Clearly I had to go to the stupid party, it was that or sit in a dark room on my own for hours on end waiting for them to come back. The party went on and on for ages, it literally felt like it went on my whole life. I didn't want to go however I was forced, that's my life nowadays getting forced to go to places I don't want to go to, how depressing.
It was Monday morning. I opened my curtains, to the birds sitting on my window seal tweeting a morning song. I used to love birds, when I was 5 I was always up at the crack of dawn waiting for birds to fly up to my window to sing the morning song, I loved it, but now whenever I hear it I want to smash my head against a brick wall. All my friends keep telling me it's because of the fact that I'm grown up now and all my ambitions have changed, they are probably right though to be fair on them. I am a teenager, I'm bound to feel different and not like the things I did when I was 5 but thing is, is that the soft sound of birds always seem to make me happy.
I went to school still half dead I felt like I shouldn't even be here any more. Oh crap.. As I walked in I saw all of my year lining up by the play ground "Oh shit" I whispered to myself very quietly. After being so wrapped up in not wanting to go to the stupid party on the weekend I had totally forgotten the fact that I was having an exam. I don't know what came over me, what had happened I'm the type of person to start revising a year before an exam or do my homework the night I get it. Oh my god. How could I have been so stupid? That is when it started, the feeling..
Everything around me was moving fast, spinning around, I started breathing really heavily I was boiling up, I was so scared. I didn't know what was going on. It was so uncontrollable I couldn't stop. "Crystal.. Crystal, are you here" our head teacher spoke very loudly, but for some reason I couldn't hear a thing, everything around me was starting to go blank.. After that, everything that happened I don't remember.
I woke up on the sofa, with a cup of water beside me. What just happened, and was that going to be the moment that triggered the next step?