DEEP DARK AND DANGEROUS
“Are you going to man up, Jared?” I asked.
“I should but I don’t know how.” He said.
“Okay so like you call her up and be like ‘listen I have a girlfriend who I love very much and you’re fucking it up for me. I understand it’s hard losing a baby and you want another but I’m sixteen and I’m not willing to give you a baby that I don’t want.’” I said to him. “Or just text her because that’s easier.”
“Can you do it for me?” He asked handing me his phone. I opened it and scrolled to her contact and sent her a message.
‘Listen, I have a girlfriend who I really want to be with and I don’t think she is very happy about you wanting to have sex. She likes me very much and I have the same feelings for her. Maybe someday we can try to work something out but for right now I don’t think its the right time. You’re only sixteen, you don’t need to have a baby. Maybe in a few years you can try again but not with me.’ I sent it.
“I know. We can give her the twins!” I said. He looked over at me like I lost my mind.
“We can’t do that.” He said.
“Why not? My mom is just going to leave them with me and I don’t want kids.”
“Ryan, no.” He dropped it after that.
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“I don’t know.” He said sighing. He did that a lot lately.
“She wrote back.” He quickly took the phone from me. As he read he wasn’t exactly watching the road either and slammed into a telephone pole.
“Oh my god! Are you okay?” He asked as he put the phone down and reached for me.
“Yeah I’m fine. Your car isn’t though.” We both got out and looked the damage.
“My mom going to kill me!” He started flipping out. “But if anyone asks I was looking at you doing something and crashed.
“Who are we suppose to call?” I asked as we stood there. An old man from across the street who saw it happen came over.
“Are you kids okay? I called the police.” He said.
“We’re fine thank you.” I smiled at him. We could hear the sirens before we saw the cars.
“Is everyone okay?” He asked as soon as he got out of the car.
“Yes, Sir.” I answered. Jared’s mom pulled up after that.
“Jared, Ryan! Are you okay?” Oh my god! People! None of us are lying on the ground with blood pouring out of us, we are fine.
“Yes mom.” She hugged us both. “I’m sorry.” He answered.
“It’s all right.” She answered. Of course they had to call an ambulance to make sure me and Jared were okay. “Do you need to call your mom?” She asked.
“No. She probably doesn’t care anyway.” I answered walking away and into her car where Jared already was. “Are you happy she wasn’t mad?” I asked as we watched his car get towed away.
“Yeah but my car.” He said. You could hear the sad tone in his voice.
“I know. I’m sorry.” I pulled my phone out and was reading this story about Cameron Dallas, the famous viner. It was about him having a one night stand with a girl he had fallen head over heels in love with but she had no idea. Once they realized she was pregnant, they spent all day and night with each other. When she is three months pregnant she passes out and she finds out she has cancer. She can’t do chemo while being pregnant and if she doesn’t she will die. After giving birth she dies. “What the actual fuck?!” I shouted as me and Jared were laying in bed. He was half asleep.
“What? What happened?!” He asked panicked. I laughed.
“I’m sorry. A character died in this fanfic I’m reading and it’s just unfair.” I answered him.
“Maybe you should write your own.” He said laying back down. I ran a hand through his hair.
“Maybe I will.” I said back to him. I stopped reading the story, I couldn’t handle it. The author said she was going to have the daughter and another Viner’s kid get together. But for all we know they would get pregnant and he would die and it would just be horrible.
“I think you’re weird. I love you.” He said while throwing his body over mine. I giggled as he kissed my exposed skin along my arms, neck, and chest.
“I love you too.” I answered him.
“Well I already knew that.” He laughed at me. “How long do you think we are going to be together?” He asked looking down at me as I looked up at him.
“I don’t know. I hope for a long time but sometimes love isn’t meant to be even if those two people are so in love. Sometimes its the right kind of love but not the right time.” I said to him.
“I like to think our love is different.” He said to me.
“Well obviously. Our love is so fucked up.”
“I wish it wasn’t.” I nodded my head agreeing with him. I wish we were normal and we could act like the world wasn’t falling apart but it was. His dad left him. His dad was the biggest dick I have ever met. My dad is also a prick. My mother is a drunk who is pregnant. His little fuck buddy was pregnant but had a miscarriage and now wants to have another baby. And then he crashed his car. Oh the events of the lives of Ryanne and Jared.
“I wish we could just be a normal couple. You know like the ones who make cute youtube videos and who never fight and don’t have lives as fucked up as ours.”
“We can make cute youtube videos! I’m awesome at editing.” He all of a sudden got super happy.
“Slow your roll its late. Maybe tomorrow.” I laughed at him.
“Are you tired?” He asked.
“No but I could really go for like some nachos.” I said. He quickly picked me up and carried me down the stairs placing me on the counter next to the fridge while he pulled out cheese and sour cream. I grabbed the chips before placing myself back to where he put me. He melted the cheese onto a huge plate of chips before putting a load of sour cream. “You’re the best.” I said kissing his nose as he stood in front of me between my legs waiting for it to be done.
“I know.” He said as he kissed me. I wrapped my arms around his neck. “Ready?” He asked as he handed me the plate and carried me up the stairs.
“This is so good!” I said to him as we watched a movie on his huge T.V.
“I know! I wasn’t expecting it to be this good!” He said just as excited as I was. We were talking about the nachos. I was so glad he made a huge plate of it.
“You’re talking about the chips too right?” I asked him being serious.
“Yes are you?” He asked and I laughed.
“Yeah. But this movie is good too.” I wasn’t sure what we watching and I may have lied just because he wanted to watch the movie and I didn’t.
“No it’s not it sucks.” He said laughing. It was really late now. The movie was so boring I nearly fell asleep but the chips were keeping me awake.
“Well maybe you should sleep then.” I said touching his face with the palm of my hand.
“Why do you can eat all of the chips?” He asked.
“Well duh!” I laughed. He licked my hand. He acted as if it bothered me. I think we forgot that we swap spit all the time and he had his body parts inside mine. “Jared, licking my hand will not do anything. Your penis has been inside me. It wasn’t going to make a difference.” I said taking my hand away.
“I know. Gross right?” He laughed.
“I mean like I like to think that our sex was beautiful but whatever.” I said laughing. We finished off the chips before we both laid down.
“It was amazing.” He said after a few minutes and I forgot what we were talking about.
“What was?” I asked as he held my hand and ran his other hand up and down my arm making me feel very tired.
“Our sex.” He said.
“Oh yeah. That.” I slowly closed my eyes as I felt his hand get slower. “Kiss me before I fall asleep.” He leaned over and kissed me before he returned to rubbing my arm. “Good night.” I whispered.
“Night. Love you.”
“Love you too.”