I giggle at ash's text. This is the first time I have smiled since I kicked Michael out its been two days.. They've tried to contact me but I ignore. I talked to Cal for a little but he just tried to get me to talk to Michael or Luke.. So now its just Ashy. I have no where to go. I have no where to stay. I have no one. Luckily I'm in the hospital now because I don't know what to do... I don't know where to go.. I haven't been on twitter because I get so much hate.. I stole a blade from one of the nurses well it's more like some weird type of nurse knife.. I've been thinking about it.. I'm aching for the pain to go away. All I want is for this to end. As I get to my bathroom I shut the door sitting on the floor. I sigh out then start to bring the blade to my wrist. "Ariel?" I stop the blade just touching my skin about to come across. It's Michael I start to cry I don't even realize I have finished the cut and I'm bleeding bad this time. Worse then it has ever before. "Ariel??" He knocks on the bathroom I don't say anything. Feeling my eyes close finally the pain is going away. The door shoots open and Michael stares at me. "ARIEL!" he runs up to me grabbing my arm. "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!" I start to cry harder. He picks me up. "Ariel how could you?" I look into his eyes "I-I just wanted the pain away." Then I'm out.
When I wake again my arm is bandaged up and somebodys arms are wrapped around me. I start to shake. The person pulls me closer. "Sh Ariel. It's okay." Its Michael... I feel my eyes start to close again then I think. Michael. Ari Its Michael. I jerk away. "I-I.. You shouldn't have c-came." He tries to put his hand on my cheek but i flinch. "A-are you scared of me?" I don't answer. To be honest.. I am kinda scared after his last outburst. "I'm sorry Ariel I-I swear if I wouldn't have came you might've he closes his eyes trying to stop the tears brimming in his eyes. "M-Michael I told you n-not to c-come back..." I look away. Fuck my stuttering.. Why am I so scared?
Shes scared of me... I ruined everything. My Ariel is scared of me. "I just... You were so happy a while ago... You told me you were glad I was here." She looks at me shocked. "I-I did not.. I told you not to come back why would I-I tell y-you t-that?.." I stare at her then nod. "The nurse said you might not remember.. I-I'll just go." I get up and start to walk. As I walk my emotions are mixed. I'm either ready to punch a whole in the wall, cry or just run. Runnaway from it all.. I know thats not an option though. I can't run.. I turn around and look back at her she quickly looks away I see tears rolling down her face. Why does she keep crying over me.. I nod again then leave.
"Michael listen I'm sorry. I'm stupid I know. Please forgive me. I'm so sorry I promise she's all yours I'll help you just please don't let this ruin our relationship." I say it to the wall practicing for the 42nd time. (Yes I've been counting.) I start to say it again when someone comes in. "Luke." Its Michael. I turn towards him. He has tears in his eyes. "Michael what happened?" He shakes his head at me. "I'm sorry.. She hates me. Of course I'll be your friend.. Always. There's no point now. I-I ruined everything.. She's scared of me.. Luke she flinched away from my touch.." He starts to cry harder. I go up to him and pat him on the back. "You'll get her back Mike. I promise I'll do everything in my power to help you get her back. You will get her." He sobs and I wrap my arm around him. "Its going to be okay. Don't worry."
*AUTHORS NOTE* THIS IS THE FOURTH TIME WRITING AN AUTHORS NOTE -.- it always deletes my authors notes urg. SO HIII. I'm going to fail my band exam because she hasn't even gave us the study guide and the exams tomorrow-.- OH WHALEZIES. I posted this video of me singing on youtube and it says I have 86 views then 11 views.. Wtf? Idek Music is my passion and just ugh it took me forever just to work up the nerve to post it even though you can't see me.. It's just like bleehh I'm so scared like >.< meh. Idk. OKAY OFF THAT.. I hope you guys liked the update or hate it idk. Byeee c: