21. Chapter 21
I head to the fridge to grab some juice because I love breakfast juice. Michael is leaning over the counter. "Aren't you supposed to be going home soon?" I ask him. "Nope, I'm spending the week here why my mothers away." He chuckles. "Great so I'm stuck with you" I tease. "I'm not THAT bad" he laughs. I put my glass down and sit on the counter. "You're pretty annoying michael" I state smiling. He stands in between my legs. "Why? Because I just won't leave you alone?" He smirks looking up at me. "I don't know what you're trying to do but I uh-" "shut up Luke. You'll love it" he whispers picking me up so that my legs wrap around his waist and placing his lips onto mine. My eyes close and the kiss feels the same as the dream. He carries me up the stairs into Ashtons room and locks the door. I break from the kiss, "Michael seriously I can't do this . I just-" he places his fingers over my mouth as he lays me down on Ashtons bed. He stares at me and then reunites our lips only breaking to say "Ashton isn't going to know". I feel bad but I can't help feel attracted to Michael right now.
Later that night...
We are all watching TV, calum didn't bring Ashton home until I told him too. "Who's hungry?" Calum asks looking at me. "I could eat." I reply and calum heads up to the kitchen. I look at Luke. He is lying on Ashtons chest but he looks uncomfortable. I don't know if that's because he feels guilty or because he likes me. Maybe I shouldn't of done that. I can't believe after what happened with me and ashton that I was so stupid to go with Luke. I mean of course I was only with ashton to try and break them up but, oh who am I kidding I don't deserve them. Luke catches my eye and gives me a worried Look. He's definitely regretting his decision. I sigh and look at Ashton. He's completely unaware of everything. I hint for Luke to come talk and he gets the idea.
I feel really bad. I'm not going to deny that I enjoyed Michael but I just, I still love Ashton. What am I supposed to do?
"Luke I'm sorry about today, I shouldn't have forced you but it's just, I really like you" Michael mumbles. "Since when Michael?" I ask. "The moment I knew I couldn't have you, I wanted you." He stated staring me dead in the eye. "Listen Michael, i still love ashton. I'm not saying I didn't enjoy today but I'm not saying I'll leave ashton." The door opens and OF COURSE ashton just happened to be listening. "What do you mean 'enjoyed today?" He asks folding his arms and leaning against the door way. Michael Chimes in (although I wish he hadn't) "we kissed, well no I sort of made him kiss me?" Michael says trying to help. "You cannot FORCE someone to kiss you Michael" he says looking at me with a face I've never seen before. He stares as if he's expecting me to say something. What do I say? I mean I didn't even know Michael liked me all this time. "I'm sorry?" Bad move. Why would I say that? Ugh. "Yep and I'm sorry for wasting my time" he says slamming the door. You've got to be joking. "Well at least now you can-" "save it Michael. I don't want to hear it" I say pointing to the door. He ambles out and shits it quietly. I flop down onto the bed face first. I scream angrily into the pillow. Ashton's right I could of stopped Michael. I should've said something. Me and Michael do have sparks but it's nothing like the fireworks I see in Ashton's eyes. Me and ashton. We are different. I lie for 5 minutes thinking. Overthinking.
The next thing I knew I was in tears. I threw a pillow knocking over a frame by accident. I shut myself in Ashton's bathroom. I searched threw the draws for an old friend. I didn't think twice once I'd found it. I just began.