That Saturday, I check my phone when I get home from the meal out with my friends. I have a text from Alex, which I kind of expected.
Did you have a nice time with your friends? :)
Yeah, it was fun thanks
I feel kind of bad now. Maybe I'm starting to be a bit mean. He can't have realised that what he was doing was so wrong or he wouldn't have done it. He's honestly not the kind of person to hurt me if he knows what he's doing. Maybe I was just upset and disappointed that he wasn't interested in me.
He sends back:
Can you hang out tomorrow night?
Yeah, sure :)
Great :) I'll pick you up at four tomorrow afternoon.
When I climb into his car the next day, I'm not angry anymore. I figure the blame is on me and I shouldn't have made such a big deal out of it. Plus, it's good to seem him and not be mad at him. He's just so likable, it's been kind of difficult to not just laugh and joke with him like usual.
"Hey!" he says, grinning. "I'm glad you could come today."
"I'm glad I could come today as well." I smile back at him.
"You've seemed sort of down recently." he says as he starts driving. "Like, pissed off with me."
"It wasn't you." I lie. "I was just kind of stressed and sad, I guess I was taking it out on you which wasn't very fair so I'm sorry."
"It's okay, don't worry about it. So I have something amazing planned." he says excitedly. "I planned it initially because I thought you were angry with me for something so I planned this to make it up to you but this can just be to make you feel better instead."
I smile, curiously. "What is it?"
He refuses to tell me the entire ride to wherever we're going. We end up at the movies which doesn't seem like that much of a big deal but then it turns out he's payed to book the entire theater to ourselves. It's completely ours. We go and find our seat and I grin at him.
"This is crazy. You are insane. I wasn't that upset." I say, laughing.
"You totally needed cheering up, don't lie." he smiles, nudging me.
"What are we watching?" I ask.
"Well, I felt bad that you left the Twilight marathon just because I wasn't enjoying it so we are watching the last three movies." he announces, pretty proud of himself. I can't get over how nice of him this is.
"You didn't have to." I frown-smile. "You're gonna hate this."
"I'm going to try and enjoy it." he says as Eclipse starts playing and looking at everything he's done today, all the effort and thought that went into this, I can't even imagine being angry at him. I know it's not just me, I've heard of him doing stuff like this for girlfriends he's had before and he does stuff like this for his friends to, but the fact that I'm a part of that is so nice to know.
When all of the movies end, I am sobbing.
He smirks. "Seriously? You're crying. You're crying right now."
"I can't believe it ended." I sob. "I can't. I just can't."
"Ew, stop crying." he groans. "I can't handle it when people cry, stop. What are you even crying about?"
"It ended!" I exclaim. "And Jacob finally moved on and they're all happy and I'm just really emotional right now."
"I can see that!" he chuckles, wiping his thumb under my eye. "You have mascara everywhere."
I laugh, hiccuping and that makes us both laugh more. And he looks at me, his eyes crinkling at the side and a happy little smile on his face and for a moment, I think he's going to kiss me again. And I think I'm going to let him. I move my head away just in case he was going to. And then he leans in a bit closer and I know that he's going to kiss me. I also know that I'm not going to let him.
"Alex." I say, turning my face away.
"Sorry." he says, lightheartedly. "Shall we go?"
"Yeah." I say and that's the end of that conversation. We order pizza and work on our duet and everything is just completely normal. I feel kind of on edge though. Is he going to try that again? I can't stand the thought of constantly wondering. I just try to ignore it and hope that everything goes back to normal properly.