"Why did you cut me?!" I yelled.
"It's punishment." My father answered.
"Ever since you happened, your mother and I have been falling apart." He explained.
"Oh, so you think abusing me is going to help?!"
"I'm not abusing you! I'm teaching you a lesson!!" He raised his voice.
"The reason you and mom are fighting, is because you decided to go on drugs and go all psycho!"
"I am not on drugs!"
"Shut up! You are to!" I snapped. My father pulled my blanket off me, and grabbed me by the legs. He pulled me onto the floor. "LET GO!" I screamed. He dropped my legs to the floor.
"I'm NOT a drug addict!!!" He shouted before leaving my room. I lay on the floor panting. I looked at my cuts. They were wide open. I had to sew them shut, or too much blood would leave my body. I went to get a pin and thread. I carefully went in and out. I sewed it tighter than it was in my dream, so there was actually a point in sewing my cuts. I had to get ready for school. I cleaned up the blood that was dripping all over my stomach and got dressed.
"And she said that I shouldn't have trusted Luke. At first I didn't believe her, but then it turned out she was right." I explained.
"That's... a strange dream." Violet replied.
"Yeah. I don't know if I'll be able to look at him in the same way." I sighed.
"I don't blame you. That's a pretty messed up dream. Have you spoken to Luke today?" Violet asked.
"Nah. I haven't seen him yet." I answered.
"H- hey guys." Ashton approached me from behind.
"Hi, Ashton." I responded.
"Is it ok if I hang out with you for now? I can't find the others." He asked.
"Yeah sure." Violet said before I could even look at her.
"Thanks." Ashton grinned. I wasn't exactly friends with Ashton. He never really talks to me. He seems like a nice guy though. He was always the "least bad" out of him, Luke, Michael, and Calum. You could sort of see it in his face too. His adorable smile, his beautiful hazel eyes, his- Wait, what am I doing? Luke is my boyfriend. Not Ashton. "So what do you guys wanna do?" I asked.
"Let's go to the oval." Violet suggested. We then walked to the oval and sat under our tree. "Where do you think Luke could be?" I asked. Ashton shrugged. I felt like I needed to speak to Luke.
"Ummm... found him." Violet pointed behind be. I turned around and saw Luke standing with Michael and Calum. He was talking to Aleisha. He looked a bit mad. I grabbed Violet's hand and Ashton's arm. (It would've been awkward if I held his hand lol) "Luke?" I let go of Violet and Ashton when I got pretty close to him.
"Oh... Hey Nora." Luke almost mumbled. I narrowed my eyes at him. He was already acting strange. He was standing sort of awkwardly.
"Anything wrong Luke?" I asked. Luke started to shake his head "no", but then paused and started to nod. I tilted my head. Luke took a step back, and then Aleisha went he was standing before. "Nora, you should leave." Aleisha said.
"Tell me what's going on." I demanded. I felt Ashton come up behind me. His hand brushed against mine, so I quickly grabbed it and held it tight. I knew I wouldn't like whatever was going to happen next. I needed a hand to hold. Aleisha came up close to my ear. "Aleisha! Don't do it!" Luke yelled.
"Well, what else are you going to do?! She has to know!" Aleisha responded. My grip tightened, as did Ashton's. "You and Luke are over." Aleisha whispered. My eyes went wide.
"W- what?" I immediately started to tear up. Then Aleisha said those EXACT words.
"I told you he was using you." She whispered. My heart completely stopped. I looked at her, shaking my head and slowly taking small steps back.
"How did you-"
"What? Does that sentence sound familiar?" She smirked. I completely stopped moving and stood there in disbelief. Tears were still streaming out if my eyes. I needed to get away. I ran off, dragging Ashton with me. As I ran, I stopped and looked back. I wanted to scream. I couldn't believe it. Aleisha and Luke were MAKING OUT. I shouldn't have risked it. This was all a mistake. "Nora! Look away!" Violet yelled. I kept on running until we reached a unisex bathroom. "Nora, you have to wash your eyes." Ashton said. I nodded and turned on the tap. I cleaned up my tears, but I knew it wouldn't help. I really was heart broken. Violet hugged me. I sobbed into her shoulder. "Shhh. You'll get over him." She whispered. I sure did hope she was right. I couldn't handle it. I needed to feel Luke's touch right now. I broke free from Violet's hug. "I need Luke! NOW!" I yelled.
"Nora! You can't!" Violet insisted. I fell to my knees. I put my face in my hands and started to scream. I had never felt like I needed a guy so much in my whole life. I felt a hand on my back. "It'll be ok." I heard Ashton's voice say. I looked up at him. Then I felt that little spark. Like it had just clicked. I felt like a door had just opened. I guess you could say I now see something in him that I didn't see before. He's really attractive! I immediately got up and wrapped my arms around him as he did the same. I already knew Ashton liked me. I wanted to skip the flirting and confusion. "Ashton, I like you." I whispered.
"I like you too." He whispered back.
I walked into my house and into the living room. My mother was sitting at the table. "Your father is back by the way." She mentioned.
"I know." I replied. I walked into my room and laid on my bed. I let out a long sigh. I looked at my phone that said "One missed call from Luke". My stomach immediately filled with butterflies. I checked the time he had called me and it said "3:32", which would've been when I was still walking home. I must've not noticed that he was calling me. Why would he call me? He dumped me, didn't he? I couldn't keep myself from calling him back. I wish I didn't want to talk to him, but he's just too perfect to not even crave to hear his voice speak to me. "Hello? Nora?" I heard him say as soon as he answered the phone. Tears started to fill up my eyes.
"Hey... Luke. You called me?" I said, my voice slightly shaking.
"Uhhh... yeah." He spoke after a bit of a pause.
"What did you want to say?" I asked with hope in my tone.
"I was just uhh... it doesn't matter." He replied.
"Just tell me." I ordered.
"We... can't hang out anymore... at all." He explained. And just with that, I hung up on him. I didn't say anything after that. I know I would seem weak if I questioned it. I wish I didn't ask him what he wanted to say now.
I miss Luke so much already. It's literally eating me.
The bell rang and my heart skipped a beat when I realised I had science with Luke. "Bye Violet. Bye Ashton." I leaned over and pecked Ashton on the cheek. I skipped off to class and sat between Luke and Bree. Bree leaned over and began to speak. "So! I heard you and Ashton have a thing going!" She winked.
"Yeah..." I blushed. She knew Luke and I fell apart. I knew she was helping me try make Luke jealous. I didn't know if it was working, but I couldn't look directly at Luke, so I kept my eye contact with Bree. The teacher soon entered the classroom. He took the roll and then we carried on with our projects that I was paired up with Luke for. I turned to Luke. He was sort of hung over his chair. He gave me a slight glare. I shrugged it off and pulled out my phone to do research on oil spills as Luke did the same. I took my attention off my phone and took a minute to look at Luke. "What." He said looking up at me.
"So that's it? You're just going to pretend nothing happened?"
"Look. I don't want to talk about it. Okay?"
"Well I think it's necessary that we do talk about it! I don't think there is a reason that we shouldn't!" I snapped.
"Fine! I just don't feel that way about you anymore!" He yelled. My eyes instantly got coated in tears. Luke kept his glare. I can't believe he just said that to me. I got up and ran to the door. Just as I placed my hand on the door knob, I heard the teacher say, "Nora, where do you think you're going?" I turned and looked at the teacher with my eyes that were now buried in tears. "I'm s-sorry. You're excused." He stuttered. I nodded and ran to the bathroom. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. I felt dizzy and light headed. Like I was going to faint. It was just a few days ago that it was perfect between me and Luke, and now my whole life is falling apart.
Why does he not like me anymore? Why do my feelings torment me? Why do I still love him?