DEEP DARK AND DANGEROUS
I actually felt really bad for Heather that we tricked her into thinking I was pregnant. But then I also got very nervous as my period was getting closer and closer and passed.
“Can we talk?” I asked Jared as he was playing video games. I was avoiding him all day because I wasn’t prepared to tell him. This was my first ever pregnancy scare and I was scared to death.
“Sure. What’s up?” He asked pausing the game and sitting up. I was silent for a while before he lifted my chin and looked at me. “What’s going on?” He asked as he put the game down and held my face in his hands as tears welled up in my eyes.
“My period. It’s late.” The looked on his face made it seem like he just saw a ghost. He looked like he was going to faint.
“Okay. Don’t panic.” He said as he got up and walked back and forth in the room. “Did you take a test?” He asked me and I shook my head no.
“I don’t have a car to get to the store.” I answered.
“My mom might have one.” He said as we both rushed up the stairs and into her bathroom. He threw everything all over the floor as he dug around before pulling one out. “Here.” He handed it to me.
“I don’t have to pee.” I answered him truthfully. You can’t take a pregnancy test if you can’t pee. He quickly ran downstairs and got a gallon of water from the garage.
“Drink up.” He commented as he opened the cap and handed it to me. The weird things this boy makes me do just to see if I’m pregnant. It wasn’t a joke this time but I wish it really was and I hope to god this pregnancy test came back negative. I drank as much as the water as I could before it made me feel sick. “Keep going.”
“I can’t. I’m going to puke.” I said sitting down on the toilet seat. Soon enough I felt as if my bladder was going to explode. As soon as I sat on the toilet to pee it came out. I wasn’t sure if any of it got on the stick but I was hoping.
“I’m scared.” He admitted to me.
“Because I’m not or anything.” I said him as the one line popped up and I sighed sitting on the floor. “Thank god.” I said. I wasn’t pregnant so my period should be coming in a few days. Sometimes its late but never since me and Jared had been having sex.
“You scared me half to death.” He said hugging me. I couldn’t help but feel relieved that it came back negative. I wasn’t sure what we were going to do if it were positive. No offence but I don’t think Jared would be a good father right now. He didn’t know anything about babies or how to take care of them, how could he possibly be alone with one for more than ten minutes.
“What if it was positive?” I asked him wanting to know what he would do if I was in fact pregnant.
“I would cry.” He said and I laughed but the look on his face told me he was being serious. “I’m being serious.” He said. “What would we do? We can’t take care of baby. We have school and we need to graduate.” He said stressing out.
“Can you relax? I’m not so lets just forget it.” I said but the thing was, I didn’t want to forget it.
I couldn’t sleep that night stressing out about Ryan being pregnant. I knew she wasn’t but god damn what if she was? I think I would lose my mind. She was sound asleep next to me snoring away as I laid here trying to figure out what to do. I knew if she was pregnant I would never be like my father. He was a horrible father and I wish he was never in my life.
“No! That’s my baby!” Ryan yelled in her sleep before turning over and shaking around.
“Ryan!” I shook her awake.
“What?” She asked once she was awake.
“What baby?” I asked her.
“What are you talking about?” She asked me. “You’re making no sense.”
“You yelled out in your sleep. You were talking about a baby.” I said running my hands through her damp hair from the shower she took a few hours ago.
“I was having a dream that I had a baby.” She answered me shrugging. “It’s not that big of a deal.” She said before laying down again.
“Babe, are you sure the test was negative?” I asked her. I hope we never have a scare like this again because I was so panicked that I thought I was losing my mind.
“Yes. I’m positive it was negative.” She said running her fingers up and down my bare chest. “You need to relax.” She said before closer her eyes and resting her head on my chest.
“I can’t.” I whispered.
Ryan wasn’t anywhere to be seen when I woke up. I wasn’t sure what time I fell asleep but I knew it was very late. When I walked into the bathroom I looked in the mirror and there were bags under my eyes and my hair was a mess. I turned the shower on and I heard Ryan running up the stairs before my bedroom door hit the wall and she was standing in the bathroom wrapping her arms around me.
“Morning.” She said kissing my back.
“Morning.” I answered before stripping my clothes and getting into the shower.
“Can I join?” She asked me as I saw her looking in the mirror.
“Sure.” I answered before she stripped and joined me in the shower. My hands automatically went to her boobs and I massaged them. “These feel very full.” I said.
“Yeah they got bigger. That happens.” She answered and I laughed. “Do you not like them?” She asked.
“No. I love them.” I said as I stopped playing with them and I held her closer to me by her ass. “I love this too.” I said and she giggled.
“Good.” She answered. We would be leaving in a few days for New England and we were both more than excited. I couldn’t wait until we were able to walk from a hotel to the beach. We were also spending some time in the mountains. Liam also has family over there so we are staying with some of them and meeting his nieces and nephews. We will be there for the whole month of July and then for Ryan’s sixteenth birthday we are heading over to Cedar Point, an amusement park she has been talking about none stop. She has no idea that’s where we are going though.
“What would you like for your birthday?” I asked her as she shampooed her hair.
“Do you think we could get my piano from my brother’s place? It’s mine and I think it should be here.” She said to me.
“I’m sure we could find a place for it.” I answered her as we finished our shower.
“So, it’s going to be really awkward when we stay with Liam’s family. Like can we have sex?” She asked and I laughed.
“I think we should hold off on the sex for a while. Until your period comes at least. I’m scared to death about it.” I told her. I was losing my mind thinking I was going to be a father.
“I agree.” She said as she stepped out and wrapped herself in a towel. “Wanna go to the mall?” She asked.
“Sure. I need some new clothes.” I said to her as we both got dressed and she tied her hair up in a bun. “You look cute.” I said to her once we were in the car and she had her phone plugged into the car so we could listen to her music.
“Thanks.” She answered before changing it to Lost Boy by 5 seconds of summer. The girl was obsessed but I loved watching her sing really loud and how her eyes would light up when she talked about them. I hated when she apologized for it though. Someone before me had told her what she was talking about was boring and she eventually began to stop talking about something she loved. I’m sorry but if someone is telling you that what you love is boring or stupid that person doesn’t deserve to be talking to you. They should love everything you love and if they don’t, leave. They aren’t worth it anymore. “One Direction are coming out with a new album. Are you going to buy it for me?” She asked and I nodded my head.
“Most likely.” I answered and she smiled leaning over and kissing my cheek.
“You’re the best.” She said before she turned the music up louder. I wasn’t sure how or why but I fell in love with her every single day of my life.
I followed Jared around the mall for a long time before he stopped and bought me food.
“I’ll buy you much more if those boobs keep growing.” He whispered to me and I felt my face turn bright red.
“Speaking of which. Can we stop by Victoria’s Secret? I need a new bra.” I asked him and he nodded his head.
“Can I pick it out?” He asked and I shook my head laughing.
“You can pick out the one for during sex and I’ll pick out an everyday wearing one, okay?” I asked him and he nodded his head. Oh the love I had for this boy.
*FEW DAYS LATER*
We just landed in Massachusetts and it’s very beautiful over here. Of course we were in Boston where the bombing just happened so it scared me a little but the people here were wondering and were able to stay strong and help each other out in a time of need.
“What do you think?” Liam asked me and Jared as we stepped out of the airport. We would be spending a few days in Boston before we headed off to the mountains.
“It’s beautiful.” I answered first. Before Jared even got a word in I had dragged him over to a store and we both went inside. Our bags were shipped to the hotel we were staying at so we didn’t need to worry about it. Heather and Liam came in after us and looked around.
“Is there something you wanted to get?” Jared as me as he wrapped his arms around me and followed me wherever I went.
“No. Just looking.” I said to him as I held his hand and we moved from shelf to shelf. There were some really cool looking pictures and things here and a few dreamcatchers other than that it smelled weird and was giving me a headache.
“It smells bad.” He whispered to me and we went outside to wait for his mom and Liam. I stood in his arms as we waited. “We get our own room at the hotel.” He winked at me. “I heard they have a store here just for condoms with like funny sayings and stuff. We should go.”
“I mean, if you want.” I laughed. He texted his mom that we would meet him at the hotel later before we went out to dinner as he ventured down the street with my hand in his as he looked for the stupid store.
“There it is!” He said before he nearly ran dragging me behind him to go inside. We started in the back before we went to the front. I had seen One Direction condoms on facebook and I plan on buying him one. I search that store nearly top and bottom before I finally found it and added it to the pile that he had in his hands. “Are you serious?” He asked giving me that look he always gives me when he thinks I’m losing my mind and I nodded smiling.
“Yes! It’s funny! And I love them!” I said to him as I wrapped my arms around him as he looked more.
“Okay. I think we are good.” He said before he went to pay for them and I stood behind him watching him before he paid and grabbed my hand.
“Are you happy now?” I asked him before he nodded smiling at me and laughing.
“Let’s head over to the hotel to get ready for dinner and such.” He said. “When we get back from dinner we can go swimming.” We would be heading over to a fancy dinner as we usually did with Liam so I was in a black dress with my hair curled at the ends and wearing a pair of black heels. To say I was more than ready for this date was an understatement, I was ready to rock Boston. They better watch out because I was coming and I always come in style. I admired myself in the mirror and turned to look at how perfectly shaped my butt was in this dress and look at the cleavage that was handing over the top of the dress.
“Do I look fat?” I asked Jared and he nearly spit out his water.
“Are you crazy?! How could you possibly think you’re fat? You just gained some weight but it’s healthy to do that. It means you’re about to grow.” He reassured me and I nodded.
“Okay.” I let the subject drop before he pulled me to his moms room where we headed down to dinner. We were a pretty attractive family I thought. We got many stares from people but that just boosted my confidence and Jared could tell because he wouldn’t wipe that stupid smile off his face.
“Jesus, you’re driving me insane. I can’t wait to get that dress off of you when we get up there.” Jared whispered to me once we were in the elevator heading back to the room. We spent the rest of the night in bed. We never went to the pool like I was promised.
“I love you.” I whispered right before I fell asleep.
“I love you more.”