We spent the next few hours preparing Ashton's house for the party. Luke and I started to blow up balloons and he was laughing at me since I could blow a single one up and when I did he would pop it in my face. Eventually we had enough balloons and we already decorated enough so while we waited for them to come we went to get ice cream. The shop was not that busy since it was a school day and most kids were in school.I ordered a small chocolate cone , Ashton and large swirled cone, and Luke a medium chocolate cone with sprinkles. We sat and ate them at the shop and soon enough we were on our way back to Ash's house for the party. When we got there school just got out and we were expecting Michael, Calum, Alexis, and whoever else they were bringing. I was nervous to say the least. I was never asked , well invited to go to a party at my old school because they knew I was too busy working and I never had time. Also with eh fact that I have never met Alexis and half of the people at the party I will not know.
Luke and I sat on the couch where he was playing Running from Lions by All Time Low on his guitar . I started to hum along and I saw him smiling at me. I got closer to him and said," Can you show me the cords to that song, I absolutely love that song!" A huge grin came across his face and he then sat up straight and said," Sure ,why not ." He adjusted the position of us , so his left arm was around my shoulder and was able to help me with the cords. To say the position was awkward would be a lie. It felt like I was suppose to be there. When we got up to the verse :Running from lions.... , The door bell ringed. Ashton immediately opened it and standing there was Michael , Calum ,and a blonde just behind them. Luke and I got up and walked to the door. Luke and Ashton were greeting Alexis with Happy birthdays. I just smiled and when her eyes landed on me I stuck out my hand and said," I am Violet, it is nice to meet you and Happy birthday!" She gave me a half smile then said," Same, well except the happy birthday part." I giggled with her and they then carried on.
Not an hour later , the house is filling up with people who know Alexis. I got separated from Luke and the others were no where to be found. As I was making my way through the crowds of people, I became unsteadily sick. I then headed for the front door. When I got out side and could breath I decided to go for a walk. The boys do not really need me around right now anyways. They are busy celebrating Alexis birthday and I understand. I start walking in a random location. I found my way to a small park by sunset and I decided to go and sit on a swing. As I rocked back and forth I watch the sun slowly set off in the distance. The shades of yellow, orange, pink, and purple going away with it and the dark night sky and being revealed. I lost track of time and Realized my phone was not on me , but in Luke's car . I then decided to walk back before someone panics that I am gone , especially Luke since he knows my secret.
My walk back was even lonelier. My focus was on the ground, counting the cracks in the sidewalks. I started to heard the sound of music again and knew I was back. I looked around and the house was still as full as ever and I did not want to go back in now. I guess I do not like the crowds of people and to be honest it is just annoying that out of the decent 50 people there I will still feel lonely. I decided to go up to Luke's car and just my luck he left it unlocked. I grabbed my phone and then decided to walk home. When I arrived home , my aunt was still gone and my house was silent. The only thing you could here besides my breathing was the creaks the house made now and then. I went up stairs and changed into some short and a T'shirt. I then crawled into my bed and did the only thing that helped me sleep;cry.
When I woke up for school today, I decided to wear sweats, a hoodie, and just forget about getting ready. Michael came to pick me up like always and he was jamming up the music and singing along. This caused me to smile , but something was missing. Today was one of the days I did not want to talk to anybody. I planned on doing just that too. As classes went by I just nodded my head for when the boys tried to talk to me and almost all caught on , but Luke was persistent. At lunch I knew if I sat with them I would have to talk , so I went and hung out in the library for the rest of lunch. When It was time for Michael to drive me home, I said not a single word. I just waved.
My home was still silent and I did not plan on doing anything today. When my doorbell ringed , I was suspicious of it. When I opened it however, it was Luke. My heart started to beat faster in a way , but my mouth instantly said," What are you doing here?" His face seemed down from the moment I open the door and he said," I was wondering why you were not talking today and plus we have a conversation we need to pick up." I smiled and let him in and I said," I just was not in the mood for talking today, but I think I can make an exception for this conversation." He smiled then started to fiddle with the many bracelets he had on today. I was waiting for him to say what he need to ,but he was still fighting with himself I guess. " Well, Are you going to speak?" I asked him. He looked me into my eyes and said," I think it would be easier to do!" I smiled a little thinking he was probably going to like make something or play it out so I replied," Okay , then do!" Instantly his lips crashed into mine. Like I was programmed or something I was kissing back. IT felt like electricity was flowing through my body. They way his lips mingled with mine and they way his lip ring felt I never wanted the moment to end. Neither did he because his hands cupped my face I was slowly backed up to a wall.