14. What did I just do?
When I kissed Ashton, I felt happy. But, once we pulled I felt so guilty. I can not believe I just did that to July. Ashton gave me the death glare but ran right to July. Once he left I just got so drunk I drank 5 bottles of vodka.
When I was at it I was swearing to death and screaming. The neighbors were probally fed up with it. By the time I went downstairs I lost track how much alcohol I had. "Sis?" Luke said worried. I couldn't even speak right. "ABDKS!" I yelled.
"I HATE PEOPLE AND I NEED TO LEAVE!" I said trying to make it out as much as possible. I went up to my room but I didn't leave I just threw away all my alcohol. I wanted to go threw this pain like a normal person. I was a little sober now, "I HATE MY LIFE. WHY AM I SUCH A SCREW UP!" I ended up punching my wall. I ended up falling asleep.
The next day when I woke up I went right into the shower. Then I went downstairs and everyone just stopped talking and looked at me. "What?" I asked about to cry. "Sis are you ok?" Luke asked. I just shook my head no, I knew I was going to cry.
So, Luke just came up to me and hugged me as I broke down. "I AM SUCH A SCREW UP!" I shuddered. "Why would you think that?" He asked like he was Dr.Phil. "Cause I am ugly, I can never keep a relationship, no one will love me, and I always hurt people!" I said sobbing. As soon as I saw Ashton I ran right upstairs.
"What was that about?" That's all I could hear people say from my room. When I was listening to them I was packing a bag, yes I was leaving again. But when I was packing I heard two people walk in. I looked up and saw Ashton and Luke but, I just kept on packing and I was thinking of where I was going to end up going.
Hey Its Caitlin sorry its so short.