34. two weeks
I run up the stairs almost knocking a nurse down. "Sorry." I mutter under my breath. I get to the floor and run to the nurses station. "Michael Clifford." The nurse starts to type things into the computer. "I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry." I turn to see Ari sitting in Michaels room. I ignore what the nurse is saying and walk over to her. "Ari? Whats going on?" She explains everything that happened. "Its all my fault Luke.. Its all my fucking fault." I shake my head. "No Its not. Don't say that." She looks into my eyes. "It is Luke.. I called him... When they had me.... I told him not to come after me... I knew he would.. They said they were going to be the shit out of me and leave me somewhere and then get him because they knew he'd come after me.. and thats when they were going to get him... So I-I thought he would come and I would b-be gone."
"I thought he would come and I would be gone." My anger fuels. I burst into the room. "HOW FUCKING STUPID ARE YOU!" She looks up at me. "YOU FUCKING KNOW THAT HE WOULD HAVE CAME AND YOU PUT HIM IN DANGER! IT IS YOUR FAULT! WHEN MICHAEL GETS OUT NO IF MICHAEL GETS OUT YOU'RE DONE YOU WILL NOT SEE HIM!" She stares at me with hurt. "I know Ashy.. Thats what I've been trying to tell you.. Can't you fucking see I know its MY fault. It's killing me obviously. I'm going to go." I turn and let her go feeling a lot of guilt from screaming at her. Luke gets up and walks out. "You didn't have to be such a shit.. She was getting hurt if you didn't hear all of it. Its not all her fault she didn't know he'd get shot." I loo away from him "Yeah Luke you didn't have to be such a shit and kiss her. You also didn't have to be such a shit and fuck that girl. You also didn't have to be duch a shit and kiss her before she left. Yeah I know about that." He shakes his head at me. "You just can't stop can you? I'll let it slide since you're in fucking shock or something. Bye Ashton."
"I heard everything." Ari turns to me. "Are you going to scream at me too?" I shake my head. "No, I'm not mad at you. I'm disappointed.." She nods. "Yeah.. I'm stupid." I facepalm. "No Ariel. I'm fucking disappointed because you think Ashton meant that. I'm disappointed because you're just going to leave. You're just giving up. This isn't your fault not matter how much you think it is. You might've gave called Michael but that doesn't mean you dragged him there. It doesn't mean you told him where you were.. Ariel its not your fault." She hugs me. "Where has this cal been hiding?" I pull away and smile. "I've been here this whole time." I kiss the top if her head. "And I'll be here for a while." I hold her tighter. She sobs into my chest. "Okay, wipe your tears beautiful. I want to see you here I want to see you in that room with Michael with that beautiful smile on your face holding his hand. We need hope now. We can't have doubt. He will make it."
After my talk with Cal I decided not to leave the hospital. I stayed in the downstairs waiting room hoping not to see Ash. As I'm sitting I see Brad walking with some guy and Ash. Ash looks pissed off. I decide to go spy. When I walk out the doors I can hear Ash yelling "How fucking dare you! HOW DARE YOU! You threaten our career when he has been shot! THIS IS FUCKING BULL SHIT!" My eyes widen hems threatening their career? "As your manager I have to keep your CAREER going. You have to go on tour still you can't cancel shows again. You have two weeks or your off." The man gets in a car and drives off. Ash picks up a bottle and throws it at the car. He breaks down. I can't help but run up to him. I wrap my arms around him. "Oh Ashy.." He doesn't respond but I don't let go. "I'm so sorry..." He doesn't hug me still but I don't care. I can feel him calming down I go to pull away but he grabs me. "Its not fair... I don't want to go on tour if Michaels not there.." I rub his back. "I know Ashy.. I know."