41. Life never ends.
Life never ends.
Obviously we die, so it ends, but that's not what I'm talking about.
"Life" never ends.
Wake up, hate yourself, dread your feet hitting the ground, go through your day hardly alive, unhappy, disappointed, hurt, and never wanting to go onto what's next.
But responsibilities and jobs strain as you try to just get through the day doing the same old thing. There's never excitement, love, life, or happiness. It's a game of "do this, make money, do this too, even if you don't like it, here's the thing you'll be doing daily, oh and do this too, be miserable, but at least you're making money and you have a job" and this game never ends. You never have a day to SLEEP IN or SKIP your chores or PASS OFF your responsibilities onto someone, it's you and it's only you from now to the end of time that can do this job and life isn't life anymore. It's a miserable existence. Every time you might have the chance to be happy something always goes wrong. You get a text from an ex, you get told someone close died, you get handed a whole list of things you just hate to do? but you have to. Your eyes turn purple and you walk around like a zombie, lack of sleep and deprivation of anything close to life is what you become.
Looking forward to laying in bed and crying that it's only for a short time, because don't forget darling, you have to get up tomorrow 9 AM sharp.