DEEP DARK AND DANGEROUS
“This isn’t working.” Jared announced as we were laid on my bed. I looked up at him before I sat up.
“What?” I asked.
“Us.” He pointed at me and then back to him.
“Oh. Okay.” I got off of the bed.
“Sorry.” He said as he got off the bed and went to hug me.
“Don’t.” I said as I walked out of the room and held the door open for him. “Bye.” I said quietly as I watched as he started his car and sped off down the road. I wasn’t sure what to do. “What the fuck?” I whispered to myself. I went back up to my room and stripped the bed from where we were just laying. I threw them on the floor and laid back in the bed. It wasn’t late enough to go to bed so I laid there just thinking. I knew I shouldn’t have gotten started with him but I did anyway and of course, I got hurt. I knew I should have never gotten started with a boy like him.
“What happened in here?” I heard someone ask. I turned over to face the door.
“Nothing.” I said as Sophie came closer to my bed.
“I got a text saying to check on you.” She said.
“I’m fine.” I said back to her. “What’s in the bag?” I asked.
“Ice cream.” She said as she held up two spoons and she handed one to me. “Are you going to tell me what happened?” She asked.
“Isn’t it obvious? He broke up with me.” I said as I opened the top of the ice cream and shoved my spoon into it.
“Why?” She asked.
“He said it wasn’t working. I should have known it wasn’t going to work out.” I said.
“How was it not working? It was perfect.” She said as I turned on the T.V.
“Yeah I don’t know.” I answered.
“Why aren’t you crying?”
“I knew it was going to happen sooner or later. I want my concert tickets back.” I said.
*NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL*
“Beautiful.” I mumbled after I had walked through the parking lot already late than usual. I had to walk my ass to school because my brother was hungover and so was my mother and I no longer had a boyfriend. I walk past the student parking lot and what do I see? A girl leaning on his car and he was in front of her. I had the plane ticket in my hand as I walked over to him. “I don’t need this anymore.” I snapped at him and threw it at his chest where he grabbed it. He looked at it and smirked. I watched as he handed it to Michelle and she smiled and hugged him. “Asshole.” I whispered as I walked into the school. I got stares from everyone and I knew exactly why.
“What is she doing alone?” I heard one girl ask her friends. I glanced at them and then back at the door I just came through. This was not going to be easy.
I knew why I broke up with her. Michelle was begging me to have sex again after I had kissed her on that Monday. Of course we were in the school parking lot and Ryan saw. She forgave me but once Michelle was begging to have sex I couldn’t say no and Ryan wasn’t giving it to me.
“I don’t need this anymore.” She snapped at me as she threw the plane ticket against my chest. I looked at it and smirked then handed it to Michelle who was overjoyed to be going. I heard her whisper asshole before she walked away and into the school.
“At least you’ll have sex with me there. She never would.” I secretly wished it was her I was saying that to. Praying that we would be able to love each other and I thought I did. But she wasn’t my type. She was too good and I’m too bad and those type of people don’t mix.
“Where’s Jared?” The teacher asked. I assume she was asking me.
“Skipping.” I whispered. The teacher huffed and acted like I would know where he was. It broke my heart. I held back tears and she talked about him to me. “We aren’t together anymore can you stop?” I nearly yelled. I heard a few gasps from people and the teacher turned bright red.
“I’m sorry.” She said as she went on her way and started the lesson. I rested my chin my my arms that were resting on the table. This was going to be the longest week of my life.
“He seriously did that?” Jannae asked.
“Would I lie about what he did?” I asked. I found that the bags under my eyes were getting worse by the day and my stomach was getting flatter. Maybe if I was skinny he would love me. Maybe if I dressed different and acted different, he would love me. Or maybe, I should just stop loving him.
“He’s only with her to fuck.” The one thing I wouldn’t give him. I went to my closet and got all of the clothes that were his and everything he bought me. I threw them into a box and put them in the golf cart my parents had. I drove it on the sidewalk to his house where I threw it into his yard. By the time I got back to my house Jannae was gone and tears were streaming down my face because you see, I was happy before I met him, yeah I still had my issues but I still had some hope, and then he used me up and left me to deal with this mess. Alone. I lost all faith in love, but in a way I should thank him, because now nobody can break my heart not because I’m stronger, but because I refuse to let them touch my heart in the first place. He taught me that I had to stop believing in ‘forever and always’ and that in reality, it always ends badly. But I was happier before. Maybe ignorance really is bliss.
*FEW WEEKS LATER*
These last few weeks were hardest thing I have ever gone through. Seeing Jared all lovey dovey with someone else knowing that it was me a few weeks ago kinda sucks. Knowing he was probably taking her to the concert with him in two months and taking her to Florida the same week.
“Gross.” I heard his voice as he came into the classroom. I ignored him knowing I looked like a dying whale and it was his fault. I hadn’t been sleeping well and I had bags under my eyes. It wasn’t something I could fix on my own. Then I remembered Michelle saying something about her being pregnant. That’s why he left me, that’s his baby. I made myself upset thinking about it and quickly stopped. He left me, I had to get over it.
* JARED P.O.V*
I love cuddling up next to a naked Michelle every night. It reminded me of every night with Ryan, but Ryan was never naked. I loved seeing the dark spots under her eyes every day at school knowing she couldn’t sleep at night. I loved that I was ruining everything for her. It was just like it used to be. I used the good girl, dropped her and then went with the bad girl. I loved skipping classes and making out in my car. I loved everything about this.
“You have to stop this!” My mother yelled as she came down the stairs holding a box that I had filled with empty condom wrappings and the boxes. “This is gross! You broke Ryan;s heart and you’re literally killing her right in front of her eyes!” She yelled more. My mother had loved Ryan but she would need to get over it.
“Get over it.” I said to her.
“I’m leaving.” She announced as she grabbed her keys along with mine and her purse and left. I was now here alone. With nothing to do. I called Michelle.
‘Whats up?’ She asked into the phone.
‘Come over? My mom took my keys though so I can’t go anywhere.’ I said annoyed.
‘Yeah sure.’ She hung up the phone. I knew it was going to be a while before she got here my moms voice rang through my head.
‘You’re killing her!’ I had done that to other girls. They moved on pretty quickly or at least I thought they did.
“Are you really pregnant?” I asked Michelle.
“Well my period is almost two months late and I throw up all the time. So I think so.” She said.
“Is it mine?” It could be mine. There was no doubt about that.
“It could. I don’t know whose it is.” She said shrugging. What did I get myself into?