Chapter 34: Airports and Shoulders
Even when I'm asleep I can sense when Kendall's not near me anymore and it woke me up today. Half asleep I rolled over and draped my arm out across her torso, pulling Kendall's back into my chest and burying my face into the back of her neck. She made a sound but then her breathing went steady once again and she was back asleep whilst I was just lying there - between sleep and awake.
Lying there for god knows how long I was just enjoying the the slight burns on my skin from where Kendall's touching me and the chills that ran down my body when she groaned suddenly and turned round to face me, snuggling into my chest. That was until my alarm decided to go off.
I instantly turned it off but by that time both Kendall and I were wide awake anyway. "Hey." She mumbled sitting up and crossing her legs as I rolled onto my back and looked up at her.
"Hey." I yawned. "How're you?"
"Tired and I'm guessing so are you." She smiled as I yawned yet again. I nodded in response and held out one arm. Kendall slotted perfectly into my arm and against my side, like a puzzle piece. With my arm between her neck and the pillow, her hands flat against my chest and both our bodies turned to face each other; I had locked eyes with her and rested my forehead against hers.
"Remind me why we're up at six again." I mumbled.
"Plane." Was all she muttered with an eye roll. As Kendall's lips moved I couldn't help but look at them. The cool breath of her words fanned my cheeks and she laughed silently when I looked back up at her. My cheeks flushed and cooled instantly as she moved her hands up to them. I closed my eyes and pulled her even closer against me, the corners of my mouth turning up as she brushed her lips against mine.
They left too quickly and I whined, leaning towards her but she moved her hands back to my chest and lent away from me. "Babe!" I whined rolling on to her and leaning down on her.
"No!" Kendall laughed. "Get up, come on!"
"Just one kiss?" I asked pouting slightly. Her eyes gleamed and for a second I thought I was getting one but she lent up and kissed my cheek before ducking out my grasp and rolling off the bed. I let out an over-dramatic sigh and flopped down onto my back.
"Tease." I muttered and she laughed before closing the bathroom door after her. I groaned and got out of her bed myself. Shrugging on some black jeans, a black tee shirt and a black hoodie; I looked over at Kendall's still packed suitcase. Since she only got back two days ago she didn't bother unpacking it for this trip.
We're going to Athens today to shoot some scenes and also just for a break. David felt bad because since Kendall left everyone round here's been throwing themselves into training or scenes to try and get our minds off of her. Our lives don't revolve around Kendall but she's always been here and she's the one to keep us all grounded.
I guess when you end up with pretty much nothing you tend to be grateful and never big headed. Before I met her I guess I took everything I had for granted... like I just expected them to always be there. I lost my parents when I was three and Uncle Simon took me in. As you can tell living with Uncle Simon meant anything I wanted with the click of my fingers. I was in magazines, I did one or two interviews with him until I got bored and then when the whole One Direction thing took off they lived next door and was always round.
When Kendall came she didn't have to tell me I was big-headed, she didn't like me because of the twelve year old, stuck up and spoiled kid. She liked me because of me. I smiled at the thought and then ran a hand through my hair. I sat on her bed and shoved on some white socks, covering them with my blue Nike trainers.
I was in the middle of eating a bowl of cereal when Kendall came out the bathroom wearing blue ripped skinny jeans, white socks and a grey tee shirt with a black bomber jacket. She's kept her hair down and swept it to one side, her pajamas were thrown on her bed and she finally looked up at me.
"You okay?" She asked instantly dropping the white pair of converse in her hands. Somehow all her white clothing looks brand spanking new, just pure white all the time. I don't know how she does it. It's like dirt just slips off of her.
The bowl of cereal is now empty and I slid it into the sink before walking over to her. Cupping the back of her neck in my hands; she raised her chin and looked directly at me.
"I don't know." I replied.
"What's wrong?" She asked and I shivered as her arms slid underneath my shirt and clasped together behind my back, her hands resting by the middle of my back and I relaxed in her arms.
"That's what's wrong." I said. "I'm not supposed to be feeling this way about anyone Kendall. Anyone and you're here making me feel exactly how I've been told not to. You're just..." I struggled with the words and ended up shaking me head.
"I'm just what?"
I sighed and kissed her forehead. "You've got me." I whispered. "You've just got me and I get you and it's just not enough. I'm not enough for you, I'm not good enough to be with you and I know that. I see the looks I get when I'm with you - I see the way the guys look at you like you're crazy to be with me and I feel terrible because god I lo-"
I stopped myself and swallowed hard as Kendall pulled away sharply. Did I nearly say 'love'? Love. I can't love her... I'm FOURTEEN! 14. Four-teen. That's too young to love someone. I mean sure I'm so much happier whenever she's around and she gets my heart racing just by being in the same room as me and I know that I don't plan on letting her go anytime soon- I do love her, don't I?
"Okay one," Kendall said. "Stop right there, I don't care who gives you any type of look. I don't care what they think or what they don't like. Okay? I'm with you, I'm yours and you're not going to lose me over some fucking strangers who don't know one thing about me!"
She placed her hands flat against my chest and I'm pretty sure she can feel my heart pulsing too fast.
"Two?" I asked squeezing my eyes shut. She may have said that I'm not going to lose her over some strangers but I could lose her because I freaked her out. Oh god I've freaked her out.
However my thoughts were cut off when her lips placed themselves against mine and my hands flew out to her hips. Her lips left too early like the last time but she still managed to make my heart race with three simple words.
"Zack," Okay four. "I love you."
Opening my eyes I saw a different look in hers and I smiled so widely my cheeks started hurting. "I love you too Kendall, I love you so much."
I wrapped my arms round her so tightly that she ended up wrapping her legs round my waist as I pinned her against the wall and kissed her. Her arms were round my neck, gripping the back of my tee shirt and holding it in her fists. I slipped my hands under her shirt and gripped tightly onto her hips probably leaving a mark.
Like I said before, I know her lips inside and out so it was no surprise when her hands found themselves in my hair and tugging at it. My phone rang with David's ringtone and I pulled back, both of our heads turning to look at the ringing phone.
"Why does everyone round here have such crappy timing." I groaned making Kendall laugh. Her hand went to my cheek, guiding my head sideways until my lips came into contact with hers again.
"Come on." She whispered and instead of arguing - because let's be fair, she'd end up kissing me again and I would cave - I walked backwards a couple steps and kept my hands on her whilst she planted her feet on the ground.
I realized I'm still smiling but I can't contain it so instead I planted another kiss on her lips, a quick peck only. God I love her.
"What the hell did David say!" Jenny tried to sound like an offended adult but she's nineteen and being forced to take care of six fourteen year olds. Three who decided they didn't want to walk. We're not even at the VIP area yet and I've got Kendall on my back, Brody has Katy on his and the same with Jackson and Megan. Kendall took my back pack and put that on her back so I don't need to worry about that and she's so light if it weren't for the tight grip I have on her thighs I wouldn't have noticed she's even hanging onto my neck.
"I wasn't listening, what was he saying?" Brody asked spinning round and looking at Jen. I turned round too and looked at all of them, Jackson and I are pretty fast walkers so we took the lead even with the two girls who don't weigh a thing.
Jenny looked at us for a second before shaking her head and ushering us to keep moving.
"So how long are you spending with us Megan?" Kendall asked, her legs slipping until she was standing up. I wrapped my arm round her shoulder and her hand lifted up to slot in mine perfectly.
"About a month and a half." Megan replied doing the same as Kendall but Jackson took her hand instead. "My parents are over in Mexico with my brother and I'd rather not listen to my grandparents argue over the record machine."
"Kids!" David yelled and I looked up to see him holding a door open. He gave us a look and we were all sat in the waiting room within a couple seconds. Kendall had stretched out over three chairs, I had sat on one and moved one of my legs up onto a second chair for Kendall to lay her head on. With one hand I'm spinning a lock of her hair between my fingers and with the other I'm balancing my phone in.
The others are all busy doing their things as I take a picture of Kendall, lying down on my lap; phone in hand and her freshly painted white nails tapping against her chin. I went onto Instagram and wrote: The Queen, MY Queen
Instantly comments were just flooding in and I didn't notice Kendall taking a picture of me until it came up on my news feed. I'm looking down at my phone, my hand's visible along with her hair between my fingers. She had captioned it My King and I grinned down at her.
"I love you." I mumbled as I bent down and kissed her lips making her smile widely.
"I love you too." She replied. "So much it scares me."