22. chapter 22
" how do you plan on getting out of this" Harry asked I shrugged the truth is I don't know how I'm getting out if this. It was either Harry or Louis I didn't trust either of them right now I trust Harry more than Louis. And until I can prove I can trust Louis I have a plan that's where Luke comes in surveillance, Harry keeps tabs on who he talks to and any connection he has including Jason. And me? Well I'm keeping a eye on Haven in the hospital. I don't know where Jason is and if I was him I'd come back and finish the job. Sometimes I wish I didn't sell the drugs that Jason told me to hold but I was young and naïve I just wanted to know what it was like to have all that money. But money came and left. The worst thing I did was run I ran from Jason after I sold his drugs took his money and left maybe if I didn't I wouldn't be in this shit and Haven wouldn't be sitting in a hospital and I wouldn't be sitting here next to her. Two years ago I didn't give a fuck about anything not even Jason then Haven came and fucked up my world - in a good way- I guess. I wish I didn't have to second guess my best friend. I never trusted Louis so it's no big deal with this Louis situation the moment I found out that Harry and Louis use to be good friends I second guessed being friends with him but everything happened for a reason. No I don't believe in any 'god' because there not there not real nothings fucking real anymore. See Louis. Harry. Best friends second to high school I was friends with them too then I met Jason he got me caught up in drugs drinking, sex, girls. I decided I didn't want that life anymore yeah that was after I took Jason's stuff and ran moved to this town, here I am. Everything's a mess. After I left the hospital I found my self at the bar I guess we can all guess what happened to many drinks and some hooker, and I regret it. Here I am sitting at my place killing my self over the fact that I just cheated on Haven and she's in the hospital now I have a blade sitting in my hands debating if I should pull it across it my skin. " do it" that little voice in my head said so I did it. I complete fucked it up this time. This is my problem no coping skills.
How do I tell Haven any of this?
I need to focus on catching Jason.
No more cutting I'm to tough for this shit no emotions Zayn remember? Your better than this. At this moment is the moment I snapped Jason's fucking with me. I need to be strong for Haven.
So I updated Zayn lost his mind a little but he's back! Now we have to worry about what's gonna happen to Haven when she gets out! Drop the comments now you know the story behind Jason and Zayn. And between Harry and Louis. There's still more don't let Luke fool you he's not a innocent as you think it may not be between Jason but he has a back story too c'mon did you think Louis and Luke are just friends they met in a way no one expected. Who do you trust? Louis or Harry?