DEEP DARK AND DANGEROUS
The first day of vacation I woke Jared up to playing the song ‘I wanna get better’ and to me dancing around singing it. We slept in my room last night and it was mess so I began cleaning it and singing and dancing to this song. I wasn’t wearing much clothing either.
“Now that’s something to wake up to.” He shouted over the music. His mom had picked up a few extra shifts before we head over to Massachusetts and New Hampshire for our vacation. I giggled when Jared got out of bed and kissed my neck. “Hmm, someone tastes good this morning.” He said in his groggy morning voice.
“Do I?” I asked as I picked up our dirty clothes off the floor.
“I think so.” He said while slapping my butt.
“That’s not very nice.” I said laughing. “You should clean your room too.”
“I should, but I’m not.” He answered.
“No you have to. I literally have two pairs of panties left.” I said seriously looking at him.
“Okay. Has your friend come yet?” He asked me.
“Not until next week.” I answered. He was always asking me. I figured he would know by now that it was coming next week. “Can you stop stressing about it?” I asked him. It was actually get really annoying that he kept asking me. I can’t control if it comes or if it doesn’t or when it comes.
“No. I cannot. I’m not ready to be a dad.” I looked him. There have been many times that he brought up having a baby with me but now its ‘your period better come.’ He was a very confusing person. “What?” He asked and I shook my head.
“Nothing.” I laughed.
“What? You want to fuck?” I shook my head no.
“Weren’t you just afraid that I’m pregnant?” I asked him. He nodded his head. “Wanna play a prank on your mom?” I asked him.
“Sure. What are we going to do?”
“Well they have fake pregnancy tests at the party store. We should go buy one and freak her out.” He laughed an evil laugh before going to get dressed.
“Can you put on more clothes?” He asked when He came back into my room.
“No. It’s hot as balls outside.” I was wearing a pair of soffe shorts and a tank top. “I think this is fine.” I answered walking downstairs.
“You are not leaving my sight then.” He said.
“I figured.” I said before grabbing a yogurt and heading out to his car and he followed behind me.
“Jesus, you’re killing me.” He said walking behind me.
“Does my ass look good?” I asked him and he nodded biting his lip. “Good.” I said as he unlocked the car and I got in. “So are you going to get a new car?” I asked him when he got in.
“I think so. I want a ferrari.” He smiled at me.
“Are you serious?” I asked him.
“Yes. My mom said she would do her best. Liam said he could get me one.”
“Those are so expensive though.” I said to him. He nodded his head.
“Liam said he could get me one.” I dropped the subject because I didn’t want to fight with him.
“Can Liam get me one?” I asked as a joke.
“I’ll ask.” I laughed.
“Awesome. Some type of power couple right?” I asked and he laughed.
“If you want to be.”
“So I heard that the upcoming freshman are whores.” I said to him.
“Think I could get laid?” I smacked him.
“Every night and every morning if you want.” I said laughing.
“Oh right. I already get that.” He smirked while holding my hand. “I totally forgot.” He smirked.
“Is it not good?” I asked. I thought it was pretty good but he was also doing all the work. He was hesitant to answer.
“Want my honest opinion?” I nodded my head. “It’s fucking awesome. Just move your hips more.” He said and I nodded.
“Okay. Remind me of that later.” I said as we pulled into the parking lot of the party store. I grabbed his hand as we walked in the door.
“Hi. Can I help you?” A girl around our age asked us.
“Uh, I’ll let you know.” Jared said as we walked to one end of the store. “Jesus christ. Where are we going to find these things?” He asked as I looked around.
“Just look. We have all day.” I answered. We walked each aisle looking at each thing and laughing.
“My mom is going to kill us.” He said and I shrugged.
“She’ll get over it.” I laughed. We finally found what we were looking for. “Should we get a few so we can trick more than one person?” I asked.
“Yeah.” He said. He picked out a few before going to pay for them.
“Someone is going to pissed.” The girl before said and we both laughed.
“She keeps asking so this time she is going to get a bad answer.” Jared said.
“Who’s mom are you scaring?” She asked and my face automatically fell and I stepped behind him.
“Mine.” Jared said before quickly paying for the tests that we bought. “I’m sorry I wouldn’t have said anything.”
“It’s not your fault. She didn’t know.” I said holding his hand as we drove back. “She’ll never get to see me have kids.” I said frowning at him.
“Yes she will. She will be there in spirit.” He smiled. “I promise she will be there for the birth of our children. And our wedding.” He said kissing my hand.
“You want to marry me?” I asked him and he nodded his head smiling.
“Of course I do. Why would I not want to?” I shrugged.
“Cause I’m messed up.” I answered. “Cause there are much prettier girls in the world. Girls who you would want to be with.” I said.
“But the thing about those girls are, they aren’t you.” He said. “Why would I ever want to be with anyone but you?” I shrugged.
“Because there are girls in the world who would die to be with you and chose me for some reason.”
“I chose you because you weren’t the one throwing yourself on me. You were calm and I wanted to be with you. I finally knew what it was like to laugh and smile with someone and not want to throw them on a bed and take everything they had. It’s an amazing feeling to know that someone else wants to be with you too.” Oh Jared, how much I wish you knew how much I loved you.
If you find the one you love at a young age, hold onto them. They will only stick around if you treat them the way they want to be treated. If you get to experience this love, don’t throw it away for the school slu, you’ll ruin everything. I know you will because I’ve been there and I want nothing less than perfect for Ryan. She was mine and I would hold her in my arms until the day one of us dies. I will hold her until one of us is buried in the ground.
“What are you thinking about?” She asked coming into my room. I was laying on my bed with a big smile on my face.
“You.” I answered truthfully.
“What about me?” She asked laying beside me.
“Everything. I’m so happy you’re mine.” I answered and she smiled at me and kissed me.
“And I’m happy you’re mine too.” She said. “You don’t know how much it hurt when you were with her.”
“Ys I do because I felt the pain too.”
“Wanna know who’s about to feel pain?” She asked me.
“Who?” I asked looking over at her.
“Your mom who just left work a few minutes ago.” She said with a serious face.
“Go take the test.” I said. It was like a regular test but this one always came out positive. It was the greatest thing ever. Although my mother may kill us, I was super excited about what was going to happen.
“Okay. It’s done.” She said handing it to me and the test really looked real. “What are we going to tell her?” She asked me.
“We are going to sit her down in the living room and we are going to tell her we have to talk and just go from there.”
“Okay but I want to say the words ‘I’m pregnant.’” She said and I laughed.
“Alright.” I said just before the front door opened.
“Hello?!” She shouted through the house.
“Hey, Mom.” I said coming down the stairs with Ryan following me. “Can we talk?” I asked her.
“Sure.” She said slowly eyeing me and Ryan. “What’s going on?” She asked once we were all seated in the living room.
“We have some news.” I started.
“No she’s not!” She shouted. “She is not pregnant! No she is not!” She shouted.
“Yes I am. I have the test right here.” Ryan said handing her the test. Tears sprung in my mothers eyes as she looked at the test.
“What have you done?” She whispered. “What are you going to do?” She asked. We both shrugged.
“We haven’t really talked about it.” Ryan answered.
“I need some time to think about this.” My mother said.
“What is there to think about? You won’t support us?” I asked her.
“Of course I will I just need to wrap my head around it.” She said looking down at the test.
“Wanna know what else you should wrap your head around?” I asked her.
“It’s twins?” I laughed.
“No. It’s a joke. She’s not pregnant.” I said laughing and Ryan laughed along side me. “I also got it all on camera.” I said going to the hidden video camera that I stashed in the book case.
“You guys are assholes. I was thinking of a way to make room for a baby.” She said throwing the stick at me.
“Well it shouldn’t be that hard. Just move my bed around and stick the crib next to it.” I said. “You don’t think I would be a good dad?” I asked her.
“Not at all. Ryan would be an amazing mother and she would look beautiful pregnant though.” She said.
“Thanks.” Ryan smiled at her. I loved the way her eyes would light up when she smiled and her dimples would show. I loved that when she laughed too hard her nose would scrunch up and her eyes would close. I loved that she laughed at silly things that most people don’t laugh at. But the thing I loved the most about her was that she loved me even when she couldn’t love herself.