Today is my birthday, i don't do anything special on my birthday than just sit around, people eat junk food on their birthday but i need to loose alot of weight so I've kinda stopped eating that much. If justin knew he would go into proper 'Worried mode' and that's not good. Anyways everyone has probably forgot about my birthday cause, again its not special. Me turning 18, Its just a number for me. Of corse i celebrate justin, hes going to be 20 but for me its just a regular number. Im currently sitting at the island in the kitchen on my laptop, justin is out with chaz and im peacefully on my own but i have to admit i miss jay alot! When jay comes back we are going to my fathers grave because i havent been there for ages now and i really need to see him. I switched my laptop off and made my way upstairs to get changed and yannoe the morning stuff. When i got to the 5th step there was a knock at the door. I huffed in laziness and hopped down the stairs to the door. I opened it and saw mads
"Happy birthday to you happy birthday to youuuuuu happy bday to you !" She sounded like she was drunk, i rolled my eyes
"Hey? What have i told you about getting drunk mads?" I laughed and so did she.
"Aha im not drunk, im just happy to see you on your birthday!" I smiled widely and hugged her tight.
She came in and i invited her upstairs. For you people who think of that differently, im inviting her upstairs to help me pick out a outfit .... .-. Annnyways.... she came upstairs and jumped on my bed.
"So what should i wear today lucy?" I giggled to myself at my own words and continued looking.
"Oh oh ohhhhh wear the white jeanns, wear themm!" She said excitedly, i turned my gaze towards her.
"Are you sure your not on drugs?" I said and giggled
"Im positive" A familiar voice appeared in our convisation. Justin!
"What brings you here?" I giggled and ran to him and gave him a hug.
"Just here to find my lost princess" He laughed and gave me a long passionate kiss.
"Thats my que to go, hey luc ill text ya" She said walking out
"OKAY LOVE YOU" I shouted cause she was already down the stairs. i could hear a faint love you back.
"I thought you loved me?" He playfully put his hand on his heart as if he was hurt.
"I love you more than the world." I stood up on my tip toes and gave him a long kiss. He licked my botton lip wanting entrance, i accepted but pulled away.
"Ahh! no no mister, later" I kissed his nose and walked back to my closet to get the white jeans mad picked. I chucked justins hoodie on and walked downstairs to where justin was.
"Hey baby" I walked up to justin and put my arms around his wast and rested my head on his shoulder.
"Hey princess" I kissed his cheek then went to invaid the fridge.
"Anything special today?" I was testing to see if he remembered about my birthday. Just out of curiosity.
"Nope, just a boring regular day" He sighed and continued on his phone.
"Oh cool" I sighed, i am kinda upset that noone remembered but like i said its not a big deal...
I continued in the fridge to find something but i remembered my diet so i left it and shut the fridge.
"Arn't you having nothing to eat?" I froze and hoped he didnt notice anything
"Um nahh not hungry" I walked off in a hurry.
"Ah ah freeze" I stopped dead in my tracks, fuck busted!!!
He came infront of me and gave me a peck
"Forgot my kiss" He smirked and walked back into the kitchen. A flush of relief flushed through me
There is something else you dont know about me.... I take these pills which help me loose weight and anti depressant. i know its wrong but i need to loose weight and since my dad died ive become a wreck. Ive been taking these pils for over 3 weeks now and they are working really well. I quickly got the bottle out of my desk draw and struggled to open the lid
"Crap!" I cursed under my breath. "Cmon, Cmon Cmon"
"Whats going on?" SHIT JUSTIN
I quickly but casually hid them behind my back.
"Nothing baby, just need a shower" I quickly but also again casually walked past justin but he puled my arm back and the pills droped out. FUCK im doomed .-. .-. .-. .-. .-. He picked up the bottle and the pain in his eyes made me wanna kill myself right there and then. I ran to the bathroom without him saying anything and locked the door. I sat against the door and a single tear rolled down my cheek. I suddenly heard the front door shut. I quickly unlocked the door to see Justin leaving. What have i done? Im such a mess up! I walked to my bedroom and sat on the bed with more tears coming down. I just stared at the floor not knowing what to do. Ive pushed justin away and im just a wreck! I felt someone watching me from behind but i didnt turn around, i had no energy to. He came infront of me and kneeled down, Justin. I kept my gaze on the floor with tears rolling down.
"Look at me" His calm voice made me relax a little
"Lucy!" He said a bit more firmly
I turned my gaze on him, the hurt in his eyes just made me die inside, it hurt me so bad to see him this much hurt from me. Tears rolled down my face but soon was wiped away by Justin's thumb.
"Hey hey" He now had tears rolling down his face. I just fell into Justin's arms crying. He stroked my hair
"Im so s-sorry j-justin" I said inbetween crys
"Hey shhh Its okay, we are going to get through this together, i promise baby, i promise" He said with tears coming down his face.
Are we really going to be alright or am i just another mess up?
Every chapter is random, sorry :) I like this one and im trying to make it dramatic so its fun. Its my first story so i hope you've enjoyed it so far <3 The next chapter is on the same day as this, its a carry on birthday <3 i really need your ideas so dont be afraid to comment or dm me on twitter to say ideas and just to say if you like it or not, you can be truthful i wont bite your head off :D Thanks ;) @Juustins_Babyy <3 #Swag