I feel so bad I let my jealousy get the best of me and I hurt July.Even worst Ashton hates me, I would to."Hey, are you ok?" Beau asked. "I'm fine"I said lying. Truth is I'm not fine, my life is screwed up.
As soon as we got home I got questions thrown at me like "why did you say that" and "how could you." "SHUT UP, I DIDNT KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING!" I said angry. Just as I said that Ashton came through the door and behind him July came in. I thought she was going home but I guess not I need to talk to her.
"Hey July go up to my room I'll be right there"Ashton said. She nodded and went to his room. Right when the door closed Ashton started yelling at me "HOW COULD YOU EVER SAY THAT, WHAT GOT INTO YOU TO SAY THAT THE LUNA I KNEW WHEN SHE WAS 13 WOULD NEVER SAY THAT!!"
"I KNOW WHAT I SAID WAS WRONG BUT IT WAS OUT OF JEALOUSY SHE JUST SO PRETTY AND SHE HAS EVERYTHING I DONT LIKE LOOKS..." I was thinking of saying she also has you! "BUT NOTHING STAYS THE SAME AND NO ONE STAYS THE SAME AFTER LEAVING AND I GROWN UP!" I said with tears streaming down my face.
Everyone in the room was shocked and surprised that we were yelling at each other. Michael understood what I was trying to say but I didn't. After that Liam broke us up and told me to go to my room and he was going to talk to Ashton. I nodded and headed upstairs but instead of going to my room I went to Ashton's room to talk to July. "Hey" I said quietly
"Hey, why are you here?" She asked confused. "I thought I owe you an explanation on why I said that. I guess I was just jealous of you cause your so pretty and perfect that I got angry. I understand if you can't forgive me" I said shamefully. Just as I said that Ashton comes in "Why are you in here!" He said yelling, Gosh I guess he's really mad and he really likes her.
When I thought of that my heart was torn in two. "No it's ok Ash she just came into apologize to me and I accepted it. But, I don't get it Luna how could you think of me like that when you are way better!"She said confused. "Cause what I said is true you are so gorgeous any boy wants you!"I said truthfully. "But,any boy would want you too." July said. I thought the boy I want doesn't want me.Cause he's dating you.
Hey this is caitlin. Sorry if there are any mistakes cause I wrote this on my iPod. Hope you liked it! Love ya! I got the "Nothing stays the same" and "torn in two" from 5sos songs.