The next morning I woke up around 8, Luke was already up and making breakfast, “good morning” he said, I looked at him confused, I thought he would ignore me at least a couple of days more, but I decided not to mention it, “good morning” I said and headed for the bathroom.
“Charli?” I stopped, maybe he was going to apologize, not that he had anything to apologize for, “do you want to order take out for dinner tonight?” I looked at him, waiting on him to say more, when he didn’t, I just nodded and turned away and started to walk towards the bathroom again. “I have to go grocery shopping, I’m assuming you’ll have to come” Luke asked, my hand was on the door handle, “yeah, I think that’s the best” he nodded, and continued making breakfast “let me just take a shower, and then we can go” I said.
I showered, and put on makeup, and found my wallet. I then found a black tank top, and some black jeans to wear.
There was only 4 weeks to Christmas, but it was about 20˚ outside.
Luke knocked on the bathroom door, “are you ready?” he asked “yeah, I’ll be out in a minute” I looked at my hair one last time and walked out to the car.
“Shouldn’t you have a bodyguard or something?” I asked, I honestly knew nothing about famous peoples lifestyle, Luke laughed, “I’ll think we’ll be okay” I shrugged, and assumed Luke could take care of himself, not knowing if he was joking or not.
“What do I tell people?” Luke asked after a couple of minutes in silence “most people prefer companion, colleague or friend, you can say whatever you want” I said looking out the window.
“I’m just gonna go with friend” Luke stated, I nodded. I got tired of the silence and asked Luke if it was okay to turn the radio on, he just shrugged, so I did, they were playing a song I didn’t know.
I started wondering why he was being so nice to be all of the sudden. I had been pretty mean to him.
The car stopped, I looked outside at the destination, it was a huge shopping mall “is there anything else you need to know before we walk in?” I unbuckled my seatbelt and looked at him, “no, I’m good for now” he said and took a hat on and some sunglasses before exiting the car.
“Isn’t this a little too big, for just grocery shopping?” Luke shrugged, and walked inside, with me behind him “I like it here” he then said.
“What do you usually eat in the morning?” Luke asked looking at all the different kind of cereal brands, I shrugged, “I’m not picky, you can choose” we were in the middle of the supermarket inside of the shopping center, “okay, I’ll take Frosties then” Luke said and put the box in the cart.
“Do you realize that this is the longest we have gone without fighting?” Luke asked me cheekily, “You know that’s bad luck saying that” we were on our way to the checkout, “maybe we can-” Luke interrupted me with randomly grabbing my hand, and intertwining my fingers with his. “What are you doing?” I whispered in surprise, he were only millimeters away from me.
“I think I saw a paparazzi” Luke whispered still holding my hand, “so?” I asked confused, “is this what you do to all of your friends when you see paparazzi’s?” I asked raising an eyebrow, “no, I just- I really don’t want them to get suspicious” he whispered back, looking into my eyes, I could tell it meant a lot to him that nobody knew “trust me they won’t” I said letting go of his hand, “I’m a professional, but I do admire you trying to really convince them”
“You’re just really young” he muttered, I looked at him in disbelief, I didn’t see that coming, “I’m as good as everybody else, and I will do anything to make sure your secret is safe” I whispered, our eyes locked, he nodded, I hoped I had convinced him.
When we got home we meditated for a while, and then we ordered pizza from a place downtown.
The doorbell rang half an hour later, “I’ll open” Luke said, and hurried out to the door, a minute later he came inside with the pizza.
“Here you go” he said and placed my pizza in front of me, “thanks” I smiled.
“So, how are you doing? Do you feel like relapsing?” I asked, Luke shrugged “No, I mean I have my moments, but no I haven’t considered it for real, I’m honestly just thankful for the fans didn’t find out” he looked down the whole time, I nodded “that’s really good progress in just a few days”
“Thank you for not getting mad about holding your hand” he finally looked up, and took a bite of his pizza, I smiled, “it’s fine, if that makes you comfortable, just don’t do it another time, the management won’t like it” I honestly didn’t care about the management, Luke’s health comes first, but I did care about Gabe, he would get jealous which of course would be understandable, I would get jealous too, if he held hands with another girl.
Luke nodded, “of course, I hope it doesn’t get you into problems” Luke said giving me an apologetic look, I shrugged, “it’ll be fine”.
We sat and ate the rest of the pizza in silence, when I was putting the plates in the dishwasher Luke asked “so, what is our plan for tomorrow?”
“We have a lot to do, first we’re going to meditate for an hour, I also have some more exercisings we could do and we-”
“Or we could sit in our pyjamas all day, and procrastinate?” Luke asked cheekily, I laughed “as much as I do love procrastinating, I have to help you stay clean” I turned on the dishwasher, and looked at Luke “but procrastinating does help me stay clean” he said insisting, I rolled my eyes laughing.
“We could procrastinate if you tell me some things about your drug addiction, like how it started and why” Luke’s smile fainted a bit “exercises doesn't sound that bad” he said quickly and yawned, “well, look at that, I better go to sleep, goodnight” he hurried upstairs, I looked at the time, it was only 8.
I couldn’t stop wondering what had made him start his addiction, and how I could get it out of him, admitting stuff like that, could help him recover. I shook it off me, he’ll come to me when he’s ready. I walked over to the sofa to sit down, and turned on the TV, there was a marathon of ‘Friends’ I had already watched all 10 seasons a million times, but there was nothing else to do, so I decided why not?
About an hour or two later came Luke downstairs, “my story is embarrassing” he said standing next to the couch. I muted the TV, and motioned him to sit down next to me “I’ve heard it all” I said, Luke took place next to me, and started talking “okay, so through my whole childhood my parents weren’t really there, they were always so busy, so I stayed a lot at my grandmas, and recently when she died, I just couldn’t take it, she believed in me when nobody else did, and I know that it’s pathetic but-”
“-Missing a family member is not pathetic, a lot of people turn to drug because one of their loved ones passes away” I interrupted.
“Anyways” Luke said after a while “I took her death harshly, and I started using drugs, and soon I became addicted, the management found out, and well they didn’t want to send me to rehab, because the people would find out, so they hired you” I started to get furious with the management, Luke needed the right treatment, and they had completely ignored that, because of the media, but I didn’t say anything, “what made you change your mind about telling me?” I was really curious about this, because I didn’t think I would get it out of him before in a couple of days maybe weeks, “I’ve been thinking lately about what you said about me being a ‘famous dick with a drug problem’, and I decided that maybe you were right, and well the first step to recovery is talking about it, right? And I want to recover because my fans deserves better” he said giving me a half smile, I couldn’t stop smiling, “I’m so proud of you, and I was wrong about you and it was wrong of me to make those assumptions, I’m sorry”
“It’s okay, it actually helped me” he mumbled, I hugged him excitedly, it only went on for a couple of seconds, but it was quite nice.
I unmuted the television and we watched friends for a little while “I’m going to bed, it’s getting late, goodnight” I said yawned trying to keep my eyes open, “goodnight” he said looking back at me.