9. The Next Step
The next step:
The few glances I did get weren't ones I wanted.
I realized I still loved her. Even after all the fighting we did, the arguing, the crying, everything.
So when she looks my way, she has nothing left to say, but I have all the feelings still, I have nothing to do. I can't touch her lips, kiss her face. There's nothing left to say or do.
So I guess I have to take it to the next step and try to figure out what went wrong. We've never been here before, and my heart can't take it anymore. Hopefully we can repair this.
I try to get her alone a few days later.
It takes a few days to eventually get her alone with me.
I tell her all my mistakes and tell her we can try again. That we need to try again.
She told me everything she did wrong, and that maybe we could try again.
Next she tells me 'I guess that's the next step we need to take'.