I am not
I am not a girl,
Or at least that's what I've been told,
I am not who I decide to be,
I am not defined by me,
I am not what I think,
Because my DNA says so.
I am not unique,
Or at least I shouldn't want to be,
I am not to stand out,
Or scream or shout,
"I am not normal!"
Because that would look bad.
But I am.
I am a girl,
And if that makes me messed up,
Then the one messing me up is not me,
It's the obsessive protests of all around me,
So keen to say: "You are not!"
Well if there is one thing I am not,
I am not a slave,
Not to you,
Not to my genes,
Not to the not-quite-hidden whispering,
Not to social normality,
Not to painful reality,
I am not who you want me to be.
This is who I am:
A half boy, half girl, half straight, half lesbian, slightly eccentric, hopeless romantic, physics nerd who reads, sings and writes about the things they care about and will never fit in.
A teenager with a dark past, who wears make-up on occasion, longs to wear a dress, constantly worries, is terrified of the world but not the world itself, who will never have a perfect body.
But you know what?
It's who I am.
EIGHT MONTHS COMPLETE
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Once again, I cannot begin to express how grateful I am for the support.
I've been struggling to get the chance to write recently but I was determined to keep this going, my apologies for the poor formatting.
Writing these poems has really helped me make sense of what's going on in my head, I'm just glad you lot can all enjoy them as well :)
EIGHT MONTHS DOWN...THE REST OF MY LIFE TO GO!