3. more life, no life
I am able to connect with this on a personal level. I go through the same things. If I told anyone what was going on they wouldn't understand they would send me away for being suicidal. She tries.... but....
I look up into the clear sky
The tears run like liquid crystals down my face
Because of this the angels cry
Because I have this life to waste
The frost and snowflakes bites me
The beauty of their faces clear
The loveliness is just to spite me
And they run down, they turn to ice; my tears
I see red all around me
What is this, what is sounding?
Why does the blood run down from my eyes?
Is that why I did? Did I cry?
Through the window I see
I see your face, full of longing,
Fingers reaching out like a tree
But we can never reach
What is that I see in the mirror?
Is that I? In the reflection?
Why do I look like I am dead?
Because I am being cut apart, section by section...
Is this the time, or is it too late?
Should I choose to stay or choose to jump?
For living in a world with all this hate
Can make a person want to die
I have feelings too, you know
I may always talk in monotone
But look more closely, for it is a mask
The only reason that I do not tell...is not one cares enough to ask
The fire in my heart,
It has long gone out
The twists, the blood, the veins, they are like art
Every heartbeat is just a-shout, a-shout, a-shout
I reach in the dark
I long for some light,
For what is the point of being,
If you have to live in fright?
She would feel the ice creeping, growing in her chest
And soon, she knew, she would ever rest
But there was one last thing she had to do
She had to say goodbye, I love you too
And then, the angels said,
The poor girl perished into the land of dead
For all of it she could take no more
And there she shall wait, forevermore.
Sometimes I wish I could admit things
Even if it's all just a lie
Sometimes I wish I could forget things
But memories never die
I let myself drown in insanity
I can't find my personality
A demon has taken over
It's like I'm drunk but sober
The world around me twists and turns
My heart inside me bleeds and burns
The people I thought I knew
Have turned against me, I had no clue
I can't remember the days or the past
But it doesn't matter, my days here won't last
You see, I've got something on my mind
Something known as suicide
A solution for the one I cannot find
Just to put my life aside
A solution for the problem I cannot solve
When everything around me seems to dissolve
Should I be a friend and care in return?
Or should my emotions simmer and burn?
Why does this even matter really?
It's just stupid and silly
I sit around as life continues
My life is pointless, there is no use
I'm tired of trying
Yeah, I'm smiling
But inside I'm dying
I must be lying