Knowing Luke was now talking to me help my day. The other guys still were not talking to me. To say I blame them , would be a lie. I would not talk to myself either after the way I treated them. I know what I needed to do know. I was going to apologize to Michael first on the way home. Personally this is like going through a brink wall because for years I'm been use to people not caring and this is just a different feeling. I also knew that Luke was right about Kyle I don't need him and I'll officially break up with him today because last time he refuse to admit it. At the of the end of the day my nerves were racking up. When I made my way to Michael's car Luke was walking with me. He I believe could see the stress on me and started telling me jokes. I was laughing my head off and I was glad about it. Everything else was pushed aside and I was focused on Luke. Sadly it ended when We got to Michael's car. " See you later Luke. Thanks for everything again, I really appreciate it," I explained to him. He gave me a beautiful smile ," No problem, and remember if you need to just call me." I smiled and waved and got into the passenger seat of the car. Michael said his round of goodbyes to the boys, even though he will be seeing them again, then got into the car.
The ride was silent and as much as I wanted to spill, I had to wait when all his attention was on me. first off because I do not want us to get into an accident and secondly so he can see the guilt in my eyes. He pulled up in my drive way and parked and I then said, " Before I go I wanted to say sorry for yesterday, it was uncalled for and I just am not use to having people give a S**t in my life. Not since my dad left me to take care of my brother. I was just hoping we can be friends again. I also was wondering if I could come by your band practice later to apologize to Ashton and Calum. " He let out a big sigh ," I understand why you blew up yesterday on us. I would like for you to come to our practice anyways. I am sorry about being cold to you today. It is just hard seeing you put yourself through that pain and the guys agree with me. Why do you put up with him?" I looked down and said," I kind of expected some questions , but I planned doing them later at your house , so I do not have to retell everything. Believe me , it is hard enough living this." He nodded his head and said," See ya later!"
When I enter my home I went straight to my dull room. I realized ever since I moved in I did nothing with it besides add in my old furniture. I looked around and decided I'll have to changed that , but for now it will have to do. I changed into some sweats and a white t'shirt then grabbed my phone to officially break up with Kyle. I dialed his number and it was ringing. Eventually his deep voice answered," Hey babe?" I cringed at his words." Hey Kyle," I replied with a sad tone," I wanted to tell you this now and it is the truth. The truth is that we are not working anymore and I can not handle your abuse or words for a matter of fact. I am done in general and wanted to say goodbye. We are done and this is probably the last you will hear from me!" I felt some sort of power after saying that and I felt frighten after what his reply was," LISTEN HERE YOU LITTLE B***H , WE HAD AN F***ING DEAL AND YOU WILL COMMIT TO IT OR ELSE! YOU BASICALLY GAVE YOU WHOLE F****ING UGLY LIFE TO ME AND I EXPECT FOR EVER SINGLE CENT I PAYED FOR YOU TO BE RE PAYED ONE WAY OR ANOTHER." My nerves were re-racking up and I did this as fast as I could," NO, I did what you said and now this deal is off and we are over!" I hanged up before anything else happened.
Tears were coming down my face and I was scared what he was going to do about this. To make matters worse his words were running through my head like they are on repeat. I got up it did the only thing to make it stop. I looked down at my fresh scars and started making more. Eventually I stopped because I knew to many would give it away and that is the one thing no one knows about. I cleaned them up and then remember I said I would go to the band practice. I put some bandages on my wrists then put on a hoodie. I slipped on converse and made my way next door.
Hey......really this A/N is because I am bored out of my mind right now and have nothing better to do , so I hope you like my random blabber and this update. Like , favorite, and comment! thanks for reading see ya next update.