DEEP DARK AND DANGEROUS
“Why are you being mean?!” I yelled to Jared. He had been going on rants lately and most of them were about me. I had no idea what I had done.
“Why are you acting like a whore?” He calmly said. I took a step back.
“Excuse me?” I said just as calm as he was.
“You heard me.” He said. We were in my room. I was standing near the bookshelf and he was sitting on my bed.
“Get out!” I yelled.
“What?” He questioned me.
“Get. Out.” I said slower. He walked out of my room and I followed him down the stairs. “You want a whore, you got one.” I said before I slammed the door in his face.
“What was that about?” Paul came out of the kitchen.
“He called me a whore.” I shrugged. I tried to make it seem like it wasn’t bothering me but I had wished I could have been stronger. “I have to go.” I said as I rushed up the stairs trying to hide the hurt I was feeling. I quickly changed my clothes and grabbed my phone. The mall wasn’t too far away and I knew I would be able to walk no problem. “Going to the mall!” I shouted out to Paul.
“Be safe!” He yelled back. I headed out the door and of course Jared was leaning up against his car.
“Go away.” I said to him as I walked passed him.
“Where are you going?” He asked as he followed me.
“The mall.” I answered.
“Let me drive you.” He said.
“Why would I let you drive me?! Do you think I’m stupid? If you wanted to date a whore you should have got with Michelle! Not me!” I yelled at him before turning around and continuing to walk.
“Don’t you dare!” He shouted back at me. “You know damn well I wanted you more than I ever wanted her!” He shouted.
“No you don’t love me! You would rather be with her because she was so willing to fuck you!” I shouted trying to keep the tears inside my eyes.
“Who said I never loved you?!” He yelled after me.
“I did!” I turned around. “Why would you call me a whore?! People who love each other don’t tell the other that they are a whore?!” I shouted as a couple tears spilled from my eyes and I quickly wiped them away.
“I’m sorry!” He shouted back as he saw me break down.
“Sorry doesn’t solve everything Jared.” I calmed down as the tears were taking over. He stepped closer to me as I took a step back.
“Ryan.” Was all he said.
“Don’t even bother Jared.” I turned around and started walking again. I could hear him behind me but he wasn’t saying anything to me. I knew he was following me to make sure I was safe. About twenty minutes later I walked through the mall door and went from store to store finding clothes to show more boobs or more ass. Jared didn’t come into the store he stayed outside and kept his distance from me as I walked. I was dying to hold his hand and it was killing me.
“Do you still love me?” I heard him call after me as we started walking to another store.
“Wouldn’t imagine a time when I won’t.” I called back to him as I walked into the next store. This time he followed me. He still kept his distance knowing I was still angry.
“What are we doing here?” He asked.
“I needed some new clothes.” I lied to him. I was actually here buying clothes to wear to school to prove to him that if he was going to call me a whore, I would act like one. This was going to come back to him.
“Can we go soon? I want to go home and cuddle.” He said.
“Soon.” I said back to him. I didn’t find anything I liked and I didn’t have much money left. “Lets go.” I said holding out my hand like he was a kid. He jogged closer to me before grabbing my hand taking a few bags out of my other and walking back to the house. “You called me a whore.” I simply stated.
“Yeah. I know.” He said back at me.
“Why?” I asked.
“I don’t know. You just keep talking about other guys and it gets me mad.” He said.
“Bro tip : I’m with you because I wanted to be with you. If I wanted that guy, I would be with that guy. Relax.” I said as we walked in the front door of the house.
“I know but I’m allowed to be worried right?” He asked.
“No. Its stupid.” I said back as I placed the bags just inside the closet not letting him see what I bought.
“Well-” I cut him off.
“No Wells Jared. Don’t worry. I don’t want them. I want you.” I looked at him. “Did someone cheat on you before?” I asked. It never seemed like Jared would be the type to get cheated on, he seemed to be the one doing the cheating.
“No.” He said back.
“Why do you worry about it then?” I asked. I was actually really curious as to why he thought I was cheating.
“I don’t know. Cause I piss you off a lot.” He shrugged pulling his lip ring in between his teeth.
“ I still like you though.” I said as I walked closer to him.
“You know I didn’t mean it right?” He looked up at me from where he was sitting. I wrapped my arms around him.
“It still hurt.” I said.
“I know. I shouldn’t have said it.” He laid his head on my stomach. “I just..” He trailed off. “I don’t know.”
“What;s going on with you?” I asked.
“My pills are making me go crazy. Its not you. Sorry.” He said.
“What pills?” I asked taking a step back. “What the hell are you talking about?”
“Ryan, don’t freak out. I got them from the doctor. My mom took me. My anger has gotten way out of hand. It gets worse before it gets better.” I walked closer to him and wrapped my arms around him.
“I’m sorry.” I said kissing the top of his head. “I think its time to sleep.” I announced as I stripped of my clothes and put on one of his shirts. He stripped to his boxers and we both crawled into bed laying side by side.
“Good night.” He kissed me.