I woke up before Niall and I was actually quite refreshed. I put on light clothes and slipped down to the kitchen. On the way there I peeked at the Christmas tree and I smiled. It felt throughout the body that soon it was Christmas. I really looked forward to seeing the family and to get home to my homeland. I went into his kitchen and I started to cook breakfast. I made scrambled eggs and I boiled tea. It was nice to be alone and I didn't think much of anything. I was just happy! I almost jumped when I felt Nialls arms around my body. He held me tight and kissed my neck softly.
"You didn't wake me up?"
"No, you need to sleep."
He smiled and he caressed my stomach with his hands. He looked at me when I toasted bread and he seemed to like having me there.
"So you're going to give me a breakfast?" he whispered hoarsely. I nodded and I laughed a little bit.
"I can't miss that you like food?"
He kissed my neck again and it went as pleasant tingles through my body. I giggled.
He laughed and he seemed not to care,
"I love to kiss you." he murmured. "And all the other things that I can do to you."
Niall was calm and he looked at me all the time. It was as if he didn't dare to release me with his eyes and he kept me under surveillance, so that I couldn't leave him.
"So what should we do today?" I got up. "Sitting at home or actually do something?"
He smiled a little bit.
"I wonder if we should go to someone? Maybe we can go to Harry? He usually appreciate that I show up?"
I looked at Niall. I understood that he was missing his friends, because he now almost only was with me. I nodded a little bit.
"Sounds like a good plan."
He laughed a little bit and he looked at me closely.
"Okay, so we go to Harry?"
"You said that?"
Niall raised his eyebrows and it was as if he wanted to joke with me.
"So you wouldn't want to be here with just me?"
"No, and you don't want to be here with just me?"
He played like he was annoyed, and his eyes shone.
"I might want to sit at home with you?" he said with an angry voice. "You know, I don't want that Harry should get the idea that you are interested in him."
I burst into a laugh and it tingled all over my stomach.
"And why would I want Harry when I already have the best boyfriend in the world?"
Actually he just stared at me. He smiled but he looked wide-eyed at me.
I nodded and I tried not to laugh more.
"Of course I mean what I say?"
Niall seemed satisfied and he drank up the last in the teacup.
"Talk about that we are perfect!"
He looked at me and it was as he had many opinions about why.
"You're perfect in my eyes and I'm perfect in your eyes." He raised an eyebrow and smiled awry. "It must mean only one thing. That we are prefect?"
I laughed and I nodded. I looked at him and it was one of those magical second. It was as if everything that happened between us, was meant to happen and I couldn't see myself with anyone other guy than with Niall.
Harry was happy when we showed up at his door. I had thought that he was most popular in One Direction, but there wasn't a single paparazzi as far as the eye could see.
"Come in." he said and he smiled at us both. "How about playing video games?"
Niall hesitated and he pulled me into the hall.
"Harry, we have a girl here now."
"But that's okay!" I exclaimed. "I played a lot with my cousins."
Harry lit up.
"Are you good at football?"
"No, but I can try?"
It was wonderful to look at Niall. Harry was the one who seemed more calm. He sat more and complained quietly when he missed a football or when Niall scored. My dear boyfriend was more on the ball and he almost cried when he missed the target. I just enjoyed. It was wonderful to be with Niall and Harry seemed to be a good friend.
"Is anyone home?"
Louis showed up and he was surprised that Niall and I was there, but he said nothing about it.
"Hello?" I said kindly. Louis smiled and he came into the room. He quickly saw what they were playing and he threw out his arms in the air.
"But my God! Don't say that you play without me?"
Niall laughed a little bit.
"I had no idea that you would show up?"
Louis just smiled and he sat down on the couch next to them.
"Can I play too?"
Harry nodded quietly and he gave him a quick glance.
"We just have to play finished."
Louis agreed, and then he smiled at me.
"So what about Jenny?" he asked. "I heard you were going home to your parents over Christmas?"
I realized that Niall had really said everything to everyone.
"Well that's the plan."
Louis seemed like that we planned, and he leaned back on the couch.
"I and Eleanor are going to celebrate Christmas at home with my parents and then with hers. We go to both their home."
I noticed that Harry looked quickly at him. Louis blushed a little bit and immediately I began to wonder what it was that they didn't say. Niall seemed not to care.
"Fun!" I said quickly just to say something.
"Yes Christmas is hectic." continued Louis and he saw on the television. "But come on Niall." it was as if he wanted to quickly change the subject. "You play like a wimp."
Niall just laughed.
I sat in Nialls lap and we watched as Louis and Harry played. I had a hunch and it was as if there was something going on between Louis and Harry. I didn't dare to ask anything and I was thinking about Eleanor. She was a good girlfriend. Then I came to think of the fact that the fans called Louis and Harry for Larry, but it was only fantasy.. or?
"What are you thinking?"
Niall smiled at me and he held me tight. I was lying with my head on his shoulder and I sat diagonally across his lap.
He kissed my forehead and he looked at me closely.
"Are you hungry?"
I looked at him. It appeared that the issue was more to him than to me. He was hungry.
Niall kissed me lightly.
"Shall we go home or do you want to eat at a restaurant?"
"Can't we all eat together?" exclaimed Harry. I saw that they were ready and Louis had won. He cheered and then he seemed to hesitate.
"But don't you see that Niall wants to be alone with Jenny?"
"I just thought..."
Louis laughed and he smiled at me.
"It's okay if you leave."
Niall and I got in the car and I just had to ask.
"What is it between Louis and Harry?"
Niall looked at me and he cleared his throat a little bit.
"What do you mean?"
I frowned and I looked at him.
"They were just strange to each other and it felt like Louis wanted us to go?"
He just smiled in response. He started the car and not until we were almost there, he gave me a quick glance.
"I just know that they have had a relationship." he said quickly. "It's something we don't get to talk about and we shouldn't ask a lot of questions about it."
Niall laughed a little bit.
Niall ordered the food and he did as always everything to make sure I had everything I needed.
"But they have a relationship now?"
I couldn't stop thinking about Larry. Niall looked at me for a long time and he leaned slightly toward me.
"Please, Jenny!" he whispered. "I don't know more than you know. Management just said that we shouldn't poke or trying to sort out any that don't have with ourselves to do."
"But they are your friends?"
"But it's their private life and private business, I wont bother. We have signed contracts about it."
"But I haven't?"
He laughed a little bit.
"No, but I promise that soon you are going to do, unless you are silent about certain things."
"May I have your signature?"
It started getting fans around the table. They wanted to take a shoot of Niall and they wanted to talk to him. I didn't feel like an outside because I understood that this was his job. Even that the girls looked coldly at me, I chose to eat and don't bother me. Niall smiled and he didn't do more than what they wanted.
In the end, he had to excuse himself.
"Don't you see that I'm here in private?" he said kindly. "I want to eat my food with my girlfriend."
I looked up at him and then I looked at the girls.
"But only one more signature?"
I smiled at Niall.
"It's okay!" I said kindly. "Let them get what they want."
He nodded, annoyed. Okay, did I said the wrong things? Nialls mood changed and he didn't seemed to be in a good mood anymore. He was annoyed and he hardly looked at me.
I just wanted to disappear. He took my hand and he almost pulled me from that place.
I disagreed with him.
"You asks too many questions and then you say against me?"
"But you love the fans and I saw at them how happy they were?"
He shook his head, as if he wanted to emphasize that I was wrong.
"I'm just happy with you." he said quickly, and cold. "I don't need that stuff when I'm with you."
I felt small.
"You are changed?"
He stopped and he just stared at me. It was as if he didn't understand what I was talking about.
"Come on Jenny!" he whispered cold. "What do you ask of me?"
I just wanted to be contract into a puddle and disappear.
"Nothing!" I whispered uncertain. Niall gulped and he let go of my hand.
"I'm sorry that I might get angry sometimes, but you must understand that it's not easy to be me."
I backed away a few steps.
He shook his head.
"No you don't know much."
I was almost afraid of him.
"Can we go now?" I whispered. "Or should the fans see that we fight?"
"We don't fight, we're talking!"
What had happened? When we got back to Niall again, he was changed beyond recognition. He sat at the computer and he hadn't paid me a single second. Okay, it was our first fight and I had no idea what it was about. I chose to drag myself away and instead I went up to the bedroom. It felt empty to not sit next to him. Quickly, I picked up the phone and I peeked on twitter. Niall wrote nothing about me, about us or something that was private.
// Soon, Christmas Eve. Don't forget our last record, Five //
I fell asleep with my clothes on. I don't know why I was so tired. Perhaps because of sadness or just because of all the thoughts? I woke up in the middle of the night and Niall was on the other side of the bed. He lay under the covers and I realized that he had changed into night clothes. He hadn't even tried to wake me up?
I don't know why, but I realized that everything had gone too fast foreward. I went away from the bed and I picked up my things. Niall was mad at me and he was right. I was curious and I said too many things at times. I found my suitcase and it went quickly to pack everything. I gathered up all the packages to Sweden and finally I called a taxi. Don't ask me why I chose this resort, I needed to think and I needed to get away from Niall.
I cried all the way home. When I put the bag down in my apartment, I just wanted to die. Damn what a fool I was! I shouldn't ask a lot of questions about people I didn't know and I didn't want to be an enemy to him. I locked the door and I laid down on my bed with my clothes on. I was sad and looked up at the ceiling before I finally managed to fall asleep.
December 18 went down in history as the worst day of my life.