2. The Resolution
I couldn't believe my ears therefore I asked her, "What did you say?" She repeated to me what she had said and I looked at the ground with disbelief. Why would a little six year say such a thing? I look back at her and answer her, "Lillian we don't kill people, mommy may have done some bad things in her life, but no one deserves to die. Mommy is just having a hard time since dad passed away." She then looks at me with disbelief and asks me, "Then why did Mommy kill daddy?" I hug her as tight as I have ever done before, she must've had a bad nightmare last night or something and that's why she's thinking this stuff. I then answer her and say, "Oh Lillian, you know Mommy didn't do such a thing. Daddy passed in a car accident, Mommy didn't do anything to dad." She pulls away from me in a blink of an eye and yells, "YES SHE DID! WHY DON'T YOU BELIEVE ME!?" I sigh and answer, "Sweetie, you were only two when dad died, you weren't even able to barely feed yourself." Lillian was starting to get very angry, she threw her arms up in the air and yelled, "YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I KNOW!" She buried herself in her pillows and for now I think it's just best to leave her alone. I slowly and quietly leave the room, and shut the door behind me. I walk into the living room and sit on the couch, when all the sudden Mom and Todd come into the room. Mom looks at me and says, "We're moving again, tomorrow, pack yours and Lillian stuff, now." I jump onto my feet and yell, "BUT WE JUST FRICKEN MOVED HERE!" Todd then gets closer to my face and yells at me, "Don't talk to your mother like that!" I push him back out of the way and yell back, "She's not my mother!" I stomp back to the room and slam the door once again. Why does this always happen to us? I look at Lillian who which still has her face buried in her pillows. I go and sit on my bed and start to think to myself. How can I change all of this, killing our mother isn't an option. But what other ways can I change this? Running away? Calling the police?.... Committing suicide? The last two aren't and option, The police wouldn't even listen, and suicide is just not a good resolution, because first of all I couldn't leave Lillian, she needs me and second of all suicide is like giving up, something I don't do. Yes, I think the first one is the best choice.