8. My feelings
I didn't know how much time passed by like that. I lost track of time after my 1 hour long playlist repeated the 3rd time. I turned off the music and sat up. I looked out the window. The sun was setting.
I unlocked the door and slowly opened it. Outside the door, sleeping on the floor, was Toby laying. I bowed down to him. He looked like he had been crying. I lifted his head, and putted my forehead agains his. Toby.... Always being there for me, and never wanting anything in return. I carried his body onto my bed. I layed my blanket over him and layed myself next to him.
I layed for a long time just starring at his sleeping face. I smiled to myself. "You never grow up, do you? Always having that angelic and innocent face." I stroke his hair gently. His innocent face made me smile again. I putted my forehead against his again. Our noses touched eachother. I felt his breath on my lips. I closed my eyes and just layed there, listening to his calm breath.
In the end I must have fallen asleep, cause when I opened my eyes again, it was night. I my sleep I had pressed myself towards him, to catch his warmth. I was laying there hugging him thightly. His closed eyes were right in front of me. I could count every eyelash. So handsome.... I was slightly blushing. I petted his cheek. He suddently moved. He grabbed my hand, and pulled me closer. His eyes were open, and looked at me in such a serious way. There seemed to be something wrong with him. It was like he moved, but didn't sence anything. His eyes became blank, and he fainted.
I was so scared, that it would happen again. I hugged him thightly. Toby.... Please don't do something like that. I closed my eyes, and hugged his head against my chest. "I was really scared to come back. I knew that if I met you again, I would fall in love. You never changed, so it's obvious that this will always be the same too. But in the end, I guess I did fall in love with you...... I'm a coward for telling you this when you sleep. But I'm afraid to ruin what we have." I gently kissed his hair, then I closed my eyes again.