DEEP DARK AND DANGEROUS
I walked out of my classroom and Jared was sitting on the floor with his head in his hands. I walked over placing my bag down and sitting in front of him. I went to grab his hand but he pulled it back looking up at me. I was shocked that he was doing this to me.
“Whats wrong?” I whispered to him as I played with my fingers. He didn’t answer me. I looked up at him and he just shook his head back and forth. I went to reach out to him but I pulled my hand back resting it in my lap. I played with my finger nails. I usually do that when I get nervous or sad. I wasn’t really sure as to what to do so I just moved my body over next to him but not close enough that he could feel me. The bell rang and neither one of us moved. I waited ten minutes before I said something to him. “ Are you going to tell me whats going on?” I asked him. Again he ignored me. Instead he stood up and walked across from me to the other lockers and just looked at me.
I wish he would open up to me more. I tried to understand everything that was going on in his head but I knew I couldn’t. It could be about me, or his father or Michelle, I didn’t know. I just sat there. There was no point in going to class, I would be in trouble for being late so I might as well get in trouble for skipping.
“You’re not gonna tell me are you?” I asked across the hall as I grabbed my bag and stood up. “Well whatever it is, you can come to me whenever.” I had officially given up with him trying to talk to me. I left him sitting in the hallway and went to the bathroom until the bell rang where I went to my first class. Jared wasn’t there so I figured he was still sitting in the hall.
“Ryan, where’s Jared?” The teacher asked me.
“He’s being a bum and sitting in the hallway. He wont talk to me.” I answered.
“Can you go get him?” She asked. I picked up my phone that was sitting on the desk and walked down the hall and down the stairs to where he was.
“Get off of me!” I heard his voice. I turned the corner and no other than Michelle Foy, had her hands all over my boyfriend. “I don’t like you!” Jared yelled. I stayed hidden trying to hear what they were talking about.
“But I have something to tell you.” She said in her fake voice. He didn’t respond. “I’m pregnant.” I almost choked on my own spit. I had to cover my mouth and blink away the tears.
“That’s funny. How could I have gotten you pregnant if I used a condom and I never came? Wrong person sweetheart.” He said. Before I knew it he turned the corner and saw me. His eyes went wide.
“Mrs. Carignan wanted to know where you were. She wants you in class.” I whispered to him. I wasn’t exactly sure what I was feeling. I knew it wasn’t his baby because he would never lie about something like that. But he was acting strange this morning. He walked back to class behind me. When we walked in it was silent but so were we.
“Ry.” He said to me. I ignored him like he did to me earlier. Instead I got a text from him. ‘That’s not my baby.’ It read. I didn’t respond. ‘I was upset because my grandfather is in the hospital.’ He said. He reached out and grabbed my hand and I didn’t bother pulling back.
My mother had told me that morning that my grandfather was in the hospital and then I had Michelle trying to tell me that was my baby. Ha! That bitch is crazy. There was no way that child could be mine. Not a chance.
“Ryan.” I yelled to her as she walked out of class and to our next one.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” She asked.
“I don’t know. I was upset, I don’t want you seeing me upset.” I answered her.
“So what if I see you upset?” She replied. “You don’t always have to be strong.” She said. I grabbed her arm stopped her from entering.
“He’s not going to make it.” I said. “I’m not ready for that.” I said. And it was true. I didn’t want to say good bye, death is a horrible thing and I didn’t want it to happen to me. She wrapped her arms around me and laid her head on my chest. I laid my head on hers wrapping my arms around her. “I don’t want to say good bye.” I said in a low voice.
“I know.” She said. The bell rang then and we both walked into class. She held my hand the entire class and when the bell rang for us all to leave. I had survived the day. Ry was coming over after school today. I knew she was going to help in the whole process with my grandfather. She stopped walking and just hugged me. “Its going to be okay.” She said trying to calm me.
“Can we just go?” I asked her.
“Kiss me first.” I did. It was a very deep kiss. The feeling of her lips on mine was incredible. I had kissed her many times before but this time it seemed a lot different. It was like I was putting every feeling I ever had into the kiss. I didn’t want it to stop. I could literally feel the butterflies in my stomach. I felt dizzy and I thought I was going to explode. I hope she felt it too. She pulled back and my lips were swollen and we were both out of breath.
“Ready?” She asked trying to catch her breath. I nodded my head and grabbed her hand. She grabbed my hand with both of hers and leaned into me as we walked. I held the car door open for her and she got in and we headed over to my house. My mother was waiting for us in the kitchen.
“I was going to head over to the hospital, did you guys want to come?” She asked.
“Sure.” I grabbed some bags of chips and water bottles and we headed over to the hospital. My mother was driving and me and Ry were in the back. We pulled up and headed to his room. Looking at my grandfather it didn’t seem like he was sick. He looked perfectly fine. Ryan walked in behind me holding my hand.
“Who’s this?” He asked me as she stood next to me.
“This is Ryan, my girlfriend.” I answered. She smiled at him giving him an hello. I sat down and she sat down on my lap and let my mother sit in the other chair.
“How long have you been dating?” My grandmother asked.
“A week.” Ryan answered smiling and looking at me. I rubbed her back as she talked. My grandparents kept asking her questions. She gladly answered them. “ I need to use the rest room. Excuse me.” She said standing up and leaving the room. I watched as she left and her figure was gone out the door.
“Well, she’s a keeper.” My grandmother said. “You better keep her close. And treat her right. She probably had guys falling at her feet.” She took a sip out of the cup she was holding.
“She’s beautiful isn’t she?” My grandfather said.
“Yes. She’s very beautiful.” I answered. “She’s amazing.” I blushed and looked down. I looked up and everyone was looking at me. It was amazing how much I had fallen for that girl in seven days.
“Do you love her?” My mother asked.
“I don’t think its love but I really enjoy her.” I said. It was passed liking her. I was falling deeper and deeper in love with her. Whenever I looked into her eyes it was like nothing else in this world mattered. When I felt her touch it sent electricity through my body in the best kind of way. When our lips touched it was like she was melting away all of my worries about everything. Just her being her made me want to be with her for a long time. I wouldn’t want it any other way. She came back into the room then and we were all quiet.
“I’m sorry.” My grandfather randomly said. We all looked at him confused.
“Why?” I asked.
“I wont get to see everything you two go through. Every fight, graduating, college, marriage, children.” Him saying that hurt me. Its the worst feeling knowing that he was in pain and there was no way to help him. I looked down feeling like it was me against the world and I wish I could stop whatever was giving him pain. I wish I could stop whatever sickness he had.
“Don’t say sorry for something you can’t control.” Ryan said. I was surprised that she said that. I knew Ryan had a tough life too, of course it wasn’t easy, but no one told us it was going to be this hard. I held her hand. “Even if you aren’t here physically, you’ll be there. I’ve seen it on T.V shows.” She said and we all laughed.
“Oh how sweet you are.” My grandmother said smiling. Although this was a very sad time, we were trying to make the best of it. I knew it was going to be hard, nothing is easy. I was glad Ryan was here with me. I don’t think I would be able to do it without her. I squeezed her hand letting her know that she was making everything better. I rested my head on her back and wrapped my arms around her. She began rubbing my arm. I don’t know how long we were there but I fell asleep.
*RYAN P.O.V FRIDAY AT SCHOOL*
This was the last day of school before Christmas vacation and we were all about to go to a pep rally. Jared said he was going to meet me in the gym and we were going to make out. I agreed. I walked to the gym with Selena and as soon as we got there I saw Jared sitting on the floor in a circle with a bunch of other people.
“Hey.” I said. I leaned over his head kissing him. I sat down behind him and rested my head on his back like he did to me at the hospital. He held my hand that was wrapped around him. Selena sat next to me and we just talked about random things.
“Wanna go?” Jared asked me as he stood up pulling me with him.
“Yeah.” I said. He gave me a piggy back ride outside to the side of the school. He let me down and we both placed our bags down on the ground. He grabbed me right after that. He just hugged me.
“He’s doing better.” Jared said. I smiled and looked at him.
“Thats good to know.” I said. He kissed me then. I backed up until my back was against the hard brick wall. Our lips moved together and the kiss was very heated. We were out there for a while making out when we heard someone clear their throat. I pushed Jared off of me and none other than our principle. I mentally hit myself.
“Detention.” Was all he said. Like really? We were just kissing! We weren’t having sex! I really don’t want to spend my first day of vacation at school. Jared smirked at me after he left and kissed me again.
“Lets go!” I said hitting his chest. I wrapped an arm around his waist and he wrapped one around my shoulders and kissed the side of my head. I smiled at him as we headed back into the school and sat in the same circle we were sitting in before.
“Where did you two go?” One of Jareds friends asked. He of course had tattoos up and down his arms and one on his neck. That must have hurt. He had a lit piercing and an eyebrow piercing. He had light brown hair and it was spiked up in the front.
“Side of the school.” Jared said trying to avoid the real question they were asking.
“We went to make out.” I blurted out laughing as Jared turned red. I laughed leaning into him. I buried my face in his arm and he wrapped it around you. He just looked at me.
“I don’t know what to say.” He said. We all laughed and the bell rang. Jared was taking me out to buy presents today. He said I could pick out something small from him because he already had a big gift for me. I had no idea what to get him thats why I was going to let him pick it out.
“Jared, we have detention.” I said. He huffed out and we walked back into the school to the main office. We walked in and of course Mr. Jackson was waiting for us. We followed him into his office.
“I could have sworn I just had you two in here a week ago and you hated each other.” He said.
“We made up.” I answered. He nodded his head.
“I can see that.” I laughed.
“Is there a reason we have a detention?” I asked.
“You skipped school and were doing inappropriate things.” He said.
“Well would you rather have us do it in the middle of the gym?” Jared said. Mr. Jackson didn’t answer.
“You may go.” He said. “Have a good vacation.” He said.
“You too.” I said as Jared held the door open for me and we left. He drove over to the mall. He held my hand as we walked around. He walked into Spencers. I had only been in here once and it freaked me out. I got closer to him and he held my hand a little tighter. “What are we doing here?” I asked.
“My buddy works here. Don’t worry.” He said. A boy with blonde hair walked up to Jared and they did a little hand shake thing. The boy with blonde hair had a tattoo near his eyebrow and it was pierced along with his lip. When he talked he had a lisp before he showed Jared the piercing he had in the middle of his tongue. “Sean this is Ryan.” Jared said.
“Nice to meet you.” I said smiling at him. He looked me over. My smile dropped and he smirked at me.
“Picked a girl good?” He said. Jared nodded.
“Good girl who is bad just for me.” Jared said and I giggled and blushed. I buried my face in his arm. “Just came by to say hey. We have to go. See you later man.” Jared said. They did their hand shake again and we left going across the way to hot topic. He walked around and I wasn’t far behind him. He was looking at some shirts.
“Who’s your favorite band?” I asked.
“Its weird but I like green day.” He said. I raised my eyebrows. I knew I could get him tickets. Paul kept telling me they were coming to the arena we went to for the One Direction concert. I texted my brother and asked him to order the tickets. He texted back saying he just needed to print them and we were all set. I would pay him back later. “I want this shirt.” He said picking it out in his size and handing it to me.
“All right. I just bought you another gift online.” I said.
“All right. You wanna pay for that and go get some food?” He asked.
“Yeah.” I paid for the T-shirt and we both walked hand in hand over to get food. “When are we going to give each other our presents?” I asked him.
“Whenever you want.” He said. I nodded my head as we both ordered BLT’s but mine without the t and no mayo. We ate in silence. He finished before me and went to throw his stuff away. When he came back he held my chin and kissed me. I moaned into his mouth.
“What?” I asked as I pushed him off me.
“I just needed you.” He said smirking.
“Yeah lets go Romeo.” I said smirking back as we went and got in his car. He dropped me off with a kiss and a ‘text me’ before he drove off. I hated sleeping without him. It was always so lonely.