14. I finally have you and now I have to let you go
I was walking around school looking for Louis so I could give him a big kiss on the lips. Only I didn't see him any where. It wasn't until lunch time came that I finally found where he was hiding. I walked over to the table and sat down by him giving him a kiss on the cheek. "Hey babe." I said with a smile on my face. He smiled at me but didn't return my kiss or say anything to me. He just looked down at his food. "Is everything okay Louis?" Me and Harry asked at the same time as we both started to laugh. Louis shook his head no.
"I'm so sorry Niall." was all he said. I looked at him confused. "Sorry? For what Louis you didn't do anything wrong." I said with a cheery smile on my face still. Then Louis got up from the table taking my hand in his he took me to the far side of the caf. I looked at him still confused. "Louis what's going on?" I asked as he looked at me with tears in his eyes. "Is everything okay? Louis please talk to me! Your scaring me..." Louis shook his head over and over again before he fell on the floor in tears. I knelt down beside him ignoring the pain I was feeling in my knees and pulled him into a tight hug. "What's going on Louis?" I heard him whisper to me. "I don't want to do this to you Niall. I really don't...I love you Niall I really do." I looked at him still not understanding what was happing. "What don't you want to do Louis?"
This was the moment I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces. "NIALL I WANT TO BRAKE UP WITH YOU!!! I HATE YOU AND NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!!!!" Louis screamed at me as he left me alone heart broken and ran away form me with tears in his eyes. I got up slowly still in shock and walked back tot he table. Harry and Zayn where staring at me as I sat down. "He told you the news didn't he?" Zayn asked me. I shook my head slowly as the tears started to come spilling out all at ounce. Harry came running around the table and sat down beside me pulling me into a tight hug well I cried onto his shirt. "What did I do wrong Louis? Why do you hate me?" Was all I whispered to my self over and over again I didn't know what else to ask my self.
After saying all of those hurt full things to Niall I felt my self fall apart. I just couldn't say good bye to him not yet. I ran out with tears in my eyes after seeing how heart broken he looked. I ran all the way into the bathroom and just sat their for the rest of school and cried my eyes out. I felt so alone right now. All I wanted was for Niall to pull me into a hug and kiss me telling me that we would make it through this together. Just like he always did he had this power to just make my pain go away. Only now it was over I hurt him and he would never forgive me let alone take me back...."Its all over now Louis." I had to tell my self to keep me from running after him.