12: Will there be an us?
Hi guys, this is the last chapter of this book, enjoy xx
It’s been a month since the horrible incident at the party. The guys have really been there for me. I was starting to get stronger feelings towards Ashton, but since that night where he practically declared his love we haven’t actually mentioned it.
We have been acting like it never happened and continued acting like best friends even though we both in secret have feelings for each other. Should I be the one saying something, or should I wait for him to make the move?
“Hey Lucky Luke, whatcha doing?” I came across Luke who was in a serious mode of texting. “I'm just texting my girl here” he had a wide grin spread on his face. Aww it was so cute, every time he received a text he started blushing.
“Aww, Lukey is in looove!!” I cooed beside him. My head was right next to his and I tried to peak at what they were texting about, hut I didn't manage to read anything because Luke quickly shoved my face in the other direction and laughed softly before heading towards his own room.
I was sat alone in the living room, Michael and Calum had gone out, Ashton and Luke were both in their rooms. I looked through my phone to see if something interesting was going on.
My phone made a noise and a text from Evie appeared on the screen. 'Hey babes, are you free today?xxx'
I replied the text happily 'Yes babes, I'm free xx' not even a minute after, she replied. 'Cool I'll come by and pick you up now x'. I finally had something to do now. I knocked on Ashton's door. "Ash?".
The door opened slowly. Ashton golden hair was ruffled up slightly, he wore a tank top and a pair of knee shorts. My knees slowly turned to jelly at the sight. I cannot believe I didn't see it before, but Ash was just gorgeous, those feeling I had were intensified by a million.
"Yes, Gems?" He smiled sweetly removing a strand of hair from his forehead. "Uhm.. I-I.." I had completely forgotten what I came to tell him. "I'm going out with Evie now, so I'll see you later".
He nodded "Okay, be careful.. And have fun".
"Thanks Ash!" I gave him a hug before heading towards the entrance where my sandals were standing.
"Gems?" Ash stopped me halfway "When you come back, can we talk?".
"Sure, see you Ash".
Did he want to talk about what I thought he would talk about? Was it finally going to happen? With hopes high, I danced outside finding Evie in her car waiting.
"Hi Eves!" I said as I opened the car door giving her a hug. "Hi babes!" She screeched happily hugging me back.
She pulled away from the house and onto the road. "So what are we doing?" I asked, curious to know what she wanted.
She gave me a side glance with a teasing smirk."I just we went on a road trip.. You know just driving around, listen to music and talk. I hope that's okay with you?"
That sounded really nice, Dani and I used to do that sometimes.
"Sounds great! Thanks Evie" I was to have found a friend that was so similar to Dani, it was like I never really lost her. She would always be right by my side, forever.
"Let's put on some music!" Evie turns on the radio with her iPod plugged in. Sparks by Hilary Duff comes on. We started rocking out, singing along. "You make my heart go.."
Evie can be really goofy when she wants to be, even though she won't admit it. In the past month, Evie, Holly, Carey and I had been doing everything together. I hadn't spent much time with the boys, but it seemed like they were doing their own thing.
We had gone clubbing, shopping, surfing (although no one actually knew how). I was having fun with the girls, but today it was just Evie and I. To think I could ever be friends with her was dying my imagination and yet here I was rocking out with her in the car.
I was starting to come more out of my shell and stand on my own without Dani. Since she wasn't here anymore I had to be brave and strong. I am now.
"So.. What's going on with you and Ash?" Evie asked sudden, I turned my attention towards her "Nothing really.. But.. He did say he wanted to talk to me later today, maybe that's a sign".
Evie smiled big "Gemma! That's a huge sign, I'm pretty sure he's going to confess his feelings!"
"I hope so.." I trailed off, looking out the window, the road forming ahead of us.
"Don't be sad.. I have a feeling, trust me" Evie shoved me lightly giving out a lighthearted laugh that had me laughing as well.
Soon it was dark, we were still on the road. "Maybe we should head home now, I promised Jonah I would come over tonight" Evie said, eyes on the road.
"Cool, thanks Evie, I've really enjoyed myself" I picked back some hair while looking at Evie, she genuinely smiled at me "No prob babes, I had a wonderful time with you. We should that again sometime". I nodded in agreement.
We arrived at the boys' house. "Thanks Eves! Text you later" I hugged her before jumping out of the car. "See you honey! I'm crossing my fingers! Good luck with Ash" Evie yelled out of the car before I slammed the door shut and she drove off.
I opened the house door. "Hello everyone!"
The boys appeared one by one. "You're back!" Calum smiled greeting me with a hug. "Are you making dinner?" Like asked patting me on the back. I nodded helplessly "Of course".
My eyes met Ashton's. Suddenly my heart fluttered and my cheek felt warm. I noticed Ashton blushing as well. "Gems, can we talk now?" Ashton nervously tucked down his shirt. I nodded and followed him into his room.
We both sat down on his bed after closing the door. We silently stared at each other until Ashton opened his mouth to speak. "Gemma, you know the day we came home from that party, I sort of told you something but you were asleep.. So now I want to tell you.."
"Ash.. I know.." I cut Ashton off, his eyes turned into a puzzled look. "What? You know.. What?"
I chuckled softly cocking my head to the side. "I heard everything, I wasn't sleeping, you just thought I was.. I haven't said anything because I didn't know what to do.."
Ashton stared at me with a blank expression. "You knew and you didn't say anything? Do you know how sad I was because I thought you didn't hear it.. Why?"
Wow, that wasn't exactly the reaction I was hoping for.
"Ash.. Don't be mad, you kept quiet too, why didn't you just tell me again? Besides, the only reason I didn't say anything was because I didn't know what to do. I had no idea what to say and if I really felt the same, don't let this silly thing be what's gonna tear us apart.." I watched Ashton as his face changed into sadness.
"I'm sorry.. You're right. I guess I was kind of relieved that you were sleeping when I said it, well I thought you were sleeping. But I've been thinking a lot about it, I was just scared.. scared of being rejected.." His face loosened, his hands started ruffling around in his hair.
"What exactly are you feeling?" He asked.
I scooted a bit closer to him "Ashton. Being around you always makes me happy, even now when you're near me my heart is beating faster. To be honest.. I love you Ash.."
Ashton's face turned red, then a big grin appeared on his lips. "Really? I was so afraid you wouldn't feel the same.. Because you know.. Jonathan.." He cleared his throat as he looked at me with kind eyes.
"I know.. But I do. I love you Ashton, a lot" I moved even closer to him.
His face came closer to mine. I could feel his warm breath against my skin. "Gemma, I love you a lot too.." He moved in closer, our lips brushed against each other before they intertwined in a kiss.
My heart beat so fast it felt like it was about to beat out of my chest. I felt my cheeks burn and I almost went all lightheaded.
Ashton's soft lips caressed mine gently. It wasn't too much or too less, it was perfect. I was happier than I had been in a long time.
"Will there be an us?" Ashton whispered softly as we pulled back. I was all out of breath but managed to put a sentence or a few words together "Yes Ashton, I would like that a lot".
"I love you".
Sorry it took so long to update, hope you liked the last chapter x