*Author's note: There is a bit of a twist in this chapter. Bear with me. I hope you enjoy it!*
Niall kept beating on the door, he knew what he did. He knew he messed up. I wanted so bad to cave in and let him in, but I didn't. I sat on the corner of my room in a ball, crying my eyes out. I shouldn't be mad at Niall, I know he's bad news, I have always known that. But did he have to do that here, in our apartment. I knew we would be going out separate ways soon, but then again we always talk about getting another apartment together.
"Adri, open up. Atleast let me explain." Niall was almost whispering. He was choking back the tears, I could hear it in his voice. But I couldn't give in. I had to be strong. "You have to open up sometime and I'm not leaving until you do."
I sighed, standing up. I looked at myself in my mirror. Eyes swollen, cheeks puffy, tears staining them. I wasn't mad at Niall, I wasn't mad at all. I was scared. I was terrified. I was scared for him. He's my bestfriend or whatever we are now. I didn't want him to get hurt. I slowly walked to the door, unlocking and took a step back. I waited for a moment, then I seen the door know turn and in came Niall, closing the door behind him. We stood there, neither of us saying a word. Just staring at each other, I looked down and sighed. I couldn't stand this, it's like we were fighting. I hated it. He walked over to me and gave me a long hug, I didn't hug back because I had to stand my ground. It was wrong what he did and he had to know that.
"Adri, baby. Please look at me." I looked up and seen his tear stained face. He had been crying, I've never actually seen him cry before, only one time. When his closest cousin, about all his family he talked to, overdosed and almost died. But Niall was crying over me. I couldn't help but feel a little happiness come over me, knowing I had this effect on him.
"Why did you lock yourself in your room, why didn't you just talk to me?"
"Niall, I couldn't. You did a drug deal in our living room, something you never do around me. You did it in our house. You know I would do anything for you, I smoke, I drink, but I would never ever do a drug deal for you nor would I want to be around one. We agreed to that, you broke our agreement." He knew I was right, he just looked down, sadness clearly showing. :"Look, I hate arguing. I hate not talking to you, but what you did was clearly a dick move. You thought about yourself. You acted shady. Why couldn't you of just went outside? Why? WHY?" I was clearly yelling. He had nothing to say because he knew he messed up big time. "You know what? Since you can't talk, I just won't stay here."
"What? You're being so stubborn right now. Every time something goes wrong, you run."
"So, better than being a fucking drug dealer!"
"Fine, leave." With that said, he just walked out of my room. We have never had a big fight like this and honestly I didn't know who to call. All my friends were too good for me since I hangout with Niall all the time and are in bed, I just sat on my bed with my head in my hands. I wanted to cry, but Niall shouldn't make me cry. He's usually comforting me. My phone started buzzing like crazy, someone was calling me. I looked at the name and smiled.
'Hey Adri, how was your date? I know it's late.' It was Harry.
'Harry, come over I need someone to talk to.'
After that was said, I just hung up so he couldn't disagree. I walked down the hall and into the kitchen, I ran into Niall on the way, he still looked upset. I tried to stand my ground and not look at him, but of course he had to talk to me.
"So, who did you invite over?"
"What are you talking about?" I questioned him. Did he listen to me on the phone?
"Someone just pulled up and I thought since you were upset you invited Maddie over." He was cut off by the door opening and in popped Harry and Liam. "No, you just invited over Harry. Have fun." Niall got up and walked into the living room. I just sighed, I'm over his attitude. I'm the one who should be mad, and it's not JUST Harry.
"And Liam, asshole!" I yelled to him. He came running back in, clearly pissed off.
"What did you just call me?"
"ASSHOLE. Do I need to spell it out for you?" Yes, I was being a bitch to him, but didn't I have a right to be?
"Listen here, Adri. I MESSED UP. What else do you want me to do, kiss you ass?" I scoffed at him, he is being such a child right now.
"Done did, but hey I could go for a make up fuck right about now." He laughed. I slapped him right across his face and walked off. I couldn't take it no more. I punched a hole right through the living room wall and just fell to the floor crying. I'm strong, most days. But Niall, he drives me insane and he has never done that before. We never fight, so why are we fighting now. Why can't I just forgive him and this be over with. Why are my hormones fucking with me right now. I decided to go back into the kitchen. I had blood all over my hand where I had hurt it pretty bad.
"What the fuck did you do?" Harry asked. I smiled at Niall, this should make him feel shitty.
"Thanks to Niall, I punched a wall. I collapsed crying, not from pain from my hand, from him. I don't know what's wrong with me but Niall, I cannot take this anymore." I walked straight up to his, looking him in the eyes. "Maybe I love you, I don't know!" I was yelling and rambling and I couldn't help it. "No, I know I love you. I have for a while now. I wouldn't admit it to myself. But-" Just then I felt a pair of lips on mine, I pulled away and looked at Niall.
"Shut the fuck up and kiss me." He kissed me again, "I love you too."
"Damn guys, you two are so in love, it may be a weird relationship but stop the bickering! Please. Zayn and Louis are on their way. They got some vodka and some weed. You guys just go do whatever." Harry was so over us fighting, I could tell. "Adri, stop bitching." He started laughing. I felt like an idiot.
Niall brought me to the living room and he told me that we needed to talk. I agreed and followed him. I knew I looked like a mess but he still confessed his love for me. Something Niall Horan does not do.
"Look, we need to communicate. We're both hard headed, stubborn, and we both have our anger issues. But please, we cannot fight, I can't take it."
"I know, Niall. It hurt me to ignore you, but you had to see that you hurt me and drug deals can be dealt with somewhere besides here." He nodded in agreement and kissed me.
He took my hand and we met everyone in the kitchen. Zayn and Louis had just gotten there with everything and even though it was about 1 am in the morning, we were about to party hard. I loved to party and with Niall and I about to get our jobs, we had to party all we could.
"Okay bros." I was on my sixth shot of vodka, and smoke a whole blunt on my own. "I need a good fuck." Everyone started laughing. "Niall, you gotta give me a good fuck or I may just had to please myself. Think of it as our make up fuck." I was slurring my word, Niall patted Niall on the back and we headed back to Niall's room and did he sure show me how a good make up fuck was. It was the best sex of my life.
It has been about 3 months since that party, Niall and I bought a new place. We live right next to Harry. Niall started his job at the bank about two months ago and I start my new job soon. Niall and I have officially became a couple, it's even internet official and we are happier than ever. But we have hit a bump in the road, not a bump to us breaking up. But a bump that pushed him to get a job sooner than later like he had planned. I'm pregnant. Something that we knew would happen one day, but I skipped just one day of my birth control and well.. That night Niall decided he wanted to be horny.
"Adri, you home?" It was Harry. He knew I couldn't drink, I don't know about smoking weed. but I still took a hit every now and then. Niall still does his casual drinking, he doesn't get drunk. But he still smokes every day, does his drug deals, and is still the bad boy I fell in love with.
"How's baby Horan doing?" Harry was excited, Niall was surprised, but he knew it was just much his fault. He is the one who never wears a condom anyway.
"Great. I think, I have my doctor's appointment today. Niall should be home soon, then we are heading out." Harry smiled at me. We have became super close, and he is always over here when Niall is at work because Niall doesn't want me home alone. He thinks something could happen to me or the baby.
"I think Niall just pulled up, you got everything?"
"Yeah, let's just meet him outside." He opened the door for me and followed me to the car. Harry decided to go with us because he wanted to see the baby. He done called dibs on being the god father. He is here more than any of the other boys.
"Hey baby." Niall said as I climbed into the car, he kissed my hand and we headed out. The car ride there was short. I told Niall about how I felt weird all day. He got worried. Earlier in the day I seen patches of blood but they said that was to be expected. I just felt weird. "Have you bled anymore?"
"You were bleeding?" Harry had over heard us. I tried to keep it to myself because I didn't want anyone worrying.
"Yes, but the doctor said that was to be expected. It wasn't alot anyway!"
We pulled into the parking lot and Niall let me out at the door, then he went and found a parking spot. I walked in and signed in, sat down and waited for the doctor to call me back. Harry and Niall finally came in after about fifteen minutes and said the parking lot was packed. We waited another fifteen minutes, they finally called me back. We all three stood up and followed the nurse.
"I called earlier, the doctor told me to just come in." The nurse smiled.
"She should be with you here shortly." I was a nervous wreck, I didn't want anything to be wrong with baby Horan, especially since I have never been so excited for an unplanned pregnancy in my life. Niall squeezed my hand and I gave him a small smile. Harry was standing in the corner of the room, he looked a little worried for us.
"Hello Dr. Adams, is everything alright?" Niall was super worried since I had called him at work.
"Adriana, lay up here and lift up your shirt. Let's take a look at you." I layed back on the table and she squeezed the goo on my belly and looked at everything. As she was checking for the heartbeat, we didn't hear anything. I looked at Niall and he gently squeezed my hand.
"Well, why can't you find the heartbeat?" Niall was getting impatient.
"Adriana, I'm so sorry." She started wiping the goo off. "Your baby stopped developing about a week ago. Your bleeding is because you have miscarried." She kept talking but I felt as if my whole world has shattered around me.
Niall hugged me hard and all I could do was cry. Harry stood there, his face dropped. He was so excited. I couldn't understand what happened, what did I do wrong?
"Niall, what did I do wrong?" He was crying, he couldn't understand either.
"Nothing baby, let's just go." He never let go of me, we left the doctor's office. Both of us crying. We were hoping to hear good news, maybe even the sex of the baby. But we left and had to schedule a surgery to have our baby removed from my belly. My world came crashing down.
"Niall. I need something." He just shook his head, because he knew what I needed.