You wake up to an empty bed. Justin isn't there. He hasn't been here at all. He's in London or wherever he is. You grab your phone and log into Twitter seeing a video of Justin everywhere. You click play and see Justin dancing up against some girl, like real close. You finally thought it was over, but he keeps surprising you. The tears start coming and rolling down your cheeks, "God dammit Justin.." Then you see one more video of Justin and click play. You see him talk. You turn up your speakers and hear him say, "I'm sorry babe... I-I'm really s-sowie baby.." He's drunk as hell. Why that, you think, why the hell get drunk?
You decide to call him.
"Hey babe.. I'm sorry" he says.
"You're sorry huh? You know what you told me Justin? You told that these are new days.. That it was over.. And I believed you.. Why the hell do you get drunk and dance with random girls? Why do you do it? I'm not enough?" you shout.
"I don't wanna fight.. I don't know why.. I told Scooter that I have to have you with me or I know I'll do what I did last night.. I can't handle to be alone.. I don't know what it is but I can't be alone.. So I get drunk to fill out the hole that is placed inside of me every single time I'm not with you and do stupid stuff.. I don't get depressed and call you, crying... I wish I did.. But I don't.. I go out and do stupid stuff I see on videos on Twitter the next day.. And I'm embarrassed every single time... And I didn't sleep with anyone.. I didn't kiss with anyone.. I just danced with some girls, because apparently I have to have that kind of attention, I figured" he explains.
"But Justin I can't handle it.. I know you wanna have attention everywhere you go.. But then just see your beliebers they always tell you who much they love you right?" you exclaim.
"I know... But it ain't enough.. It's enough when you're there.. I don't know.. I'm sorry.. I can't help it... I have this feeling of unease... I have to do something.. Make music all the time... Parachute.. Jump off a roof.. Something like that... When I have you I can kiss you.. Tell you something making you blush, smile or whatever... And make love to you making you feel good.. And I know you love me.. I don't know what is wrong with me.. It's frustrating" he says.
You sigh, "Justin I-"
"No don't say it.. I promise I'll make it up to you... I won't do anything... I'll make sure that Hugo doesn't let me go anywhere.." he exclaims.
"But Justin.. You know just as I do that it won't work out.. But I'll give you more chance.. And if you mess it up it's over... No matter how much it hurts, it hurts more to get broken every single time you do something like this... Every time I get a feeling of that I'm not good enough" you say.
"But you are.. You're everything that I ever dreamt off.. You're my everything I just don't know how to show you.." he tells you.
"You do know how to show me.. And it's amazing every single time.. But you always screw it up..."
"Not really show you.. I'll show you one day" he says.
"But that one day is far away Justin.. And that one day won't come if you keep acting like this" you say.
"I know.. I'm so sorry... I have to be with my mom.. I'll call my mom and ask her to fly out to see me.. If Scooter says yes of cause.. Or you could com" he says.
"I won't fly out to see you.. I'm mad at you.. And I want you to handle this yourself.. Talk to your mom.. Or whatever.. I'm giving you a new chance to prove to me that you're worth spending time on" you say angrily.
"I will I promise you" he says, "I love you.."
"I know.. Bye Justin" you hang up and burst out in tears.
"Why can't I treat her right?" you exclaim and suddenly you start crying. You love her to death but you can't treat her right. Sniffling you call your mom.
"Mom.. I screwed up" you cry into your phone.
"Sweetie.. Don't cry" your mom says.
"Can you fly out to see me?.. And make sure I don't do anything stupid?.. I need you to be here with me" you sniffle, "I need you to hold me.."
"Of cause.. Where are you?" she asks.
"Don't know... Germany I think" you sniffle again.
"Okay see you tomorrow sweetie.. I love you" she says.
"Love you too mom" you say and hang up.