I feel like the happiest person in the world. I have the biggest smile on my face all evening, and so does Peeta. I take hold of his hand when he sits back down.
"Can I come to your wedding" Paris asks
"PARIS Don't be so rude" Her mother exclaims. Peeta and I laugh. I think manners run throughout all of Effie's family.
"Sure, we will post your invitation along with Effie's" I say.
"YAY!" she screams. The waiters come to collect the dirty dishes. The food was lovely. Lavender soup for starters, chicken and orange casserole for our main meal and for dessert Effie's favourite, chocolate cake. Delicious! Everyone then begins to hand Effie her presents. Hair bows of all different colours, shoes, dresses, makeup and jewellery fill up the table. Soon it is mine and Peeta’s turn to give her our present.
"Happy Birthday" We say in unison as we hand it to her.
"Thank you" She replies. She fumbles in the bag for the silver owl. I hope she likes it.
"Oh.....Katniss, Peeta.....thank you, it is beautiful" She says in awe. She stands up and walks over to give us each a hug.
"Thank you, for my wonderful gifts and for coming" she says as she sits back down. Not so long after people begin to leave. It is not long before people begin to leave and we are just alone with Haymitch. Effie, like a good polite host, has gone to the front door with the guests to wave them off. I still haven't let go of Peeta’s hand. I rest my head on Peeta’s shoulder and look at the ceiling which has been carefully decorated to look like the nights sky. I know it is fake, but it is still beautiful.
"Thank you for inviting us Effie" Peeta says as Effie walks back into the room.
"Thank you both for my lovely present and for coming" She says. I look over at Haymitch who is downing another bottle of liquor.
"Oh and congratulations, I am very happy for both of you" Effie adds on and smiles.
"Thank you" we reply.
Effie and Haymitch soon go off to bed. As soon as they are out of the room Peeta looks at me,
"Are they hiding something from us? I mean it is a bit strange, them both going up to bed together" He says, I giggle.
"let’s see how long they can keep it a secret" I say. Peeta stands up and I giggle again as he picks me up bridal style and carries me to our room. He pushes the door open and carefully sits me down on our bed. He gives me a quick small kiss before he goes and shuts the door. I head over to our suitcase and pick up t-shirt and some shorts and head into the bathroom to get changed out of my dress.
Peeta is already changed when I walk out of the bathroom. I walk up to him. I wrap my arms around his strong sturdy body and lean up and begin to kiss him. His arms wrap around my body. I get that same sensation that I got on the beach. But this kiss is different this time, it is real and I don't ever want this moment to end. We soon climb into bed and I rest my head on Peeta’s chest.
"I am so lucky to be engaged to the most beautiful woman in the world" I blush when Peeta says it.
"And I am so lucky to be engaged to the most, perfect, handsome boy in the world" I reply. He kisses my forehead,
"I love you" He says.
"I love you more" I reply.
"You know Katniss, I have been thinking" Peeta begins. I look up at him.
"What" I say. He takes a deep breath.
"Please don't kill me for saying this or suggesting this, but I was wondering if you were ready to start a family yet. It is fine if you don't want to if you aren't ready"
"I, I don't know Peeta" I say, I begin to shake, he wraps his arms around me.
"It is okay Katniss if you don't want to, it really is and I don't want to pressure you into something you don't want to do. Starting a family isn't an easy decision so please don't feel like you have to do it, and please don't do it just for me" He says.
"I am going to have to think about it" I say to him.
"Okay, get some rest now but whatever you do Katniss, please don't worry about it" he says kissing me.
"Okay, I won't" I reply. I snuggle up to him as he pulls the covers over us to keep us warm throughout the night.
For the first week whilst we are at Effie's I can't stop thinking about what Peeta said to me that night. He loves kids, he is a natural with them you can just see it in his eyes. But I am scared, I know the games are never coming back but I just can't help thinking they could. And what about that marriage before sex? I can't say it is a traditional thing in my family because it isn't I remember my mom telling me that she was only one month pregnant with me when she got married to dad. People say if you get married before then your relationship will be allot stronger and I get why they say that because it is usually the case sometimes, but it also depends on how much you both seriously care about each other. It isn't an easy decision to make. I would love to have a family but I am also scared of what could happen, I know if I did have a child and something did happen to it I would blame myself.
Peeta and I are lying in bed exactly one week after that conversation. Peeta hasn't said anything at all about it.
"Peeta" I begin.
"Hmm" he replies. I take a deep breath and begin,
"I have been thinking about that conversation we had last week, I would love to start a family but the only problem is I am terrified. I am terrified that the games might come back, I know they won’t but I can’t help thinking it. I am terrified that I won’t be able to look after our child"
"Katniss, the games are gone for good now and bringing up a child is more like a learning process and I know you would be a perfect mother. You were technically Prims mom and sister, you fed her, you made sure she had clothes and went to school" Peeta says. He runs his fingers over my cheek.
"No matter what choice you make about this, I know you will make the right one" he adds on. I smile,
"I would love to start a family Peeta, I really would"
"Are you sure, you aren't doing this just for me because I want to"
"I'm positive" I reply.
1 Week Later...
I wake up on the train cocooned in Peeta’s strong arms. It isn't long before I have to run to the small bathroom to throw up into the toilet. Peeta must have heard me because the next thing I know is that he is at the side of me holding my hair and rubbing my back whilst I throw up. Concern is all over his face. I'm quite scared as well, I hardly ever get sick.
"Are you okay" He asks handing me a towel. I nod my head and grab my toothbrush of the side and brush my teeth.
I head back into the bedroom and grab a clean pair of clothes and get a shower. After I head into the food cart too get breakfast.
"Finished throwing up sweetheart" Haymitch asks. I roll my eyes. I sit down next to Peeta and grab a slice of toast and some jam.
"Are you feeling any better" He asks me.
"Yeah, a bit" I reply. I munch on my toast while a train attendant walks in and tells us that there has been a big delay and we won't be in district 4 until tomorrow evening. Peeta and I spend the rest of our day on the train talking and telling each other stories.
I throw up the next morning as well. Peeta does the same thing, he holds my hair and rubs my back and he hands me a towel to wipe my face when I am finished.
"I'm worried" He says later on that day. The train is now on its way to district 4.
"It isn't normal for you to throw up every morning"
"Peeta, if it doesn't stop within a week I promise I will go see a doctor." I tell him. I lean onto him whilst he braids my hair.
"Fine, but it doesn't stop me from being any more worried about you. Hair tie" I hand him the hair tie that is wrapped around my wrist. When he is finished I turn around and cuddle up to him.