11. chapter eleventh
The boys did not seem to care that Luke and I left for dinner they just continued with their goofy ways. Luke guided me to his car and like a gentleman, he opened the door too. I laughed and said," If you are trying to impress me you can stop, All you need to say is your in a band. That my friend is a chick magnet." He chuckled while getting in his side and said," Are you trying to help me with other girls?"I smiled and said," Please I am just telling you what to say!" He smirked and said," Well, I will be putting that into good use someday!"
We arrived at this diner in town and we got a booth. Him on one side , and I the other. We started to talk about random stuff taking turns asking and listening. Our food came and we ate and then we decided to go for a walk before coming home. We start our walk hand in hand really close to each other. After minutes of silence I asked the questions that has been on my mind," Luke, Are you really serious about dating and us? Honestly !" He squeezed my hand as reassurance and said,"I am dead serious and I get that after Kyle you might scared , but I will take my time. As long as I know I can hold you at night." I got up closer to him and squeezed his hand tighht and said,"Thanks so much Luke, everything you done has been extraordinary."
I got home at 11 and quietly went to my room. I nearly jumped in my bed . Butterflies filling my stomach. Today has been wonderful and for the first time I do not feel like cutting . I do not feel ready to stab myself the minute something bad goes wrong. I feel ready to face things head on. I got ready for bed and curled up goung to sleep. When I woke up I was feeling hot. Not hot as is beautiful or sexy hot as in sick. I get up and I try walking down stairs , but I felt dizzy. When I made it down my Aunt took one look at me and said,"You're staying home today, and sadly I have to work so You will be alone." No arguing was done I marched back up to my room.
I fell back asleep for what seemed like minutes, but when I woke up due to knocking on the door I turned out to be hours. I wrapped a blanket around me and started to make my way. When I open the door I see Luke. He looks at me and says," What's wrong babe!" I let him in and say," I'm sick, Honestly it is really hard to stand with out feeling like I am going to faint on you!" I guess he got nerves and wrapped his arm around me and said ,"Then let me help you back to bed and we can watch some movies!"