I got cut off as Luke pressed his lips against mine. We both pulled away instantly. Did he just kiss me? I could feel fire in my cheeks and my stomach doing backflips. He checked to see if anyone saw us.
His face was red and he wouldn't look me in the eyes. He felt the same way I did. I looked down to see he was squeezing my hands.
"I'm so sorry." Luke whispered as he dropped my hands and started to walk away.
I put my hand on his arm.
I had no idea what I was about to say but it just came out, I soon regretted it.
"You can't keep doing this anymore, you lead me on then you act like I'm nothing. I need you to make up your mind if you like me or not. This 'thing' is getting confusing and frustrating. So tell me right now, do you really like me?"
He looked me in the eyes, then looked at the ground and bit his lip. I really wish I knew how to keep my mouth shut.
As he walked away I felt my heart tear in two. I fell to the ground and started bawling. How could I ever of thought he liked me? The world looked blurry through the tears, but I somehow got up to my room without being seen. I collapsed on me bed and snapped. Nothing could make this feel better, my life is hell. Jake is dead. Luke used you. Everyone hates you. I couldn't control myself. I went over to my jewelry box and opened a hidden drawer. No one loves you. No one wants you. Just die.
It took 10 minutes to realize I was running a blade across my wrist multiple times watching the blood seep out. I don't know what happened to me. I couldn't stop myself, it was like I was in a trance with the words in my head, 'Just die.'