It's been... three weeks now and everyday it seems to somehow get harder. At dinner there is an awkward conversation between dad and I.
"So...um...hows...uh how's dinner?"
"It's good" let the awkward silence begin...
"An-and um ho-how's school going? Are they still being nice?"
"Yep" it begins... again
~~end of flashback~~
Have you ever felt like your stuck in the day and it just drags on while everyone else is on a complete different day and when you sleep it's only for five minutes like you took a nap and the day didn't change at all? Well thats how I feel almost everyday since my mom died.
I honestly don't know how else to explain it. It's actually quite complicated but it is what it is. I wish my mom wouldn't have died and i wish she didn't have cancer. Why does life have to be so complicated.
"Today we are doing vocabulary over chapters 14-16 in your chemistry book so you have the entire class hour to do this."
"Wonderful" I mutter under my breath.
The day is actually going by quick. It's already lunch so I grab my food and sit down at our usual table.
"How are you?" says David (yes he is back finally lol)
"Could be better... could be worse though." I respond
"Oh, um are you feeling okay? You look a little pale like your sick."
"Yeah" agrees Melissa
"Guys, I'm fine. Don't worry about me." I lie because they would force me to go to the nurse when I'm probably just hungry since I didn't eat breakfast today.
"Anyways what about you Melissa? How is your day going?"asks David
I start to zone out because well I'm not saying this to be mean but Melissa talks a lot and I mean A LOT. One time I asked her how her day went and she spent two hours talking about her day. And yeah I know I'm the one that asked her but I didn't know she was going to talk that long.
"Calie" I hear David say
I snap back into reality instantly.
"Oh, sorry. I zoned out"
"Yeah, I seen that. What are you guys goin to do after school?" he asks
"We were going to go to the mall. You want to join us?" says Melissa
"I can't I've got football practice. Sorry"
"Oh, right I forgot" says Melissa as the bell rings
"Bye you two!" shouts Melissa.
"Bye!" we say in a chorus. David and I have the same class after lunch so we just walk with each other.
I want to tell her right then and there that I love her and I have loved her ever since third grade when we became friends. But I'm too afraid that would ruin our perfectly good friendship we have right now. I mean her lips so kissable. and her kiss is probably unmissable, her fingertips so touchable, and her eyes irresistible. But one stupid move and we could be not friends and that's to big of a risk to take. But maybe we could find a way to work this out.
Hey I'm sorry for taking forever to update because once again school... anyways next weekend I'm going to this thing called believe so that means I won't be able to update I'm sorry I'm also sorry for any spelling errors I made ily ~Katy