I got up on stage, fighting everything inside me trying to hold in tears. I look out at the crowd, "I'm really going to need some help." I croaked and took a long gulp from my water bottle. "I know I don't have my own songs yet, so it's just covers." I cleared my sore throat and everyone was silent as I explained myself.
"The person who meant the world to me passed away last night. She was my everything and I never got the chance to thank her enough for what she did." My music started playing. "Mama, this ones for you." I said and kissed my fingers, holding it to the sky.
I looked out at the crowd and seen them doing it to. It meant the world to me watching them support this, "please help me if you know it!" I said before I started singing.
"I fought for you the hardest, it made me the strongest. So tell me your secrets, I just can't stand to see you leaving. But heaven couldn't wait for you." I opened my pooled over eyes and seen everyone waving their phones with the flashes on and singing along with me. "So go on go home." My head bowed at the last sentence of the hook.
"We laughed at the darkness so scared that we lost it. We stood on the ceilings, you showed me love is all you needed!" My voice broke, "heaven couldn't wait for you." I stopped singing and took another drink from the water bottle, I watched as everyone sang, waving their arms and screaming they love me.
I closed my eyes and smiled, and then someone else's voice pitched in. I looked back and seen the boys walking up onstage, even Harry. "No, heaven couldn't wait for you." They all sang together, I smiled and tears rushed down my face.
They all stood beside me and we sang together, "heaven couldn't wait for you, no!" I screamed into the mic and then I dropped it. It was too much, I turned to the boys and they all hugged me. My fave squished into Niall and everything felt so right, Liam's arms were wrapped around me from behind and then the other three joined in. "Thank you." I said into someone's mic and the whole crowd went nuts.
We all turned and bowed and then I ran off the stage, I couldn't see due to tears just spilling out of my eyes. I ran into my dressing room and started screaming, throwing things and crying. It was a violent moment for me, I don't do this.
But the anger I was feeling over this made me want to hang myself. "WHY!" I screamed and threw my water bottle at the wall, I picked up something else and was about to throw it before my arm was grabbed. I struggled to get free but I couldn't do it, I had no strength left in me.
I was turned around and hugged. My whole body being pressed up against this person as I screamed into their shirt and pulled at it. "Shhh." They coed and played with the ends of my hair. "It's okay." It was Louis.
"WHY!" I screamed and fell to the floor, louis fell with me and held me in his lap until I heard everyone else walk in. I was violently crying, almost making myself gag. I go through phases whenever I get this bad, the anger phase, which was this. Then comes the numb phase, which was about to kick in right now.
My grip on Louis' shirt loosened and I stopped crying so heavily. Tears still fell from my eyes but I didn't make a sound, just a few sniffs and a few coughs. Louis still held me, but we had moved over to the couch and finally came the stage I've been wanting to feel since last night.
The nothing phase. The phase that I just pass out, even though I'm not actually asleep, my eyes just close and they don't or can't open.
My face moved itself to Louis' chest, nudging itself in his shirt. My arms hugged around his torso as he talked to other boys about what he had caught me doing before he stopped me. "Was going to break the lamp." He said softly. "Is she leaving?" harry asked.
My eyes opened and I looked at him, anger kicking in again. "You just do not like me do you?!" I screamed at him. "What did I do to make you fucking hate me so much! You didn't even show anything towards me whenever I told you guys what happened this morning! And now you're only words to me are 'is she leaving'? Fuck you Harry!" I said and walked out of the dressing room.
I walked down the hall screaming and punching the walls. Thank god this concert is over so I can go back to the hotel and pack my shit for home. I got the driver to take me to the hotel, i already booked my flight last night and I cannot wait to get away from that fucking lunatic!
I grabbed my bags and opened to the door to walk out, but I'm stopped by Niall. "You can't leave!" He says and pushes me back into the room. "You can't leave me!" He shouts at me. "Please?!" He begs, dropping to his knees and shoving my suitcase out of my hand. "Braelynn!" This time it was him who was screaming cries.
"I need to Niall, this isn't for me." I said in a hushed voice, my hands running through his hair and down his neck. "I need to go." I whispered and tried to move out of the way.
"Are you coming back?" He shouts and tugs at my pant leg. I shake my head at him and kiss his forehead. "BRAELYNN!" He screams for me but I keep walking down the hallway. My name is still being screamed and I can't help the tears that fall from my cheeks to the floor. My feet are heavy against the floor and my legs start to stiffen.
I can hear Niall running after me and I make myself start to run to the car. I can't make this harder than it has to be, I push my bags into the car and take off. Niall is soaked as soon as he walks out, standing in the rain starring at me like he just lost hi best friend. "I love you." I whispered and touched the window as the driver took off. I looked back and watched him starting to punch the hotel doors.
I sink back into my seat and keep quiet, my heart is smashed and all I want to do is crawl into a hole and die. I pass my boring pass and passport to the flight attendant and I bored the plane.
My seat was in the back and there was no one beside me, thank god. I plugged in my head phones and placed my head against the glass. I buckled my seat belt and looked out the window, someone was running to the plane screaming for them to wait. I scrunch the eyebrows together and focused on the person waving their arms in the air like an idiot. They bored the plane and looked around, their eyes set on me and he ran towards me.
"I'm coming" he whispers to me.
"You can't, you have a concert." I said and turned to him, my hands on his face just like his were on mine. "Niall you need to be there for your fans, I'm going to be okay."
"No you're not coming back!" He screamed at me. I wipe the tears off his face, "sir we need you to make up your mind." The attendant said.
"Go niall, it's okay." I said and kissed him, long and hard. "Please, if you want to help me then be there for your fans okay? They come first." I explained.
"Braelynn please come back!" He begged and then he was pulled off the plane and I cried even harder. "Please Braelynn!" He screamed before tripping over his feet. He sat there on the wet ground with his knees to his chest. This was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life.
update again!!!! WHAT?! Lol, I love you all so much. What do you think she's going to do? Stay in her home town or come back a little while later?! Ouuuuu guesses