It’s been three days since Amillia's passing. Today was her funeral. Vic and I were one of the first people to be here at the funeral home. I walked in and saw Vic just looking at amillia in her casket. "Hi" I said standing by the door. He looked over at me and gave me a light smile.
"Hey Sam" he gave me a hug.
"How long have you been here?" I asked. "About 10 minutes." I then walked over to the casket and saw my sister from another mister. "Te amo mucho hermanita... Me voy a ir contigo in dia. Es in promesa."
I held her hand and slowly began to start crying. Vic pulled me into a hug. "It’s okay"
We sat down and in came her sisters and brother. Jasmin walked over to the casket and started to scream. "NO! THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE" I got up and went to hug her. "Calm down calm down…it’s okay" she cried harder her other sisters and brother just sat at stared at Amillia.
Friends, dance crews came and sat gave their respects to Amillia. The owner of the funeral home motioned me to get everyone settled down. I got up on the podium. Everyone looked up at me right away. I took a deep breath before starting to talk.
"Hello everyone. Buenas Dias. Gracias por venirse aqui para tomar tiempo con Amillia. Thank you for coming here to spend time with Amillia. Quiero dicir que Amillia era in Amiga que yo no pude encrontar en otro lados. Amillia was such a good friend, I can't find anyone like her anywhere..."
I stopped talking for a little. Just think if about those good times we had. I tried to keep my tears in. I also tried to talk in Spanish but I couldn't.
"Desculpa me pero no puedo hablar mucho espanol voy hablar ingles. I remember when we were in 3rd grade we had just met and I remember she told me that she knew we would be best friend till we grow old. I started laughing at her because I thought she was crazy. Who knew that years later when were both 24 we would still be friends close as ever. A few days later me, her friends, and her boyfriend Vic found out that a car ride to the beach can be deadly. Amillia would tell me all the time in high school. Till death do us part. Death did do us part. She was my sister, best friend, helper, dancing star, thug, everything. Amillia is a part of me that is gone visually but is here mentally with me 24/7. I love Amillia so much. I know she's in a better place now. For the rest of the time here I'm just going to play her favorite songs that she had on her playlist.”
I sat back down feeling light headed and depressed. I looked at the pictures that they displayed. Me and her I making silly faces. I smiled but felt a tear go down. Vic passed me a tissue to clean my eyes up. I got up to go to the bathroom. On my way I saw tony siting by the entrance.
"Tony you okay?" I asked. He looked back at me. "Yeah" I sat by him on the bench. "You sure?" He shook his head. "You're gonna miss Amillia?" I said "Of course! She was one of the only few friends I had in high school, she was my first big crush…I loved her so much…I wish I can hear her voice one more time. I’m okay with her telling me to back off" His face was so pale. I gave him a hug before getting up. "You should at least say bye to her. Tomorrow is her burial." He got up from the bench. "I'll try. I don't want to cry like a baby in front of everyone." I smiled "Tony chill it’s okay to cry"
I went to the bathroom and cleaned my face up. I threw water on my face to try to freshen myself up. I looked at my phone to see the time. 3:17 one message. I looked at the message.
Millia!- hey mamasita! I know this is hard for you to take in but I know you can make it through with out me being here. I love you so much hermana. I'm sorry I couldn't say goodbye before this happened. I just didn't know that this was going to happen. I wanted to go the beach and get rid of some crap and co.e back home to Vic. What you where saying up there on the podium made me feel so good. I want you to tell everyone that I love them with all my heart. ESPECIALLY Vic. I wanted to tell you this but I was never sure about it but I think I pregnant. I don't know you can ask Vic about that the doctor told him after I went to sleep. Anyways mama, YOU ARE MY SISTER. I LOVR YOU SO MUCH DONT WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING BECUASR I WILL BE AROUND YOU ONE WAY OR AN OTHER . NOTHING WILL TEAR US APART! You'll see me again soon I promise. Love you. TelI Vic I said yes.
I dropped my phone. I instantly felt like I couldn't breathe. In and out trying to breathe but I couldn't. "No, I'm dreaming this" I sat down on the chair. I felt like I was going to die I didn't know if something was up or not. I looked at my phone one more time and threw it on the floor. There is no way in hell Amillia texted me 20 minutes ago and I’ve been staring at her while she was in a casket. I then started to cry tears down my face. I got out the bathroom leaving my phone. I don't want to see it. I ran to where I had the music playing from her phone. I knew her password because she never changed but no one ever knew it. No one was in the room. I then pulled Vic to the side. I went to the room and there I saw Vic holding Amillia’s hand reaching into his pocket.my eyes started to tear up is he doing what I think he's doing?!?!?!
I stood at the casket reaching into my pocket for the special surprise I wanted to give to Amillia it was too late for this but I had to do this before her casket was closed and I would never be able to see her again.
I love her dead or alive.
I reached into my pocket playing with the velvety red box holding a plain yet beautiful ring. "Amillia I hope you don't mind me putting the ring on your finger" I started. "but I know you would've said yes. I love you and I'll see you one day darlin'." I turned around and Sam hugged me. "That's what she ment" she whispered and cried. “What?” I asked. “She wiped her tears. “don’t worry about it, she would’ve said yes”