LETTER'S TO RYDER
We only stayed in New York for a few days before we headed home. I was exhausted beyond belief but my daughter was nearly screaming her head off so I was sat in her room, feeding her. I could hear Jared moving around and sighing a lot before he came into her room.
"Hey." He said and I looked over at him with one eye open.
"Hi." I said and he sighed a few more times and I sat up a little straighter. "What's going on?" I asked just as Ryder fell asleep and I put my boob back in my shirt.
"This isn't working anymore." He said and my entire world just dropped. I knew it was coming but actually hearing it come from his mouth tore me to pieces. Why is that he didn't say anything sooner? I would have tried harder to not get pregnant. I wouldn't have said yes when he asked me to marry him. "I think you should pack your and Ryder's stuff." I nodded my head before standing up and placing her in her seat. I quickly grabbed bags and threw our clothes in it. I grabbed bottles, and wash clothes and diapers and anything else baby related and put it out in the hall for to grab and put in the car. I left Ryder with Jared while I put everything away. "I'm sorry." He said to me and I just shook my head. He kissed Ryder before he closed the door, and that was it.
I wasn't sure where I was going to go. I had no family left. I had no one to go to. This was really the end for us. I glanced in the mirror to see the sleeping baby in the back of my car and I broke down in tears. I wish I could give her more but I can't. I should have known that it wasn't going to work out. I was so stupid! He meant everything to me and he just threw it all away and I knew this was the last time I would ever see him and I wasn't sure how I was going to handle that.
I ended up at Heather's where I rang the doorbell and she looked at me confused.
"He left me!" I said falling into her arms. I wasn't sure what else to do, this was all that I could think of.
"He what?" She said.
"He doesn't want us anymore." I answered. I was so heartbroken. We had no where to go, my daughter didn't have a dad. How was I suppose to do this on my own.
"I don't know!" I said looking over at Ryder who was in Liam's arms. "What am I going to do?" I asked. How was I going to raise this little girl on my own?
"Why is he doing this?" Heather asked and I just shook my head. I had no idea what was going on and I was so heartbroken.
"He's calling me." I said as I picked up the phone. "Hello?"
"Where are you? Where's Ryder? Where is all your stuff?" He asked into the phone and I was so confused.
"What? You kicked us out." I said into the phone.
"What the hell are you talking about? Why would I ever do that?" I was so confused right now. "I just got home and all your shit was gone."
"Are you on drugs or something?" I asked standing up.
"I have no idea what's going on right now but please come home." He said.
"I'll be there in a few minutes." I said before hanging up. "Watch her for me? There are bottles in the diaper bag that I pumped earlier today." I said and they nodded their heads.
"What is going on?" Jared asked as soon as I opened the door.
"I woke up this morning and you kicked me and Ryder out of the house."
"No I didn't! Why would I do that? I love both of you more than life itself."
"Then who the hell broke up with me? And then kicked me out?!" I asked he just ran his hands through his hair.
"I did." A guy said coming out of Ryder's room and I screamed before standing behind Jared.
"Who the hell are you?" He was a spitting image of Jared. They literally even had the same tattoo's.
"I'm your worst nightmare."
"Yeah we gathered that." I said rolling my eyes. "What do you want?" I asked.
"I've been watching you two for months. I've seen you naked, I've seen your daughter naked."
"You sick fuck!" I shouted going to charge at him but Jared stopped me. "She's a newborn you sick bastard!" I shouted as Jared tried to calm me down.
"What do you want?" Jared asked as I went into the kitchen to calm myself down but also call the cops.
"I want your daughter. Where is she?" He asked. He actually thought I was going to bring my daughter back here? He's crazy.
"911 what's your emergency."
"There's a guy in my house, he's trying to take our daughter." I said rushed into the phone.
"Okay, what's your address?" I gave it to her. "Okay, I'm sending a cruiser over there right now. Stay on the line with me okay? Where is your daughter?" She asked.
"She's at my mother in law's but I'm afraid. This guy has been stalking us for months." I screamed as a gun shot went off and I heard someone fall to the floor. "Please hurry! He has a gun!" I shouted. I had no idea what the hell was going on but I scared for my life and I was scared for Jared's. The cops came busting through the front door just as the guy tried to leave. "Jared!" I shouted as I saw him laying on the floor. He didn't seem injured or anything but I did hear a gun shot go off.
"I'm fine. I'm pretending so he wouldn't shoot again. The bullet went through the front door."
"Ma'am, what's going on here?" And officer asked me.
"That man has been stalking us for months. He broke in and he tried to kidnap our daughter."
"Where is your daughter now?"
"She's at my mother-in-law's house. I think he stole some things too." I always take off my rings when I go to feed Ryder and the cop pulled my engagement ring out of the guys pockets along with the diamond earrings that I got from my mother before she died.
"Sir, you are under arrest for stolen property, breaking and entering and attempt at kidnapping." I held Jared as tight as I could. I was so scared. What if he gotten a hold on Ryder? What if he raped her or me? "Why do you look exactly like this guy?" He asked the guy who looked exactly like Jared.
"I got plastic surgery to make myself look like him so I could pretend to be the babies father." I was shocked and I began to cry. He was going to try and hurt my little girl!
"If you ever come near me, my fiance or my daughter again, it will be the last thing you ever do." Jared said getting up in his face. The cops took him away and checked our apartment for damage and seeing where he may have gotten in.
"We are not staying here. We are moving." I said to Jared and he agreed.
"I was so scared. I came home and all your shit was gone. I thought you left me. I was brokenhearted."
"Well, he told me to get out that it wasn't working so I packed up me and Ryder's stuff and good thing I did. He was going to try and hurt her."
"Help me pack my stuff." He said and we quickly got bags and bags and packed away all of his stuff. "Ryan, stop crying. It's going to be okay." He said pulling me into his lap. I couldn't help but cry.
"What if I was still asleep?" I asked.
"Babe, nothing happened. You need to relax."
"What if this happens again?" I then got a call from Heather.
"Why are you guys on the news?!" She yelled into the phone. "We are coming over there!" She said.
"Okay. I'll explain when you get here." I was shaken up. I just wanted Jared to hold me. "Please stop. I need you." I said to him as I sat on his lap.
"It's okay. We are going to figure this all out." What if someone he knew was also stalking us and was planning on hurting us if something happened to that other guy? "I would never leave you and I would never kick you out. I will protect you guys at all cost." He said rubbing his hands up and down my back.
"I'm just so scared." I said looking up at him.
"I am too but you have me. I will protect you." Heather came into the room and handed Ryder to us before she started packing the things that were all over the floor.
"What's going on?" She asked.
"There was a guy who was stalking us. He wanted to hurt Ryder." I looked down at the sleeping baby in Jared's arms and I couldn't help but cry. I was trying so hard to give this kid a normal life and for her parents to be together and not be drunks but all of this stuff was driving me to drink.
"That's why you were on the news."
"This would all be much easier if I could just drink a beer."