My first week actually wasn't as bad as I expected. I have the most amazing roommate, Amanda, god bless her. Lucky for me she is a deep sleeper so when I wake up from my nightmares screaming I don't wake her up and she is really sweet and isn't weirded out about how many pills I have to take because of my stomach. Amanda and I had a lot in common, both being intelligent, used to dance, played a lot of sports, and just had our hearts broken. I found myself completely opening up to Amanda after she comforted me when she found me crying while I was listening to the 5sos album. I told her everything from Luke to Tyler and she opened up and told me about her break up with her boyfriend Dave after he found out she was date raped at a party. We both had these haunting pasts which in the end brought us closer.
I had decided that I wasn't going to plan on getting back together with Luke. I had my closer when we talked and I felt like it was time to let him go. I wasn't really planning on dating anyone anytime soon as I wanted to just focus on school and clearing my mind. Jake thought I was nuts for not at least talking to him but he said it was my life my decision. I felt myself getting closer to Jake as well as if he was like my older brother. He reminded me of Alex in so many ways like telling me exactly what he thinks and not babying me but also looking for the best for me and I did appreciate it a lot.
It had been a week and classes were starting soon but it was time for me to fly to my birth place in Michigan to attend my wonderful grandparents ball. I defiantly was not excited for that. I arrived at the airport to see my parents with open arms out as they hugged me real tight. They acted as if they hadn't seen me in years as they questioned me about everything have you been taking your pills, are you making friends, have you gotten lost, ect. My brothers went on and on about everything I missed in Australia in a week.
It was weird driving around my home town. Although I was here every year things just always seemed to change. We arrived at an apartment we were renting for the weekend as we unpacked our stuff to be ready for tomorrow.
The next day we woke up bright and early as my mom and I spent the day painting our nails, doing, our hair and makeup and finally putting on our dresses. I had gone for a tight black dress that was floor length and lacy. It was classy and stylish and a dress my grandparents were going to hate. Wearing something as sexy as this dress was not really allowed in their book and what was going to piss them off more was the fact that I wasn't bringing a date. I looked in the mirror. I did a good job covering up my black eye and luckily the scars on my arms were starting to heal up and my dress covered the ones on my leg. I had to say I looked really good as I spun around in my tight dress. As we left I got the nervous look from my dad like, are you really trying to get me dead and the you look beautiful look from my mom.
We arrived at my grandparents very large home and when they saw me their eyes widened as they gave me the look if disapproval. Nothing was better though when they asked where my date was and I said that I didn't have one. I honestly stopped caring what my grandparents thought about me because I knew nothing I could have done would please them. I was proud when my dad stuck up for me when they started to put me down for arriving solo.
As my brothers attacked the appetizer table and my parents caught up with some old friends I stood alone watching as old couples danced on the dance floor. "Well hello there." I heard a familiar voice say behind me. I turned around to see him. What was he going here?
"Luke what are you doing here?!" I said completely confused. "I know some people who got me an invite. I had to talk to somehow I told you I wasn't going to let you go." He said steeping closer to me as I took a step back. "Luke were done I said that. You broke up with me and I'm ok with that." "I know and I was so stupid. I want a start over Vanessa." "Well I don't. Luke you should just go." I said turning around swiftly and running to the girls bathroom. I could believe it why was he here? How did he even get an invite? I sat in the bathroom for about 20 minutes when I heard the dj announce my grandparents on stage. I knew I had to he there when they did there speech as they always point out their wonderful and beautiful family to everyone. I peaked my head out the bathroom door and saw no Luke in sight. Maybe he had actually left.
My grandparents speech went on and on as I spent the time searching around the room for a tall blonde boy in an all black suit. It looks like I was in the clear. "Alright well were going to do our famous slow dance so please grab your partner and head for the dance floor." My grandma said. I stood there awkwardly as all the couples headed for the dance floor. "Can I have this dance?" I heard a voice whisper behind me. I turned around to be face to face with Luke. This was the first time I had seen his piercing blue eyes up close in a while and I noticed he didn't have his lip piercing in. I just stood their frozen. "Hi I'm Luke." He put his hand out to shake mine. "And you are?" He said waiting for me to response. "Were not going to dance." I rejected his offer and suddenly the song Tenerife sea by Ed Sheeran started to play. "Oh come on Vanessa I know you can't say no to Ed sheeran especially this song." Luke nagged me. I seriously hated how much he knew about me. "Fine one dance." I said. A huge smile got on his face as he grabbed my hand and pulled me to the dance floor.
He held me right in his arms as we began to move to the music. He began to sing the words in my ear as we movies step by step to the music, "you look so wonderful in your dress, I love your hair like that the way it falls down the side of your neck down your shoulders and back..." He continued to sing to me as the chorus came and he began to spin me around causing a large smile to come on my face and to giggle uncontrollably. When the second verse came I caught myself singing along to the line "the way brings out the blue in your eyes like the Tenerife sea." Which was followed by more spinning and more fancy dance moves Luke was trying to pull off. When the lumina part came on he held me tight in his arms as he looked me in the eyes and sang the rest of the song and in the end "and in that moment I knew you best." He leaned down and kissed me. I didn't fight it as I felt the love and passion I had once felt a while ago in that kiss. The love we both shared and felt so strongly about that had been ruined and tried to grow again but I had shot down. I broke away and looked at him with tears in my eyes, "I-I can't." I said turning around and running away.
I could hear his footsteps behind me as he called my name. "Luke please," I said turning around out of breathe tears running down my face. "Vanessa please can we just talk." "No Luke. I can't I can't go back." He walked closer to me as I took steps back. "I can't because I still love you." I said walking up to him grabbing his head and pulling him in for another kiss. My emotions were running wild as I felt pain, happiness, anger, joy, hurt, and above all love. I couldn't help my feelings for Luke he knew my too well as he pulled my waist closer to him. As we pulled away he wiped the tears away from my eyes. "Let's get away from here." He said to me. I just looked him in the eyes as we left my grandparents home.