with amazement.
"Holy crap Belle, I'm so sorry, I didn't think you were telling people-" I cut her off there
"I wasn't, he just...he saw. Ashton knows too" I said with a sigh looking down.
"What do I know?" Ashton perked up.
Emilie gestured to my wrist and he immediately understood what she was talking about.
We were all standing awkwardly in the lobby of the hotel. Nobody really knowing what to say and if they did then they didn't have the confidence to say it.
Eventually Michael spoke up. "Are you guys coming up to the room?" He asked. Me and Emilie glanced at each other.
"Yeah why not?" I responded because I had a feeling she wasn't going to.