31. Having the Baby Early
Got to do it..Who am I kidding, I am fucking totally sad I can't have my baby with me! I am losing my baby tomorrow! I got to escape this Island and fast. I have to have this baby, I will give it my love for two months. Then I will return and have a normal life. Knowing my baby boy, is safe and has a home in an orphanage and he will be able to find us one day, if he isn't mad at me for giving him up. Now all I have to do is call a helicopter to take me to England. I will be going to Birmingham, and I will be keeping low. I will have Paul do all my shopping so I won't get overwhelmed by fans. I will have Pauls wife to help me with the baby, and then when its time to leave, I will leave him in an orphanage.
"Paul it's time" I said through the phone.
"Alright Christa, I will be there in an hour"He said
"Alright see you then" I said as I hung up the phone.
I packed the clothes I will need for two months, then I headed off.
I left Nialls keys under the mat, along with my Phone. So nobody could contact me for 2 months.
As soon as I got everything ready, Paul was finally here. So I dashed to the Heli pad, and got into the Helicopter before anyone started to look for me.Then me and Paul were off.
I can't believe she is going to cut again! I got to stop her. I ran to her bungalow and the door was locked. But I heard something crack when I stepped on the mat. I lifted up the matt and I saw her phone and Nialls key. Her phone was cracked, so I am assuming she ran away. But I am not going to say anything, I know what she is going to do. She wants her baby, so she will keep her baby for so long.
I just hope she is okay, I know she is making the right choice for her and this baby.
I got to the Birmingham Hospital and had the baby early. I named him James Lucas Styles, he looked so much like his father it made me want to cry. I really,really, missed Niall. But I am doing whats best for our first born son. I will eventually come back for my baby boy. But if I don't I want him to know I love him.