6. Chapter Six
For the next couple of days I been trying to meet up with Luke to tell him. I rather not do it over text. It may be harder in person , but I feel like text is impersonal. Finial I was able to get him to come over my house on Friday. I was dead scared and I didn't really want to do this , but in my mind was the good girl who keep saying " It's for the best" I wore a white skirt that went to my knees that day and pink oversize sweater. I put my hair up and today I wore my black glasses since I ran out of my Contacts. I sat impatiently at my couch waiting for the doorbell to ring.
I begin to jump at any sound I heard as I continued to wait longer. Eventually the moment I been dreading began as soon as I heard my doorbell ring. I got up and made my way to the door. I open it to see a smiling Luke which broke my heart even more. " Luke, I need to tell you something," I told him with my head down." How about we go inside and you can tell me," My voice cracked at I basically shouted," NO, I mean it would be best to do this quickly." His own face dropped a little as he got a small hint. " I can't date you anymore Luke." Something sparked into his eyes as he said, " Do you mean you can't or your brother won't let you."
I raised my eyebrow a little afraid to tell the truth and said," Why does it matter?" HE shook his head and said," IT matters because why are you going to let your brother ruin something for you. He shouldn't have to control everything in your life. You should be in control. I don't even get why you are listening to him." He shook his head a little and then said," When you can make your own choices call me okay." He started to descend down my driveway to his car parked at the curb. When he said when I could make my own decisions got me. It was then I realized the true effect of my brother telling me what do to. I wasn't making my own choices it was all him.
I then called out ," LUKE Wait." He ignored me at first and then I shouted again, " LUKE." He stopped this time and shouted back ," What do you want now." I looked down at my feet instead and said," Your right I should be making my own decisions and this is one I want to make." I looked at him and he was shaking his head and then said," Are you sure your going to take the risk and not back out when your brother says too." I was about to speak up again when he started to walked away again , so I stopped him just before he reached the end of my drive way and I said ' I know what I'll be risking, I know what is going to happen . I'm willing to take this risk though, for you and me.' He looked at me and said,' Are you sure?' I nodded my head"
A grin spread across his face and he attached his lips to mine and then said," How about we go and watch a movie?" I smiled at that thought and said," Why not." We walking in my house together and picked out a horror movie to watch for the next couple of hours. IT was exactly that moment I learned that I needed to be myself and not who my brother wanted me to be.